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I have no idea what's making you think that (actually I think I might, but if anything I'm thinking is a part of it, then it's a huge misunderstanding), but keeping it contained isn't going to help. :/ Even if it may sting, it's better to let it out than to allow them to tempt you silly decisions like that. Of course, if you tell someone, then you're going to have to listen to them and what they say, even if it might sting in thr process. Otherwise, it'll just go in one huge circle and nothing progresses.
If you don't want to tell it to someone, bring up a word document and write it down there. Maybe that will at least get some of it out. /doesn't recommend dear anon since it's no doubt member related and may or may not be obvious.