I have some very close friends even if they're not always constant in my life, and I’ve learnt to become OK with that. Our lives have become busier but they’ll always be close friends to me as they’re people I can envision still keeping up with in the future, who have supported me through a lot, who I could talk to about anything and vice versa. There are very few people that I’ve ever experienced that with. I think I have a lot of good friends in that I enjoy spending time with them and being in their company, but close friends are those who I really do trust and who I've shared a lot of experiences and memories with, and vice versa. I also do my best to make time for them regardless of what is happening whereas with most friends I will often just wait until life is a lot less hectic, but with close friends I really will clear out my schedule for them even if a lot is going on.
I value these friends incredibly highly, but I also feel like at times - it means I do end up somewhat neglecting a lot of other good friendships I have because I’m so focused on maintaining the super close ones I have. That’s something I’ve been actively trying to change as I think it’s important to expand and seek friends outside of immediate, close circles. And I feel like the energy I put into close friends means that I often end up having more one-sided friendships where I keep meaning to interact first and hang out with those that are not as close but who I still love, and I neglect that. I feel like in that regard I haven’t been a good friend to others so I’m definitely going to change that if nothing else this year.
But yeah, I do feel like I have some really close friends. Sometimes things don’t work out in that we drift too much or we just aren’t compatible and it isn’t the same as before, but I’ll still treasure all the moments we had regardless.
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