Most Private Thing You'll Admit Page 2

Started by LoudSilence January 24th, 2014 10:17 AM
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My that`s a lot to take in at one time.
Hm, sorry if I was being brash before, everyone. But it's something I had to accept to be able to get the help I needed. There is no cure for drug addiction, there is only chemical abstinence. I've been chemically dependent on substances and it's changed the way my brain works. However, there is a big difference between a using addict and what I am, a recovering addict. Now I went through a lot to get sober and I know its trials very well. Please keep your attentions and your condolences to those who have yet to make that decision and support them.
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Kanzler

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Toronto
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Posted March 11th, 2022
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14.8 Years
I'm paranoid that I might be a bad and sick person based on certain intrusive thoughts. My psychiatrist and several friends say there's nothing wrong with me based on what I've told them, but I'm still not convinced and I feel so much guilt at times that I feel like killing myself sometimes. It's one of the reasons I'm on antidepressants.
Don't worry. I think terrible things all the time. I've fantasized about some pretty sick ****. But you'd still consider me normal, eh? You're not a sick person.

There's a whole boatload of **** I would not admit. Other than that, I'm a pretty public person - there isn't much that's private with me. There's a big red line between "okay to talk about" and "do NOT talk about" - I think I've admitted everything I'd admit. That, or I'm incredibly talented at conveniently forgetting all of the juicy details whenever secrets are brought up. I'm also scared of mentioning anything that could help put me in jail ;; or help incriminate me should I decide to do something in the future that could put me in jail. Gotta think ahead, yunno?

Oh, and then there's stuff that's inappropriate for PC. So I can't do that either.

I check myself out look at myself in the mirror. A lot. More than I think is healthy for the average guy, anyways. yaay for exposing myself as a narcissist.

I also don't apologize for being myself. I think about how other people react to me. That sounds normal and all but the fact is, I'm judging you. these are not socially smart secrets to be revealing but **** it YOLO

Pinkie-Dawn

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Age 30
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California
Seen February 16th, 2021
Posted May 16th, 2019
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10.5 Years
I'm paranoid that I might be a bad and sick person based on certain intrusive thoughts. My psychiatrist and several friends say there's nothing wrong with me based on what I've told them, but I'm still not convinced and I feel so much guilt at times that I feel like killing myself sometimes. It's one of the reasons I'm on antidepressants.
That sounds all too familiar. Just like you, I too have this demon side where I keep getting thoughts of murdering people, swearing at people, and raping people. They're much worse whenever I either see a costumed character or watching a live show at a theme park. It's also where my dirty mind derives from, and it's a mind I want gone for good, in the same way Dr. Jekyll tried to do without having to share the same body with his evil alter-ego: Mr. Hyde, because it's abnormal. That way, I will remain in my pure form, while my demon side has its own body and be locked up in a maximum security prison, where it'll spend the rest of its life over there.

LoudSilence

more like uncommon sense

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US
Seen August 7th, 2016
Posted March 17th, 2014
583 posts
9.5 Years
Don't worry. I think terrible things all the time. I've fantasized about some pretty sick ****. But you'd still consider me normal, eh? You're not a sick person.
Intrusive thoughts are surprisingly common, whether or not you have OCD or weird/violent tendencies. I don't like reddit but this is relevant:

http://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/174fq4/reddit_what_intrusive_thoughts_do_you_have_that/

So rejoice: we're all sick and twisted!
この世界は素晴らしい。

gimmepie

Age 27
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Australia
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11.1 Years
I really am not entirely sure what I can fess up to here haha
I have a lot of secrets and there are very few people who get to hear them.

I currently have this sort of "romantic friendship" thing going on with my ex. My family didn't approve of the relationship and made my life hell as well as hers so for reasons I won't disclosed we now have to wait for a while before officially getting together again. That's something I guess.

I'm terrified of the unknown. Like things I can't comprehend scare me more than anything else if I think to deeply on them. I think it's a bi-product of the autism or something.

I frequently have these inexplicable sick, twisted or violent fantasies.

I was addicted to taking on online persona's and being completely different people for around a year or so but I got out of that and have no intention of trying it again (I've never been anyone but me here, just to clarify).

That's all for now haha
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Age 25
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England
Seen March 18th, 2019
Posted January 16th, 2017
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10.2 Years
All these confessions makes mine look terrible. I don't even know what I said was a confession. Guess I'll reveal more. Might even help me.

I constantly worry about my social status every single day. I worry about how my friends view me, how girls view me, how my family members view me, even how the man opposite the street view me. Sometimes I get paranoid and though I have never reached a point of a breakdown, I get immensely depressed for some time, maybe a day or two. That's rare however.

Like some of you have said already about yourselves I too have twisted thoughts of my own which I'll probably never reveal to anyone except the closest people in my life, but there seems be two distinct types of thoughts that I have - one which I won't say, but the other always involves some kind of death. I'm terrified of death. But being terrified of it makes me obsessed with it. I'll leave it there with that.

I think that's enough confessions for me. I could reveal more but I've written more than I wanted to already.
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Mana

Age 31
Male
UK
Seen March 25th, 2023
Posted August 18th, 2021
10,075 posts
14.4 Years
I act like I have it together, in the real world, but really I'm an insecure, emotional wreck :P.
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Hm, sorry if I was being brash before, everyone. But it's something I had to accept to be able to get the help I needed. There is no cure for drug addiction, there is only chemical abstinence. I've been chemically dependent on substances and it's changed the way my brain works. However, there is a big difference between a using addict and what I am, a recovering addict. Now I went through a lot to get sober and I know its trials very well. Please keep your attentions and your condolences to those who have yet to make that decision and support them.
my boyfriends a recovering drug addict as well, he just got out of rehab 2 1/2 months ago. good luck to you!

i don't have many embarrassing secrets. i used to have a really bad shoplifting habit, but i don't do that anymore.
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Seen November 4th, 2017
Posted May 18th, 2017
2,301 posts
9.7 Years
Back in the last secrets thread, I hadn't really thought about divulging anything since I hadn't really admitted it to myself even, and especially since contrary to the OP here, it would've been the end of the world. But in the last month especially, it's pretty much been the only thing on my mind (and I've adopted a "give no f***s" attitude), so why not. Plus I already mentioned it the medical thread. Something's definitely up with my gender, and through extensive internet research, the label ('cause they make things simpler) that fits is bigender. Forum gender-bending now knows no boundaries haha.


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pompayyy

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Seen April 9th, 2019
Posted February 23rd, 2015
484 posts
10.3 Years
I sleep in my bed butt-naked, I masturbate to music (and while I've seen porn, I don't masturbate to it - I just kinda stare at it), I randomly stroke my friends' faces (regardless of gender), I am way too insecure (I cry over the littlest things, and sometimes at random), and I want to run outside naked right now.

Hopefully, I don't get killed banned for posting this.


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White Raven

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Age 23
Female
Seen September 1st, 2015
Posted December 4th, 2014
266 posts
10.1 Years
I don't show my true colours to anyone, my friends only get a dull example of it. I don't like getting into real life social situations because I think it is bull. I also analyze my actions and their consequences before I act , so, I am slow. Also, I procrastinate waaaayyyyyy too much (I only get through school because I ace tests.)

I'm a drug addict and I have more than one felony arrest. How's that for a secret?
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Bored musician, bad programmer

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UK
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Posted April 24th, 2020
639 posts
12.4 Years
I sleep in my bed butt-naked, I masturbate to music (and while I've seen porn, I don't masturbate to it - I just kinda stare at it), I randomly stroke my friends' faces (regardless of gender), I am way too insecure (I cry over the littlest things, and sometimes at random), and I want to run outside naked right now.

Hopefully, I don't get killed banned for posting this.
Is it okay if I send you some songs me and my band wrote? :P

No but seriously, I do find that kind of interesting. Do you have a preference, or are you cool with any genre of music in general? Sorry if I'm overstepping the line a bit, I'm kind of curious.
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PokeKhan

Age 29
Male
Phoenix, AZ
Seen January 29th, 2014
Posted January 28th, 2014
15 posts
9.3 Years
Ah, I don't know if this'll get deleted or not, if it's inappropriate, sorry mods! :O didn't mean to!
well...I realized that I've had a pee fetish since I was little. xD no, of course there's a limit to it, mostly just watching. I have several other friends (3+ dudes and 2 girls) who also have that, so it's not too uncommon. :3

Did I just post the most awkward reply out of everyone? o.o

Sanguine

malignant narcissist

Female
in front of my TV
Seen April 7th, 2019
Posted January 1st, 2019
535 posts
10 Years
The things I've read so far are causing quite a mind****, haha

I'm someone who's constantly haunted by past experiences, so much so that I've taken up smoking, and alcohol is basically my best friend. I have no idea how I'll get over that, I doubt that I ever will, and it scares me to think that my entire life will follow the same pattern. Apart from dragging myself to therapy sessions, I don't really make any effort to help myself get better. All in all, I'm a ****** human being.

I dunno if this was the best idea xD
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Honest

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Age 27
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New York City
Seen March 19th, 2023
Posted November 7th, 2022
11,676 posts
14.7 Years
Sexually abused when I was a child for about a year, maybe more. Not going to say by who, even though it's pointless if I do or don't. Bottled it up my whole life, and the scariest part is that it doesn't affect me. I question it, but somehow I'm able to suppress all emotions regarding it. I guess I just don't really think about it much anymore, I've always been adept at blocking stuff out from memory for as long as possible. That being said, I think I might have admitted that to my friends on Friday, when I sort of got very drunk. Went on a whole spiel about my breakup with my girlfriend, and I remember (albeit, with an extreme haze) mentioning my childhood. My best friend hit me up the next day saying that we needed to talk about some really sensitive stuff I'd said, and I told him I would rather not. It's the only thing relevant to my childhood that's "sensitive". Honestly, I'm completely emotionally disconnected from the incident. Which is why I find all this bizarre.

I'm an open book for the most part regarding "secrets", cause I don't really keep any. Hell, I admitted the above incident (albeit watered down) to 3 people about a year ago (my friends) who were also with me when I got drunk (my best friend wasn't one of them). That being said, even the most transparent of people have something hidden.
he did it, not me.

LilyAnn

All your base are belong to us

Non-binary
America
Seen December 17th, 2018
Posted August 12th, 2017
351 posts
9.5 Years
Last year I had the cops called on me by a "friend" of mine. It was over something really stupid too. lol She was apparently convinced that I would beat her up or something. xD Basically, we're no longer friends or on speaking terms.

New Eden

Ascension to heaven

Age 29
Female
My Nevereverland
Seen September 20th, 2014
Posted September 13th, 2014
406 posts
9.9 Years
I was going to join the transgender crowd for a second there, but I've noticed over time it hasn't become so private anymore...

I have an extremely hard time opening up to people. My sense of trust has been indefinitely screwed so much that over half the time, I will not show my true self, because last time I did it instantly caused a massive trail of disaster that followed me for nearly a year. My mind has locked me into not opening up for a long time even if my emotions want to. As a result, I sometimes become hostile to people for seemingly no good reason, will snap at them, and possibly hate them. I then kick myself for this, even if some of my closest friends say that I did a justified thing. It's a sad thing too, because I like to have some close friendships over a lot of minor ones.

destinedjagold

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Posted March 24th, 2023
8,579 posts
16 Years
I love dogs. I'm always the one who takes good care of our dogs.

But our last dog, my and my families most favorite, died.
...and I was the cause of it. I accidentally fed her a corn cob, thinking she could digest it.

I loved that dog so much (not in a furry kind of way).
A week after she died, I saw her in a dream. She was as playful as ever, and I petted her as I laughed. The background was getting whiter and brighter, and soon, she stopped, she looked at me, and licked my hand, and ... walked to the light...

I cried after I woke up.

...I lost my touch of taking care of dogs. My bro brought a puppy one time, but it died a week or two after.

I didn't beat her up, or starve her to death...I just...lost my touch of understanding a dog's needs...

edit: I haven't told them this though... I couldn't...