I've grown more weary and fatigued. I find myself wanting to get far away from other humans and hoping that space travel comes sooner then later. The more info I obtain that more misery I inevitably find.
The sort of "info" that you find might not be the best for you. It might be best for you to take a conscious choice to look at the good side of humanity and not the bad. Not ignoring it, as it is always there, but
choosing to look at the good. Believe me, if you keep up with it, it might make life better for you.
I used to be a good God fearing American, as I was raised to be, but life wore me down to a point where I did not have the energy to care.
Similar advice to above, except there is no reason to fear God. Rather, fear what
you can do to yourself, and choose higher rather then lower actions. It feels honorable and right to do so.
i think i've changed a lot, especially from when i was younger. when i was younger i could make friends at least somewhat easily. i wasn't as sad all the time (talking about elementary not middle/high school). i think the factors that brought me to change were mostly my depression and my social/general anxiety.
i have become more isolative and much more quiet, stopped careing about alot of things, and recently accepted the fact i had severe depression, fortunatly its under control, and if anything... it may get worse, but i hope not
Choosing to look at the good can be beneficial, and you have
the choice to do so. I used to have depression, and I found that looking on the brighter side was helpful. This was, however, hard, as while in a depression, the mind can find ways to keep convincing you that everything is not so great. I had to fight against it again and again, but I finally won over depression by being persistent and never letting my guard down.
I haven't changed particularly much really although I think I've tipped slightly further left since getting sick has introduced me to a whole new world of shit that is made worse by right wing economics.
Easing up on the politics, can be very helpful, as their enticement can be dangerous. I am not saying to abandon them altogether, but simply to ease up on them. I did so, and it has done wonders.
When I was first learning about things in the world, particularly all the bad things, I wanted to do everything to help people. I'd still like to help people now, but you can already tell from the way I worded it that I'm more reserved about this desire. Just getting older and having more experiences and setbacks and responsibilities makes it so that I don't feel I have as much to give of myself as I thought I had.
There are both many bad and many good things in the world. While it is for sure worthwhile to help others, as you made note in your final sentence, you might not have as much to give as you did before.
There is nothing wrong with that, as working on yourself is very important, but if your heart ever feels inclined to give to something, either with time or money, don't feel that "I have just so much to do. I cannot give to these people, as I have many responsibilities." Giving, as I have found in my life recently, has it's joys and benefits as well, and it is definitely worthwhile for me to put aside some of my duties, which are not as important as I thought, to give. I have found that giving to the right places has actually increased my own character, and it shows.
Entering 2016, I was center-right (e,g. John McCain), but now I've shifted toward the alt-right and "Trumpism." Screw the establishment GOP.
Try not to be too moved by any modern politician. Unlike those of old, who had their faults but also their virtues, I cannot see myself emulating any of these people, or to look up to them saying "That's is what I would like to be. That is how I would like to act." In fact, I find myself usually finding that what they do, I should not.
*smiles casually* I feel less of a need to hold back my knowledge on spirituality. I see now that it's something that a few would actually want to get a hold of. I'm also less likely to hold naive ambitions. I also meditate frequently.
Interesting opening sentences. Only a small part of society looks towards
any spirituality. I used to think that perhaps people looked down on it, but I know realize that many don't even
know that there are other religions or other ways of life aside from the Abrahamic ones, and many completely ignore spirituality whatsoever. You are right in saying that
very few people want to get a hold of it.
Meditation is a great practice, for sure. Many people, I feel, would be much better off if they meditated.
