As hard as I try not to feel inferior to others, it's the way I've felt since I was very young. I've always been chubbier than others, a little overweight. Yeah, I've been picked on, left out, laughed at for it. Even when I'm around my friends I can't help but worry I'll say or do something that sounds weird or make them not like me anymore, cause I've always had this idea that because of my weight I just had to prove myself more than others, I dunno. That probabgly came out wrong, but anyway. I'm constantly paranoid they're talking about me behind my back, thinking bad things about me even though they do act really sweet, etc. I'm constantly jealous over those people with naturally good looks, seemingly effortless acceptance, all that. It's never really been easy for me to get comfortable and open up cause I got so used to being shut down, even though a lot of the time it was my own worries that made me think that. Yeah, I feel pretty inferior no matter what the situation.