Depression... Page 2

Started by Missingno Baby July 21st, 2005 2:19 PM
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Look, Your not depressed, you have Post-Dramatic Stress syndrome. Anything incredibally bad happen in your life? ( I have this too, I channel that into...well..^_^...My will to Dominate.) Find a Hobby, Mine is drawing up military plans and sketeches of Tanks.
What would you know? -_-; You're one of the ignorant, insensitive idiots I'm talking about. Be quiet, because that's just nonsense. You're not helping. Go get the facts, please, you wouldn't know if she's depressed or not. =/
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Don't **** with me. I've lost two mothers. Not to death, but because they left me.
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Yeah, but as I told you, it does NOT justify you saying what you say. I've had stuff happen to me too, but I don't go around saying everyone else's problems aren't as bad. =/ Conversation over. ^_^
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Fine, But please unblock me, I need someone to talk to.
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Well, this thread gave me a better opinion of you guys, strangely....

.....my constant fantasies of death and destruction.
.....
Lmao. :laugh:

That sounds like me, it seems so inevitable too, all the time.

Fine, But please unblock me, I need someone to talk to.
Lmao. :laugh:

Charizard_Fire_God its people like you that are to ignorant to get to know the facts about everything, i've been on medication for about a year now, you cannot get addicted to it, the only side affect it had was tiredness when I first took it. Are you a doctor? No, your not, you have no right to say what it will or wont do, i'd rather take my chances with somthing thats helping me than 2 years down the line be depressed and have no form of a life.
Yes, I've faced the facts i'll probley be on this medication for the rest of my life. I know that, and its helping me, so I don't care.

I got into depression because of my phobia of vomitting, its brung me out of school, stopped me eating/sleeping for weeks on end, thats what got me into depression, not being able to leave the house, been spontanius, or do what I want.

Did you not read anything I put down? I can't socalise, I can barly get out of my house, I can just about get myself up in the morning, people don't understand me, they don't bother to listen, and I'm fed up of explaining myself to people.
......Maybe you shouldn't spend your money on drugs, and on something you really want?

Seriously..... Why spend money curing depression, as if depression should be so normal? Even if it is? That's scary.

Also, strange.... a lot of you who posted are even paired up and you're not happy. *tilts head* Like, hm? Something wrong with that..... you're sad, yet you still want to be paired? *tiles head other direction* hm... Crying together, that's makes sense too maybe! ^0^ (idea from Lily)

On me.... I use to be depressed a lot, somewhat less now. I could talk on and on about my depression.... u_u but that's not a very good idea, is it? I think I'll just leave my weird history to private chats....

Crying.... I haven't really cried since I don't know when. It's really sad not to be able to cry when I need to. I have suffer silently.... not being able to a single thing right, indifferent to everything. Or just barely hanging on. But I don't really care if other people don't understand, I'm so use to it. Just.... just when people you actually respect don't understand, then it's unspeakably terrible.... I feel sorry for anybody here who had to suffer through that type of personal irresponsibility of others that I have. It's surprising who they really are. I suppose the lesson was that dependence is bad. However, it didn't change my fundamental views on life.

I don't lack self-confidence like a year ago I did, but I do lack desire and health.... e.g. I'm not antisocial off the net, I just hate or don't care for a lot of people, so I don't try make friends. I talk, but no true friendship. =/

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Don't **** with me. I've lost two mothers. Not to death, but because they left me.

You had to mothers? Did one give birth to your head..and the other your body?

Also 22sa that post made no sense to me what so ever..
So, because I have depression I cannot go on a website and be virtually paired with somone?..k

I don't pay for the medication, its on the NHS health..so its free?
I do not have enough time for PC anymore, it is a sorry affair but I haven't been active in a long time. I do not have many friends still here at PC but if you are one that is still please feel free to contact me via msn.

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Also 22sa that post made no sense to me what so ever..
So, because I have depression I cannot go on a website and be virtually paired with somone?..k
lol Usually people who are sad or have low self-esteem do not wish other people to have to bear it. Love can't grow on weakness, can it? Also, I know it's your decision and only your decision to be paired or not; I don't care one bit. What I said was just an observation, nothing more. I'm glad you disagree with it.


I don't pay for the medication, its on the NHS health..so its free?
Free medication.... o_o That's.... nice... lol.

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Haha, I don't love my Pair, we're just friends...We don't have meaningfull chats about life...

Free medication, thats helped me alot, and is making things easier for me.

So, taking it was a bad thing?
I do not have enough time for PC anymore, it is a sorry affair but I haven't been active in a long time. I do not have many friends still here at PC but if you are one that is still please feel free to contact me via msn.
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Heh. I've Had Depression..I Still Take Medications For It O.o; I Think I Still Have Depression, But My Medications Help It. Because A Little While Ago, I Stopped Taking Them. And I Got Really Depressed Again. Yeah. But I'm Happy As A Bee When I Take them <3 I Wanted To Kill Myself At One Point. And I Went To THe Mental Hospital For It. o.o

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Haha, I don't love my Pair, we're just friends...We don't have meaningfull chats about life...

Free medication, thats helped me alot, and is making things easier for me.

So, taking it was a bad thing?
I meant all types of love, including friendly love, not just romantic love.

More on medication, I'm sure it actually helps, but not long-term, right? Since you're getting for free at the moment, I wouldn't say it's unworthwhile. It's just not worth paying for IMO. Drugs shouldn't be a daily or regular thing. I'd hate it if they were.

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Your making it out like im on cocaine or somthing o_(0)
Yes this is long term, i'll probley be on it the rest of my life, the only thing its doing to me is making me feel better and able to progress on the other things I find difficult in my life.

Yes, I can understand that illigal drugs taking them every day, that is just stupid. But what im on is diffrent, its not addictive, yes if I suddenly came of it i'd notice a big change and I probley wouldn't be able to cope with it, but im not coming of it any time soon. I'd only notice a change because its keeping my depression/anxiety calmer than it should be, I have a mental illness, this is just like taking medicine for a cough or somthing.

Just because I dont have a broken leg and my pain and how many difficult things I have to go through are not visible, it doesn't mean there not here.
Thats what people who haven't gone through this don't understand.


Theres all sorts of depression, but there isn't such thing as not being able to love somone, I don't have trust issues, and I don't feel I bring on a burden of being friends with somone, yes I know I do make my familys lives abit more difficult than they should be, but I do love them, and find it easy to.
I do not have enough time for PC anymore, it is a sorry affair but I haven't been active in a long time. I do not have many friends still here at PC but if you are one that is still please feel free to contact me via msn.
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You had to mothers? Did one give birth to your head..and the other your body?
Probably:
He had one "real" mother, but she divorced with his father after a while, then, after a while, the father married again, but then they divorced again O.o
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Probably:
He had one "real" mother, but she divorced with his father after a while, then, after a while, the father married again, but then they divorced again O.o

I know..I was just messing around..o_0
I do not have enough time for PC anymore, it is a sorry affair but I haven't been active in a long time. I do not have many friends still here at PC but if you are one that is still please feel free to contact me via msn.

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Theres all sorts of depression, but there isn't such thing as not being able to love somone, I don't have trust issues, and I don't feel I bring on a burden of being friends with somone, yes I know I do make my familys lives abit more difficult than they should be, but I do love them, and find it easy to.
Well that's cool. I never think I'm up to anything when I'm sad lol. When I'm sad, the most I can be is a jester.... u_u and not a very active one. u_u

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You had to mothers? Did one give birth to your head..and the other your body?

Also 22sa that post made no sense to me what so ever..
So, because I have depression I cannot go on a website and be virtually paired with somone?..k

I don't pay for the medication, its on the NHS health..so its free?
Wow, Your dense, you know that? No stupid, My birthmother left me, then when my father remairied, she left me as well. But not before my birthmother tried to kill me.

ADD: Attention Disorder? I've got that, Along with Paranioa, and Ecessivce-compulsive Disorder.
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*long post/boring ramble about my pathetic life alert*

Hm... I too get depressed often. Like Typhlozion said, it's so easy to hide behind smilies and such on the internet. I've probably made lots of people think I'm a crazy, carefree person with fake world domination dreams. Even my friends in real life, I've tried to hide my depression from them with "randomness". I don't know, maybe it's because I think I'm just overreacting. Maybe I feel that there's no right for me to complain about my life, knowing that many people have it worse than me. I mean, people look at me and see a girl that has her own computer, iPod, biggest room in her house, has both parents alive and undivorced... they must think I'm the luckiest person in the world. Though, on the inside I feel alone and scared, like there's no one who I can really come to for comfort. On the inside I feel ugly and stupid, I feel like everyone hates me, I feel like there's no one on earth I can really trust. The majority of my friends in elementary school left me for one reason or another. One person had bought a pokemon silver version game. I told him I had a player's guide and I gave him hints and told him how to get through puzzles and stuff. We became very good friends, always sitting together at lunch and discussing all sorts of things - not just pokemon. However, after he beat his silver version he just seemed annoyed with me. He didn't want to talk any more. After a while I stopped trying to talk to him. I came to realize that I was just being used by someone. He didn't really care about me, he just wanted my help on a game. I felt stupid for ever trusting someone like that.
In fourth-fifth grade I had a couple of friends, female friends who were into fashion. One of them once asked me why no one really wants to talk to me. I said I didn't know; she asked them at lunch one day and told me it was because I was weird. No one wanted to talk to me because I was some weird little girl who played Pokemon in the fifth grade. However, those two-three friends continued to hang out with me regardless of the fact that I was 'weird'. Until middle school, that is. All of my friends had moved on and found 'cooler' people to be friends with. They started treating me like crap, asking me annoying questions like where I got my pants and stuff.
I have managed to find three very good friends that I've been with since mid sixth-grade. These are the ONLY three people at my school I feel thoroughly comfortable around. They don't care that I like Pokemon; in fact one of them plays it herself ^^. However, when I'm not around these two people I again start to feel lost, like I'm all alone. I feel awkward around other people, like I don't belong with them. It's almost like I'm a scared little animal in a room full of people; I'm afraid they want to hurt me so I try my best to hide myself from them. It's instinct for me to want to hide from them almost. I find it extremely hard to find a group in a group project, or even to trade papers with other people. I'm still asked questions like "Why are you so weird?" and "Why don't you ever talk to anyone?" the only thing I can manage to say to them is "I don't know." I know it's stupid, but every time I'm asked that I feel more and more like I truly don't belong here. Like I'm an outsider. Like I'm some sort of freakish monster that everyone hates. I know on the outside I'm all "OMGLOLWEIRDISFUNANDCOOLLOLZLOLZLOLZ" but on the inside I really do feel like 'weird' is a bad thing, like if you're 'weird' there's no hope for you in life, you'll never amount to anything if people think you're different. I have only my three best friends to really turn to for comfort, and I can't explain how I feel even to them. However, when eighth grade ends one of them is going back to pakistan and the other MIGHT be going to a different high school again. I guess I should enjoy the time I have left with them; when high school comes I'll probably be alone again.

Sometimes I feel like I have some sort of mental disorder as well. And I also often wonder if anyone would even be affected if I were to just disappear; if I were to die tomorrow, would anyone care? Sometimes I feel like I just want someone to listen to this and tell me what's wrong with me; I know I'm the only one who can change my life, but I don't even know where to start. I would be ashamed to tell my parents all this as well. *sigh* what can I do?

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I'm sorry for the long post, but I must admit, it felt good to get all this off my chest. I just wonder if anyone's actually going to read this post XD. Just so you know, you aren't alone in your depression :P
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I do belive i've found my Female Counterpart...Except, Im far from Care-free.
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22sa, it's not funny... >.> Don't laugh at my depression, if you had it I could laugh at yours but I wouldn't [assuming you don't have it].
Yeah, you really aren't alone, that's the beauty of PC.
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Depression....yep been through it too many times...PC is pretty much a bunch of depressed adolescents...sad, but true. I was actually suicidal a bit, but it was long ago. I'm glad I got over it, and I'm my stupid self again. ^_^
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XD and we love you all the same, Eli. PC wouldn't be the same without you~
Meh, I had visions of cutting myself last night, I can hardly say I'm better...
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o_o I hope you're okay...I am againt cutting completely...
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22sa, it's not funny... >.> Don't laugh at my depression, if you had it I could laugh at yours but I wouldn't [assuming you don't have it].
Yeah, you really aren't alone, that's the beauty of PC.
I didn't laugh at your depression, look what I quoted again. :\ It was funny because your [depressed] imagination sounded exactly like mine, yet it still looks nonsensical to me.... o_o

....and, uh.... unfortunately, I'm just as much a depressed type as the rest of you if not worse. d= I just didn't bother describing it this time, but I did make some brief comments on it in my post. Back in late 2003, I was practically the only depressed active member, now there's so many. x_x.... hmm ^^

Last thing, I'd be glad I was laughed at for my depression, in fact that's about the only good it ever did as I mentioned before in this thread. d= But yeah, I wasn't laughing at yours, not on the whole at least. x_x :P

um YAY, Eliana! ^^ I guess that's an accomplishment. d=

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Once again, depression strikes me...

I feel like I've been robbed of my personality, or that I don't mean anything. I have had depression since last September. Being here...in this world, is only making me feel worse. All I want to do is be with the person that means the most to me...but I can't.

Everything seems to only be getting worse for me. Even if I do something that I like for a little while, like paint a picture or write a story, everything goes wrong and I feel sick, like I'm going to die really soon.

Yes, I'm on medication, and depression like this only strikes me a few times within a few weeks...I used to have a councilor for school, but now, I don't.

I think I am not just depressed, but mentally ill, too.

Are you guys like me?
Awww, babes don't worry you aren't the only one. All I want to do is be with the person that means the world to me, but i can't either.. People tell me it'll get better but my depression keeps coming back, and sometimes I feel like ending it all but i know it's just a shortcut and i think of all the people i hurt [i've tried -- with a failed attempt and i will never try again] I don't think you are mentally ill, because most of my friends are like this. I'm not on medication because i dont believe in it, and i hide my depression from others. But, don't worry *hugs* In time..
i love you. </3