Hitting Rock Bottom Page 2

Started by kissing. raindrops February 16th, 2009 6:25 PM
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kissing. raindrops

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I know how she would feel. When you get to the point of contemplating suicide... your body feels so weak, your soul so shallow. I remember finding it hard to walk, my legs felt like sticks.

(no, I'm not taking pity - I've been dying to get these emotions out ever since I actually got to that point).
Basically me back in the day.. It felt so sick, on top of that my heart was shattered, my chest hurt.

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It was horrible. For a week I felt souless. I even began to show physical signs, like low temperature and pale skin. I felt like a shadow.

@ Penguin - Combine true loneliness with failing everything you do, from school to personal desires, and mix in everyone telling you're a failure.

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It was horrible. For a week I felt souless. I even began to show physical signs, like low temperature and pale skin. I felt like a shadow.

@ Penguin - Combine true loneliness with failing everything you do, from school to personal desires, and mix in everyone telling you're a failure.
That does suck. But his point is that "rock bottom" isn't only that - it's that combined with every other bad thing that can happen to you happens, like what he said before: drugs, financial, etc. Rock bottom is the point where you "can't get any lower." That is quite low but the real point is that isn't quite rock bottom yet. Just think of all the things you do have - like food. And a chance at an education. And a bed. And a computer.

I'm not talking from personal experience, BTW. I just know some people.
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Censored: I never said anything about my life. I'm not comparing mine to anybody else's. I actually think I've been feeling pretty good my whole life. [no examples].
How do you have a job, but no money?
That situation is all-too-common among teens. People are SUPPOSED to experience that kind of stuff.
People's moms are supposed to be psycho?

And the reason I never had any money is because once I got a job, I had to by everything for my self, clothes, school supplies, food, gas, pretty much the whole nine yards. at 16.

I truly believe that I hit rock bottom, I would sit in my car for hours on end contemplating on whether or not you want to pull out in front of a semi on the highway. One of the reasons I didn't is because I figured know my luck it wouldn't kill me, it would only injure me for life.

Now I'm much better, and live 700 miles away from that (insert what ever you want here) of a mother.

I know that you never compared your life to others, I just don't want you to be too hard on someone who is going through a tough time, because believe me the last think they need to hear is that there problem is minute.
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Penguin13

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People's moms are supposed to be psycho?

And the reason I never had any money is because once I got a job, I had to by everything for my self, clothes, school supplies, food, gas, pretty much the whole nine yards. at 16.

I truly believe that I hit rock bottom, I would sit in my car for hours on end contemplating on whether or not you want to pull out in front of a semi on the highway. One of the reasons I didn't is because I figured know my luck it wouldn't kill me, it would only injure me for life.

Now I'm much better, and live 700 miles away from that (insert what ever you want here) of a mother.

I know that you never compared your life to others, I just don't want you to be too hard on someone who is going through a tough time, because believe me the last think they need to hear is that there problem is minute.
Well, the thing is, people have to deal with that all the time. Some people have to deal with that and more. They learn to deal with it; why can't you?

I'm not being hard on them, they're being hard on themselves. They need to realize, that their problem probably is minute, and they should be looking towards the good times ahead, because their crappy situation will pass.
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Well, the thing is, people have to deal with that all the time. Some people have to deal with that and more. They learn to deal with it; why can't you?
They way I dealt with it was by getting away fromt the situation, first I moved out, but living the same town I still had to deal with her, so I moved out of state.

I'm not being hard on them, they're being hard on themselves. They need to realize, that their problem probably is minute, and they should be looking towards the good times ahead, because their crappy situation will pass.
Even if there problem is minute, you should not tell a suicidal person that their problem is nothing to worry about. Something I have learned in emergency response is that everyone thinks their problem is the worst, and in their life it is, but when they only have a broken bone, and the guy 20 feet from them is missing a leg…
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(Lol at the advert at the bottom of the page - Rock Bottom prices on golfing equipment XD)

Ok, now I haven't hit rock-bottom in my life. I've been pretty depressed for years now and to be honest, thats never really gone away. Mainly because I don't have any idea why I even feel depressed most of the time. The way I found to deal with it was to find somewhere where i could really just chill out and really be myself. That was PC. Since I started coming on here, I've soent more time tha ever on the internet, but I've noticed that I don't feel so bad any more. Of course, this is probably like the psychological equivalent of flat-lining, but y'know, I'm sorta happy for now.

Onto what other people have said - penguin13...while I can see where you're coming from, you can't pretend that you know exactly how bad everyone under the age of 18 has had it in their lives. Tragic accidents, family breakups and psychological problems can happen to anyone, at any age.

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I almost hope I've hit rock bottom before since that means the rest of my life will be clear sailing. :P But no, I doubt I have. I've had my fair share of problems but I can move on from them. This is a rather pessimistic topic and I'm really only replying to reply to someone else though, so I'll get that out of the way...
Well, the thing is, people have to deal with that all the time. Some people have to deal with that and more. They learn to deal with it; why can't you?
Everyone has different abilities. What one person finds a piece of cake to deal with sends another into tears. Maybe someone can grit their teeth and get through a tough situation that someone else can't even imagine dealing with. :/ Sure, some people have really ridiculous problems ("BAAAAAAAAW someone I don't know called me names over the internet") but everyone has different limits. By your logic, we've all got really great lives with no room whatsoever to complain AT ALL because some kid in Africa is starving and his life is worse than ours. Yeah, sounds insensitive but... really, if you compare everything in your life to someone else's there will always be someone else who has it worse.

Seriously, I appreciate that you're trying to tell people that a lot of problems the typical PC user has are things that will pass and that they can move on from, but I don't see why that makes them any less problematic. Everyone deals with things differently and you've no right to judge that.


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I totally agree with Lightning.

For some, freaking out is preforming in front of a large crowd. That's a piece of cake for me, but losing an assignment causes me to run into a full-out panic. It differs for everyone.

(wow, I feel a little less depressed now)

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I almost hope I've hit rock bottom before since that means the rest of my life will be clear sailing. :P But no, I doubt I have. I've had my fair share of problems but I can move on from them. This is a rather pessimistic topic and I'm really only replying to reply to someone else though, so I'll get that out of the way...

Everyone has different abilities. What one person finds a piece of cake to deal with sends another into tears. Maybe someone can grit their teeth and get through a tough situation that someone else can't even imagine dealing with. :/ Sure, some people have really ridiculous problems ("BAAAAAAAAW someone I don't know called me names over the internet") but everyone has different limits. By your logic, we've all got really great lives with no room whatsoever to complain AT ALL because some kid in Africa is starving and his life is worse than ours. Yeah, sounds insensitive but... really, if you compare everything in your life to someone else's there will always be someone else who has it worse.

Seriously, I appreciate that you're trying to tell people that a lot of problems the typical PC user has are things that will pass and that they can move on from, but I don't see why that makes them any less problematic. Everyone deals with things differently and you've no right to judge that.
I too agree because like I said, school was stressful for me since alot of the time I couldn't handle the pressure. It's not all because of my disability but it's part of it.

I have a hard time dealing with too much pressure. If someone pressures me in real life, I've been known to cry like a five year old.

While some else could easily find this easy but not everyone has a perfect life. I'm not saying my life is worse than anyone else, especially Patchisou Yutohru's life.

That doesn't mean I don't have my share of experiences. I've always felt like life wasn't worth living and all I have to do is work my mind away from those thoughts.

It's hard to do but people here probably find their own ways.

It's the same way when i get massive panic attacks over talking on the phone. It's a piece of cake for someone else but for me it's hard to get my parents to get me on the phone with someone. It's just something I can't do.
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Penguin13

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Seriously, I appreciate that you're trying to tell people that a lot of problems the typical PC user has are things that will pass and that they can move on from, but I don't see why that makes them any less problematic. Everyone deals with things differently and you've no right to judge that.

I'm not saying they're any less problematic. I'm just saying, NOTHING is worth being suicidal over. (Except a terminal illness that will kill you slowly and painfully)
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Well, I suppose I've hit rock bottom before, back in middle school. my friends stopped talking to me because I wasn't pretty and they'd openly mock me to my face. other kids would laugh, pick on me and throw things at me during class, little things like that. the rough part was that I didn't have any friends to go to since they all ditched me. at the time, I had never been totally alone without friends, it was something I had never experienced and it was hard. a little later, the girls that ditched me started a bad rumor that's still kinda out there four years later.

it lead to depression and social anxiety, i'd literally have panic attacks just thinking about going to school and I went to the bathroom everyday during lunch to cry.

luckily, I turned that the hell around. I learned if I wanted to be happy, only myself could do that, I couldn't wait for my friends to realize how mean they were. however, I did make friends in high school and got over most of the issues. it was a huge learning thing for me, it made me independent and know how to be optimistic. you need to hit rock bottom for things to come into perspective in your life!

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That's how I was for almost all of high school. That was nearly 5 years.

[Too lazy to quote everyone]

Misayu: School is nothing to get all worked up about. Sure, it may be very stressful, but it's nothing to get all "OMG I CANT HANDLE THIS," about.

celuthea: Read my response to Misayu. And feeling really down =/= rock bottom.

Varjak: Ok... hitting rock bottom because of sixth grade work? ... I don't want to sound like a douche, but that's just.. ... Well, by the description of what it was like, it just sounded like you had a tough time accepting low (read: not low) grades. You got over it, and you've accepted it.

Censored: I never said anything about my life. I'm not comparing mine to anybody else's. I actually think I've been feeling pretty good my whole life. [no examples].
How do you have a job, but no money?
That situation is all-too-common among teens. People are SUPPOSED to experience that kind of stuff.

Jupiter: Maybe you should see a doctor?

In general: cheer up guys.
School is nothing to get worked up about? What the hell. o___o; School is one of the most stressing things someone can do in life, seriously. Besides, some people can be afraid of getting low marks due to their parents reaction. They could be grounded or something, so don't make assumptions. :<

You don't have a right to tell people what and what not to be stressed and upset over, Penguin. It's their life and they make their own actions and get affected by them, not you. So until you've been in the EXACT same state that they've been in, don't say stuff like that. It's just making stupid assumptions.

Like Lightning/Erica stated, different people take different things in different ways. Just because you don't think "failing school and loving someone you can never have" doesn't hurt, that doesn't mean that it doesn't to anyone else. So before you start making stupid suggestions like that, tell yourself this; "Just because it doesn't hurt me doesn't mean it doesn't hurt someone else."

In answer to the actual thread, yes, I have. After my mum passed away I was feeling quite down about that, and then not long after, my best friend was murdered. I thought about suicide for like, two days, but that's it.
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Penguin13

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School is nothing to get worked up about? What the hell. o___o; School is one of the most stressing things someone can do in life, seriously. Besides, some people can be afraid of getting low marks due to their parents reaction. They could be grounded or something, so don't make assumptions. :<
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Ok, well, I'm not saying that you shouldn't get stressed out about school, I'm just saying that it's nothing to take drastic measures over.

You don't have a right to tell people what and what not to be stressed and upset over, Penguin. It's their life and they make their own actions and get affected by them, not you. So until you've been in the EXACT same state that they've been in, don't say stuff like that. It's just making stupid assumptions.
I'm not telling them they react x way to y situation. I'm just telling them they shouldn't be suicidal over ANYTHING. (except what I mentioned before)
And I didn't want to do this, but I've had some verrrrry terrible experiences in my life.

My first really bad experiences were towards the end of elementary school (about 4/5th grade). Both of my grandparents who I was very close to died within a year of each other. One due to very serious stomach troubles, the other to cancer. I wasn't able to attend either of their funerals. Also, I felt like I had just left them hanging, because the last words I said to them were "I'll call you as soon as I get home!" (during a trip to their house, which was an 8-hour flight).

It really started in middle school. My best friend had killed herself because her father abused her and her mother did nothing about it. I tried every possible way to help her out, cheer her up. In fact, she even made me feel like I had done that. She seemed a bit happier. She killed herself anyway. I felt completely useless. Like nothing I did mattered. That's when my grades started slipping. Eventually, I barely able to pass on to high school (through summer school AND correspondence courses). I also started isolating myself from all of my friends, because I was going to a different high school than them.

During high school, my scholastic performance was miserable at best. Overall, I had 11.75 credits at the end of 5 years (yes, I did an extra year in school), and eventually got kicked out. I went through a phase of cutting myself and such (lol, stupid me). During my 5 years, I had literally no friends. Not a single one. I don't know if it was my fault for pushing any potential friends away, or if people genuinely didn't like me. Well, high school was a 5 year voluntary solitary confinement.

After I got kicked out of school, I had two choices. Live on my own (which would've been on the streets), or go to a 5.5 month residential quasi-military alternative learning school. It was basically a boot camp/school for some of the worst kids you'll ever know (except for me, of course). They were all druggies/dealers, law-breakers, or just straight up violent. I was scared poopless. For the first few weeks, I cried EVERY night. It was terrible. All the cadres (military instructors) yelled all the time, no one was nice to me, I couldn't handle the physical activity, etc. I even tried to run away once, but I went back because I eventually found out that I wouldn't have anywhere to go to if I did leave.

Also, stuff like my mom is a sadistic, overbearing psychopath. She lets my sister live here for free, because she knows I can't stand my nephew. It's torture. She also controls every aspect of my life. My dad is gone most of the time (voluntary missions for the military, but more recently the military contractor he's working for). I owe my parents over $2500 dollars, I can't pay for college and I can't join the military until I lose more weight. Oh, that's one more horrible thing about my life. At one point I was about 265 pounds. Right now I'm 205, but I still need to lose about 10 more pounds.

(I'd list more crap, but I have to go to my work that requires 4 hours of excruciatingly vigorous physical labor that pays minimum wage.)

But do I let this get to me? No. Have I hit rock-bottom? No. Have I contemplated suicide? No.
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While I feel your pain, you only have yourself to blame for pushing your own friends away. And while having grandparents and a best friend die, that doesn't mean you can just tell people how to handle a situation in their own life, Penguin.

I'm sorry about your losses though.
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Penguin13

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I'm not telling anybody how to handle anything. I'm just suggesting that some people take it too far.

Some would say it's not entirely my fault that I was pushing people away. I could've been mentally disturbed. Scared to lose someone else close to me or something.

Meh, don't have to be sorry about the losses. It's mine to deal with it, and I do :P
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Hitting 'rock bottom' doesn't even make sense to me.

The worst that you've ever felt feels like rock bottom to you, but when you fall that step lower it changes. People have different reactions to different things. People fortunate in some ways can be unfortunate in others, and it's all about what matters to them.

The way to never hit rock bottom, is not to acknowledge it. Just get up.

I have had a fortunate life all in all, so excuse me if I've upset anyone. But I know the worst I have felt, I have not seen anything in my life in the immediate future, except it worsening.
But I broke over a series of events, I got a whole new attitude, and a whole new reason to do this.

Now seeing (most) anyone tell of their depression or lack of quality of life just annoys me. That they can do literally nothing about it, and that they have the energy to moan. For whatever reason. Some reasons, I agree are dumb as ****, but that doesn't void them. Maybe a new outlook is required, or whatever, but almost no one is stuck in a hole too deep to find a life they enjoy.

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