Well, it seems like I can do that anyways. It seems like they're pretty flexible and judging by the fact there wasn't a schedule until today, I've got confidence.
I'm alright with taking things slow and learning something new. I'm just a little worried everyone around me won't, and I'll be having difficulty keeping up. I can kinda already feel a papercut on my hands just thinking about it, god...
The one co-worker I've been talking to more often has been super kind and understanding. In my first hour or two in my shift I had to ask where things were about 5 times, but even now he told me today to ask him if I needed more info or if I was confused, and said not to get too frustrated over it. It was nice and definitely at least somewhat helped a lot of the feelings I've had about the shifts.
Having that structure is really big for me. I want to know what I need to do and when I need to do it ahead of time, I think being bound by a schedule helps me a lot to stay in it.

In terms of growing up... I think I just have to come to terms with the things I don't know and accept that it's fine to just pick up that knowledge along the way and learn it as I go on. It's not like I'll flip a switch when I hit a certain age and suddenly I know how to do my taxes or whatever.
Nator?