Ever thought of suicide ?

Started by Ranx January 5th, 2014 2:49 AM
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Did anyone of you ever thought about jumping of a building or something? ...
do you think its the right thing?
Well do you think someone can get soo depressed that he\she thinks dying is easier ...
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Yeah I used to have a big problem with it in my teens, it was very frequent but I always managed to pull myself away from it. Got really close some times though. I know I can be a hard ass but anyone who genuinely feels like offing themselves can talk to me and we can talk about it because I understand what it feels like, it's a very dark and scary place to be.

And I can just say this much, but an acquaintance from high school killed himself about 2-3 weeks ago and even though I wasn't super close to him it tore me wide open; destroying yourself like that has a huge effect on the community, so if you have a problem and need someone to have a shoulder to lean on, I'm there for you.

The thing about me though is that if you're upset I'll be blunt about it, which some people don't like, but I'm here to help you with your problems and make yourself better, not feel sorry for you. I'm a bit of an active person, so some people don't like that. But I'm honestly here to help because I know what it's like to feel like that.

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I've thought about suicide a lot in the abstract, how it would affect my family and friends and how horrible a state of mind would have to be for someone to actually even consider it as an option - but I've never thought about it beyond that. Purely hypothetical and academic.
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Not that I'm like permanently morbid and/or depressed about life and such, but...

Lets say, in my instance, the question would be formulated much better if it was when I don't think about it
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Yes, and it's what got me banned from BMGF in the first place, and I've fully regret it. I easily get into a depressive state whenever someone scowls at me for spineless behavior, and I always thought suicide was the only answer, because I thought it would make them happy if I was gone for good, so I won't bother them again. If only people were able to tell between good opinions and bad opinions, I wouldn't think like this.

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For mere seconds when I've been at some of my lowest points, but I'd never go through with it, ever.

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I never seriously thought about it. When I was really little and was really upset, I would say I'd commit suicide, but I never really knew what it meant.

Now, I'd never even consider doing it. I don't care if I was the most miserable person in the world, I wouldn't do it for these reasons:
1. It can always get better. Why end it all before you give life a chance to make things better?
2. I'll be missed. Even if it's just by a few people, even if it's just by one, it's not worth killing myself.
3. The thought of killing myself is just horrible, I don't think I'd be able to handle actually doing it.
4. My religion teaches against it. Assuming there is a heaven, I ain't getting there by killing myself. And for people who don't believe in an afterlife, then that's it. You're done. No second chances (see 1).
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The thought of suicide has always touched on my mind, almost like a cancer. You think you get away from it, but then you don't. The key is to never dwell on it, don't allow yourself to take on the thought/idea by yourself. It doesn't really affect me anymore thanks to To Write Love On Her Arms, they are an orginization made to help people who go through depression, fear, abuse (of any kind), suicidal thoughts, etc. They help you realize that your life does mean something, that that reasoning has always been there for you to see, you just had to be able to see it. I use them as my UN a lot of the times because they helped me in that sense, and that at anytime I do feel down, I just have to remember that people do care about me, that they do want me to succeed.
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Yes, I have thought of killing myself - I fall into such low points quite often. The method I often consider using is running in front of a moving train; many tonnes of metal moving at high speed vs. a 60kg human probably yields the same winner quite often. I only quite recently got over a bout of suicidal thoughts, actually.

It's probably not a good thing that I think this but when I am deeply embroiled in a suicidal mindset I hold an apathy towards people who may be emotionally disadvantaged through my loss; I just think 'so what? I'll be dead'. This is really selfish but it shows how close I can get sometimes (I've stood on the edge of the train station platform multiple times in a sort of 'limbo' but I never follow through for whatever reason).

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I've thought about it, yeah, but never to the point where I considered them to be more than intrusive thoughts that are just natural. I did go through a period in high school where I was super depressed, though, and I needed a therapist. I remember my therapist telling my mom that I was suicidal. I told him off on the phone and stopped showing up. In retrospect, I still don't understand why he diagnosed me that way.

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On a decent number of occasions I have thought about the possibility, but never went through with it. Mostly at darker times but I've always managed to pull through. Largely because my agnosticism makes it a scary thought.

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No I've never contemplated suicide, mind is far too strong to take the easy way out, and I'm scared ****less of death. But I don't even like thinking about it because I personally knew a friend that killed himself so I try to stay away from topics like suicide.
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Suicide is always on my mind. I'm not even kidding. u_u I'm always considering it, therefore it's always on my mind.

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Like others have said, I have thought about it, but not seriously enough to act on it. They were just mere thoughts and nothing else. And to those who are considering it, don't. There are options to improve your life and help you.

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4-5 years ago I was really depressed and at a lot of tension with my parents. So yes, I have considered suicide in the past, but in recent years, I have been anti-suicidal.
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I've had thoughts of it, not going to lie on occasion I still think of it but I don't think I would ever act upon it. I do have people I love and compared to how my life was before, I can say that things do get better. It's more likely just a curiosity thought like, if you ever wonder how life would be like without you around. But really, it's the worst thing and it kind of wakes you up if you've known someone who committed suicide. It just makes you realize that things shouldn't end like that, people WILL miss you believe it or not.

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Yeah. When I'm in worst situations and I don't know how to solve it. Thinking that suicide might be the only answer but I'm too afraid to do it. In the end, I don't feel happy since I didn't do anything to solve my case. The situation itself goes better without me doing anything. It's really weird but I'm not happy about it. I want someone to encourage me to do something on times like these. Since I'm too scared to do something, yet no one encourage me. I'm pretty much lonely back then. But until now, I'm not glad on how things ended up. But it's better to accept it, because I can't do anything about it.


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No,I never did...I'm alive for a reason and I will die when my time comes..during then I want to enjoy life even with the hard times.
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All of the time...

Especially recently. I'm in a really bad situation in my life right now and sometimes I just think ending it would be the best way to handle it..
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I've thought about it, yeah, but never to the point where I considered them to be more than intrusive thoughts that are just natural. I did go through a period in high school where I was super depressed, though, and I needed a therapist. I remember my therapist telling my mom that I was suicidal. I told him off on the phone and stopped showing up. In retrospect, I still don't understand why he diagnosed me that way.
Wait, what? I thought that a therapist couldn't just go and do that. Isn't that breaking patient confidentiality or something along those lines or are the rules different over there? Here, no matter what the age of the client and regardless of if their thoughts are suicidal or not you can't just go telling someone like that. I'm more than a little surprised, haha.
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Yes I have thought of it, oh how I thought of it. My freshman year of high school is when I hit my bottom. I just thought life wasn't worth living if it was going to be as crappy as it was then. The closest I ever came was picking up a knife and holding it over my heart. I stood there for thirty minutes before I put the knife back. I just kept telling myself I would do it tomorrow. I'm not sure how I got through it, but I did.

Don't worry, now I'm loving life and have dreams for my future. I can't stand the talk of people killing themselves because I came so close. I'll never forget those feelings of depression, and I'll go out of my way to make sure that people never feel that same way. That's why I want to become a teacher. If I can make one kid's days in high school a little less miserable, then I've done my part.
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