Have you ever self-harmed before? Page 2

Started by starseed galaxy auticorn January 26th, 2014 11:44 AM
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New Eden

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Age 29
Female
My Nevereverland
Seen September 20th, 2014
Posted September 13th, 2014
406 posts
9.9 Years
I have done minor stuff like...

  • Banged my head on a desk
  • Punch in multiple places
  • Scratched
  • Starved (I have gone from 138 pounds to 117 over the span of a year.)
  • Bitten
However all of these have significantly decreased since I started taking action on things...except the starving part, need to gain weight back.

Crux

Evermore

Age 27
Male
青い世界
Seen October 10th, 2014
Posted August 21st, 2014
1,302 posts
10.7 Years
Okay, so I've noticed that there are quite a few people on here that are saying that they don't understand why a person would self-harm. . .

Self-harm is a phenomenon that occurs in people with a heavy emotional, mental or psychological weight. The most common type of people to self-harm are those who suffer from depression, anxiety, high amounts of mental/emotional/psychological stress, or a personality disorder. Self-harm has also been recorded in people with low self-esteem, or who are self-loathing. It does not, however automatically denote a psychological and/or personality disorder. Though, on occasions of it being related to one, it is generally found to be a symptom.
Self-harm encompasses burning, cutting, bruising, trichotillomania (hair pulling), or self-poisoning.
The reason for starting ranges widely. From the desire to pair physical pain with mental stress, to hatred of the body, to even the subconscious act of minor self-injury, which escalates.
Self-harm is habit inducing because of the endorphins released by the brain.
When met with physical pain, the brain releases endorphins to assist in coping with it. Endorphins provide pain relief and act, in a way, similarly to opium. Creating a feeling of rest, and temporarily lessening stress. Physical pain is often viewed as the lesser of two evils, and in some cases can lead to masochism.
Treatments of habitual self-injury range from treating the cause, to avoidance.





As for me, I've almost committed suicide, and have very nearly self-harmed before, but have not.
I feel no shame in admitting it, and no pride in saying that I did not.
It merely is what it is.





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krisags87

Age 35
Female
New Mexico
Seen October 30th, 2014
Posted February 3rd, 2014
85 posts
9.6 Years
I understand it. And I have done it in the past. It's just when you're really depressed, physical pain feels better than emotional pain. But it doesn't last. I've found that tattoos are another way to sort of get that sweet feeling of physical pain in there :)

Hatsune Mika

FireRed Nuzlocke

Age 27
Female
Abyssal Ruins
Seen March 15th, 2016
Posted February 13th, 2016
447 posts
9.5 Years
I have self harmed before... Like Ardent put, it is some factor within the mental compartment. When I first started to cut or try it was with a knife, dor some reason it didn't work and I gave up for a couple of days, that's when I found my pencip sharpener and broke the razorblade off.... I then proccedded to cut myself, this was around the time I got a girlfriend and to this day I don't know why I did it..... the most recent one was with a mechanical pencil.... I would click it a couple of times and then do the top of my wrist and go back and forth and create a stitch like opening l....I then could do it around my wrist and then do the middle line to connect them... eventually I got tired of it because it was a slow process and wasn't hurting much.... even more recent I tried to look for another pencil sharpener.... I don't know why sometimes but I just do..... I don't know what mental problems I have but I do know I am far from normal...
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Posted June 7th, 2018
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I punched walls. Sometimes accidental (back when I was new to boxing and went overboard lol) and sometimes just kinda got to me. (You know, manliness and ****) Does that count? Although I can handle that kind of pain. Not full power though obviously, I've never been that pissed off to even consider it lol.

The idea of cutting, especially near the wrist? Hell no. I can handle being punched, kicked, falling hard, whatever, but for some reason even paper cuts REALLY get me. (Scratches are fine, I owned cats y'kno) And that's accidental, I don't support doing it on purpose at all.

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Seen January 6th, 2023
Posted December 9th, 2022
11,196 posts
17.8 Years
I've left marks on my arms before, but usually with things that have dull tips, or I use the method of snapping a rubber band on your arm in place of actually cutting. That left marks too, for a couple of days, sooo I never did that more than once or twice. I wear short sleeves a lot, so there's no way I'm going to actually cut in to my skin in such a way where everyone can see and be like "OMG WHYyyy". If I "cut" my arms, its gonna be dull enough to wear it's mostly just surface marks that will go away in a day or two. All of that I've done only a handful of times in my whole life, and that's usually when everything caves all at once, and I have breakdowns. Which is not extremely common. I usually manage my life issues better than that.


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Fernbutter

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The depths of the internet
Seen June 10th, 2017
Posted June 2nd, 2014
821 posts
9.4 Years
Way too often, as much as I would like to admit. But I am not the one who does it, if that makes sense to you.
Basically I get very sad and depressed fall asleep crying like the wuss I'm not, then wake up to me bleeding all over my bed because I have lacerations almost everywhere.

There should be a signature here somewhere.
I wonder where it's gone.

Beloved

Fictionally Destructive

Where ever my master takes me
Seen November 22nd, 2014
Posted November 21st, 2014
253 posts
16 Years
I used to use a box cutter on my arms, just so I knew I could still feel something. Once those got noticed, I started cutting my legs. Then it was on my chest. 7 failed suicide attempts, 3 ending with nothing more than nasty headaches and 2 with me just sleeping for 12 hours. I gave up after that. Eventually, I met others like me, who had what others called a tough life, and we became a support network for each other, with me being the go to guy for problems. Maybe that is what started me on my path to wanting to become a psychiatrist?

Anyways, I did it because I was bullied so much when I was in middle school that I just shut everything out. Friends, family, emotions, school. Hell, I was just one step away from being one of the kids you heard about on the news that went and killed someone at their school. However, I took a different path, and became apathetic and uncaring to everyone and everything. All I cared about was myself, and I knew that if I could feel pain still, then I was still alive, and each day was a victory against those who harassed me.

I ended that cycle after 4 years. At 16, I changed how I looked at myself, and built up from that. Now I am considered one of the most caring and dependable people anyone knows. Sad part is, I still have moments when I feel my past mentality so firmly rooted there that I wonder if any of my current life was worth it. I just brush it off and go hang out with friends.


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