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moon April 4th, 2016 5:09 AM

Da,

I'm sorry, I don't know how it started and I can't seem to stop now. I don't want to. I just hope I'm not stepping on toes - I really just want to help.

Margot April 4th, 2016 6:11 AM

DA,
I don't know what happened. I don't know why I feel miles away sitting next to you. I want it to stop.

DA,
Please pull it together and soon. I feel like I'm slowly losing the ground below me.

killer-curry April 8th, 2016 5:19 AM

Dear Anonymous,

This would be the first time I ever write a letter to you. Well, recently my dad and I had some arguments about my computer usage, well yeah I'm quite a PC gamer and my dad dislikes it. I reduced a lot of playing computer games and use the computer wisely like, surfing the net for info and PC.

But, my dad does not notice it and keeps thinking that I always play computer games.In addition, I always had some aggression feelings when talking this with him. I tried to calm down when arguing with him, because he was quite a bad temper person. It is not good to make him bad, he could do something bad , for instance he threw away the keyboard furiously.

But, the thing is, I just going for light gaming and I'm not like a hardcore gamer who always play games until wee hours. Yes, I was, but I had changed, I have a real life.

I do hope I have a better solution beside continue arguing.

Sanguine April 9th, 2016 4:57 AM

DA,

I told myself that I'd never let anyone make me feel worthless again, so please, don't give me a reason to think that you don't care. I can't do this again, I just can't.

Sun April 9th, 2016 11:38 PM

DA,

You're the only one who understands me completely, thank you! I love you and speak soon.

Love,
your fool.

Zelda April 11th, 2016 3:48 AM

DA,

give me a reason to hold on because i swear i'm done here

Taemin April 11th, 2016 11:20 PM

DA,

If you know what you're doing is wrong then don't apologize, just don't do it.

DA,

I've done nothing to deserve someone like you in my life, and how unconditionally you care about me is constantly surprising.

Sonata April 12th, 2016 3:56 AM

da,

honestly, what do you want from me? how do you say those things so easily when they dont even mean anything to you? please, stop. i cant take all this anymore. if you want something more from us tell me now, but dont act like youre interested only to go to someone else's bed later that same night.

Fannie April 12th, 2016 12:00 PM

DA

I wish you could stay.

Palamon April 12th, 2016 6:05 PM

Dear Anonymous,

I'm tired of your treatment of me. Why do I put up with your program to begin with? It's annoying.

Fannie April 16th, 2016 6:26 AM

DA

I was so, so happy to hear you're doing so well. I've been worried about you for so long and now I feel like we both have closure. Keep doing awesome!

Sun April 16th, 2016 8:28 AM

Dear Fool,

I'm still remaining hopeful. Hopefully, we'll get back together eventually.

P.S. I wish the same for my good friend, who's in the same position like us.

Your Idiot.

feralwaffle April 16th, 2016 12:39 PM

dear existence.

ever since i was little you made me feel "important". ive lived through events you'd only find in works of fiction, and you made it clear i was a protector. i was young, naive sure it was all in my head i failed to listen... twice. I cost two people their lives because i failed to follow directions. what kind of greater power puts that kind of responsibility on someone so young? by the time i was out of high school id seen demons and felt the spirits of thousands gathered around me, had threats on my life. and saved others from the same on their own. what is my end game? what is all this working tword am i just here to help as many as i can, or as i fear am i just being tempered for a greater challenge ahead. and most of all, why am i alone in this. why must i hide who i am from everyone till these facts are irrefutable by even the most hardened skeptics.

i dont want to be alone anymore.

Sun April 18th, 2016 4:13 AM

Dear Fool,

Thank you, thank you, thank you! Your presence really means a lot! Yeah, you don't have to response. Just sit there, just like that. Simply read my messages.

P.S. Don't forget to unread my messages.
Love,
Your Idiot

feralwaffle April 19th, 2016 1:10 AM

Dear new... "job"

even though the first time i saw you, all i could think about was how gorgeous you are.
i was worried by you and the things you do...i avoided you... but when i felt it was my job to help you ( even though it pisses me off when i have these feelings) i gave you my number, i let you in. and the next day true to my intuition i did in fact save you. i spent the rest of the day with you making sure you were ok, helping you get things sorted out and i realized i absolutely adore you. things haven't been easy, for either of us i know. but as i lay on top of you goofing around with you i realized you dont push people away because you want to be alone, you do it because you want someone to fight hard for you, because you know you wont be able to take it if they leave.

i wont let you down. ill be here for about a year longer i think. and ill do my best to be that person for you.

i wish i could express myself to you.. or anyone so you'll understand me and what i do. but there is simply no way to express it without sounding crazy. "god talks to me, i have super powers, im precognitive.. or even that i just have a heightened empathy."

ill simply post those thoughts here so im not the one doing the pushing.

i have a love for you that i have for every one of my "jobs" and as long as im in your life, ill do my best to help you no matter what that might mean.

feralwaffle April 19th, 2016 1:21 PM

dear .. website...

seriously.. i just wrote a huge thing and you logged me out..not cool -_-

feralwaffle April 19th, 2016 2:33 PM

dear cloudy skies

( im writing this for the second time...hopefully it doesnt shut me out again)

i need to post this because i have to get it off my chest. ( yes even though ive written this all out already.and i know it will lose some of the initial emotion. i need it to be.. somewhere people can see it and not just in my head.)

as i said ive in a previous post ive only not listened twice...

the first time i was 11.. i was in an online chatroom.. talking to this girl who was maybe 16-18 years old. she was very sad and scared she told me she had been considering suicide and needed help. we talked for hours i tried my best to help her to make her laugh to do anything.. eventually she gave me her number.. needed me to call her to talk her down. i got off the internet after writing it down grabbed the house phone and went into my room. i knew i had to call her but.. i was so scared... i just stared at her phone number for what seemed like forever.. then i folded the paper up and put it into my drawer and shut it. not long after at school i picked up a newspaper to check out the comics and i saw her picture, she had indeed killed herself.

the second time i was a freshman in high school
he was my friend, but during this particular point in time we werent exactly friendly.
i had transferred schools for a few years and when i came back he had changed. i was a dorky kid and people liked to mess with me or try to fight me and he wasnt really an exception. i always tried to avoid fights though to avoid getting kicked out of school or sent to juvie. i still remember the way he looked at me.. glaring.. ill never forget it.....im not sure why but he had chased me to one of my classes looking to fight and this time i just felt so strongly i should go out there and punch him right in the face.. he just stood there at the door waiting ..but that wasnt me.. it wasnt who i was and i couldnt understand the feeling at all. and for some reason it took all my strength to turn and just sit down.. and i dont think i regret anything more

when he got home his father shot him in the head, then shot his sister ( who lived) and then killed himself.

i cant help but feel that if i had gone out to fight him it would have been different, maybe his mom would have come and picked him up. maybe we would have went to juvie, maybe because the police were there his father would have lost his nerve.. and after everything else ive been through in my life.. its something i have a hard time not believing i could have changed.

the next day in school they made us write a paper on how his death effected us in our home room. how we felt and everything, to see if we needed grief counselors maybe.. i told my teacher that i had felt guilty for his death.. told him everything i just wrote out here. but i never got anything back about it. nobody came to talk to me.. the teacher refused to even look at me. my friend had been in every one of this teachers clubs, and apparently was one of his favorite students i had learned the next year. i spent the rest of the year reading books in the corner in silence... i dont think im the only person who blames myself for his death.

a bunch of friends and i went to his showing one day during school one of our moms picked us up
i remember the crushing guilt i felt being there watching everyone around me cry as i stood in the corner alone, afraid of going inside the show room, i couldnt cry.. a friend had mocked his death the day after the incident and i slammed him into the wall i shed a single tear but thats all i could do.

i cant count all the times ive wished i could cry.

eventually we did line up to see the casket they had fixed up his face with makeup and something else but when i went to look at his face, i saw a gaping hole, and the same scowl he had the last time i saw him, i quickly made my way outside and tried to escape into the clouds while we waited for our ride. not long after my friends joined me all i could do was stare at my tie. then our fourth grade teacher came up..told us how proud she was of all of us.. came up and gave each of us a hug.. and at that point i felt all of it.. all the guilt.. it was my fault everyone was here im the cause of everyone's grief that day and im accepting a hug.. i couldn't do anything.. couldn't say anything to anyone about any of this i just sat there silently.

and i made it clear to myself i would never ignore that feeling.. that voice that.. whatever you want to call it again.

even though its destroyed me. even though ive been emotionally shattered into pieces. gone crazy, alienated myself from my friends and hurt people who mean more than anything in the world to me..ive never stopped listening.

last night that man i saved my most recent ..." job" from showed up at her work, not long after she dropped me off at home . i was at her house with her, and i cant stop myself from thinking, he knew where she lived if i hadnt been there what could have happened. the second time in a week a single feeling saved someone.. maybe not from death, but with this person being a convicted felon with warrants out for his arrest for violent crimes i dont think it would be something nice. luckily they arrested him there at the store

these are the reasons i always listen... there are many more.. many more things i will post here
because i simply can not talk about them..

and also because i want you to know... i want you to read this because maybe... maybe theres someone out there like me, who listens..for whatever reason... even if it destroys them.. even if you think they dont care or they have hurt you..even if it goes against everything they stand for or makes them look like a complete idiot.. there might be someone out there who absolutely loves you and is willing, or has already done something to make your life better.

or theres someone in here who knows.. knows what im going through.. feels that crushing responsibility.. avoids people because of it.. and i want them to know they arent alone.
that i love them and i promise that even though life sucks.. alot. its always going to end up working out.

its going to be ok.. for all of us.. i promise.

SmokedPaprika April 19th, 2016 2:44 PM

Hmm, I don't like going on rants, so I'll keep this short.

Dear personality type -

Intellect is a talent - a talent of comprehension and articulation, perhaps, but not one meant for gloating and belittling. Like all talents and skills, it only means something if you use it to contribute to society and the bettering of lives of those who may not have that talent. Truly talented actors, writers, and directors do not look down on those who do not have their same talents, but do their best to bring some sort of empathy of emotional catharsis to those presented to their talents. They do not spend their days putting their audience into graves.

Dear personality type... truly talented people don't gloat. They contribute to a team called society to help others become better people and understand themselves a little better. It is not meant to be a field where you stomp on those below you. So be a gentle giant, okay? Use your talents for - and we've been taught this basic concept from the age of two... Use your talents for love and empathy. Because those things exist. You're just contributing to the wave of anger and hatred against it because you're tired of the wave of anger and hatred.

Flowerchild April 20th, 2016 4:34 PM

dear anonymous

I don't know why you won't just leave me alone. We're pretty irreconcilable at this point and your unapologetic attitude hasn't made things any better. I miss the old you, my first real friend in all of high school, when it was us against the world, but you've turned into a complete jerk and I have better people to spend my time with. What you did to me at the party certainly hasn't helped with my opinion of you. I want you to leave me alone, and stop telling my what hair colors are "proper".

Sonata April 21st, 2016 6:26 AM

da

I guess I always realized it, I just didn't want to acknowledge it. We joke, laugh, play flirt and talk to each other but at the end of the day it's nothing special just simple play. You do the same for so many others at all times of the day and I'm just here stuck thinking on you. I know I should try to move on, to stop thinking about you and wishing for things that won't ever be. But it's hard when you're always right there in front of me. I can't get you out of my head and it's killing me. I just want it all to end one way or the other.

Frequency April 21st, 2016 11:10 AM

Dear Anonymoose;

I actually enjoy being the Soundboard Guy in spite of me acting like I hate it. Don't tell anyone.

Fannie April 21st, 2016 3:07 PM

DA

How about you pay us more if you're going to consistently ask for the near impossible. None of us have enough arms to do that shit.

pastelspectre April 22nd, 2016 1:13 PM

Dear Anonymous,
I'm glad that you are out my life now to be honest, even if I did love you. You did not accept me for who I am and you didn't accept my choices and my gender issues. You were toxic to me and I am sad I did not realize it sooner. However, I am with someone better now whom makes me happier. I hope you end up regretting not accepting me for who I am.

moon April 24th, 2016 9:07 PM

DA,

https://img.buzzfeed.com/buzzfeed-static/static/2013-11/enhanced/webdr02/13/13/anigif_enhanced-buzz-2896-1384367897-20.gif

Frequency April 26th, 2016 10:47 AM

Dear Anonymoose;

I hope you're doing alright. I still haven't dropped that mixtape like I said I would, but I did wind up getting really good at fighting games. #TheStruggleIsReal, so one promise at a time.

P.S: You still owe me that bag of Juicy Twists. Run my fade, dawg.


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