m very own poetry album!

Started by phantom_zangetsu April 1st, 2006 5:32 PM
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Age 31
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Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
well, i got into this whole poem-album thingy....lo. well, i think ill start off with these three:

Aftermath
Nothing seems the same
Everything seems to just stand still
As I gasp for who I am
I’m trying to sacrifice everything I’ve worked for
Just to try to forget you

Oh, if only you were here now,
Id shout everything in front of you
And I won’t let my throat fail
Coz I never really have

This is the moment I’ve never wanted to see
I can’t believe it really ending this way
The stars disappearing behind my tears
The tears you made me shed here tonight
And now I’d wish I never was there to see you that day

If only I could kept the feeling I had
That stupid feeling I had that almost killed me
The risk I made and the leap of faith
Everything was wasted as I shed this last tear

Now here I am staring at the empty sky
Trying to gasp for more of who i was before
That day we've met at the same place
For a minute I wanted the sky to swallow everything i see
So I can think and be alone right now

As I look out the window
The city lights rise up high
Everything seems to just fly and go away
And leaving me here all confused

Now the fear that I once hid from myself
Haunts the very soul you broke
Trying to think of nothingness just makes it worse.
So I just end up thinking of you
And now I’m wishing again I wasn’t there with you

The raging fire that burns my wounds you made
Fades from the sad thoughts of you.
Everything feels so numb now
Now that you’re coming near

Now this boy with the many names
Ends up having no name at all
For I have lost everything
In healing my soul and heart
By the sadness and every teardrop you made me shed


I Promise
how long does it have to take
to get you coming here with me
how long...should i wait
i dont know what to do anymore

i know always that youre there
but im just finding the rightest time
to say what i have to say
so i guess ill just sit here...for now

coz without you...i go through the motions
without you its just not quite the same
without you i dont want to go out
and just stay here all day

im just sick of these times
wondering weather your okay or not
so just give me this chance to make the wrongs right
to say....dont walk away

i promise...i wont let you down
so just take my hand tonight
i promise...we'll be just fine this time
if you take me hand tonight


Is It The Last Day?
is it the last day?
to gaze upon this stupid school
coz i cant stand to see you again
everything just comes back

so is today the last day?
when i have to pick up my pen and study?
i cant do things when your around me
so if you could just fade away

well, even if it is the last day
could i still be happy?
could i still love another one?
even without seeing you...forever

but now, i just want it to be the last day
coz i think i still feel something for you
but i dont want to have it again
and i dont know what to do

could it be the last day today?
coz i think i still feel for you
but i dont think i want to
it can only bring me down

so please tell me, is it the last day?
when i really have to see you smiling, but not at me
but at someone you've replaced me for my love?
i cant afford to lose another part of my heart again

so? hope you guys like it...im really sorry if there are some wrong grammars and spellings...


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 34
Female
Fargo, ND
Seen October 18th, 2013
Posted March 9th, 2010
893 posts
17.8 Years
Actually, your grammar and spelling are better than a lot I've seen before. *smiles*

And your poetry is really quite good. It's very emotionally evocative. I know the feelings you're writing about. I used to feel those, too. *huggles* Just hold on to hope, eh?

Who's that returning from the depths of forum ghosts past? Oh! It's me!
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
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17.8 Years
aww yay! ive improoved! all thanks to our encarta dictionary! lol! thanks...im really happy now that ive seen my poems improve....ill post a few of them again tomorrow. XD


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~pHaNt0m~
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
well im kind of sorry for double posting...i have another poem at hand...made it last february 06....it was actually for someone i like....but....

It All Comes Down to This
ive finally agreed on doing this
but now as i sit here
i took my wallet and look at your picture
and gaze at you for a while

i never dreamed of it going to this far
i just cant bear to face the truth
i cant seem to find myself anymore
but it dosent matter what i am right now

if only i knew what would happen before this
i wouldnt end like this
if i can change my mistakes from the past
id do it all over again

you know id really do anything
just to see you smiling everyday
even if it means me
going out of your life forever

so now im doing this for you
im going out into the open
im stepping out into the sun
but ill never come back

coz i know youll be happy with him
and he is very, very, lucky to have you
and im very happy for both of you
but you have to realize...

he's only a illusion
an illusion that can fade in an instant
and can bring your world down
so please realise that im not faking it

but wish you could know
that im not the one to bring your world crashing
so please try to understand before i go
i wish you could embrace the facts

but hey!
i guess ill be better than staying here
muttering words that dosent even exist
and sitting here alone in a corner

so now ill be going out
coz i just want to live again
i dont really care what life has for me
coz i just want to go out to the open road

so now as this line comes to an end...
i wish you could remember me
so ill give you this memory ive kept
enough for you to know that i did love you!!!


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 29
Maryland
Seen January 14th, 2009
Posted January 27th, 2008
459 posts
18.1 Years
keep up the good work DB.
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Age 31
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Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
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aww man, not much people are looking at my poems....im sorry again for double posting....but i have to post all of my poems....so here:

Nothings Easy If It’s Love
I’ve given every moment I have
But I guess I’ve tried and failed
You think you’ll be better off without me
But I know.....

You’re just wasting your time
On something so ordinary
Your heart need some work
Coz I think it sprung a leak

All I know is that you’re beautiful
But you’re really wasting your life
But ill always be here...waiting
Even if I sound like I don’t care

You don’t know the things your doing to me...
I’ve been always thinking of you every single night
But even if you cant count me as a friend
Ill continue to be here till the end

All I want to say is that i still love you
No matter how much you ignore me
I can still take the pain
As long as I can still see you

It really tore me apart
When you broke the first poem I gave to you
But I seem to heal fast
And I still go on loving you

You might not see it now
I’m just waiting for him to fade away...
I’m kidding I just want him out of your head
But I’m not forcing you...you can take your time...to chase the wind

I don’t care how long it takes
Days, weeks, months or years,
Take my whole life if you have to
I don’t care....

I can see the future now...
A catastrophe can struck your world anytime
Coz you’ve been chasing...nothing
All the time

But until the day I die
I’ll keep on hanging behind you
Watching the times you fall and rise
But when the time comes that you can’t rise again...

Ill be here giving you a hand
And feel the softness of your palm
Seems like heaven to me
When you can speak to me again

Ill try to smile, ill try to keep going
From the hate and ignorance you show to me
Heh, coz I know who wins in the end
And the one who sheds the tears....


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
hmm....stil no comments....TT!

I Care For You
sometimes i feel so alone
and sometimes i want to quit
and try to be myself for a bit
but here i am staring on a cloudless sky

as i look around for inspiration
all i could see is an empty black sky
just as empty as i am feeling right now
and it seems forever that youve been gone

i wonder when morning will come?
i wonder when the sun will come up again
and brighten my day
coz only with you i can see the beautiful things in the world

but now i feel so alone
despite the fact that
some people think
that they know me

i always wait by the desk with a phone
coz your voice helps me to breathe
but i hear a voice not worth talking
and converstions that lasts for a while

now, my world is at the peak of silence
and your image seems to fade
i cant even remember anymore
that the times we used are gone

but still i feel your tears when i turn back
and maybe im just
not the one for you...


Trying Harder
i wonder what its like
having you to see who i really am
hanging around with you everyday
having fun and nothing to worry

i just wish you could know
how i feel for you everytime i think about it
hoping for you to notice me
but i still think i should wear a facade

but right now i start thinking
if we are thinking of each other
but all i know that when i wake up tomorrow,
everything will change just like that

i know ill miss the times we spent
the times you made me happy
even if you where not talking to me
i just feel happy to see you right there

i dont feel right
when some people make you laugh
espcially if its a guy...i feel so worried
that youll leave me one day

but who am i to say this anyway?
you dont even know the things inside my head
all you can see is the facade youre always talking to
i still think its not the time


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 34
Female
Fargo, ND
Seen October 18th, 2013
Posted March 9th, 2010
893 posts
17.8 Years
*smiles* I'll be the first to reply them, hmm? You have some serious talent, and I really enjoy your work. *laughs* To your comment in my thread, I listen to Story of the Year, plus like, a milion other emo bands out there. Your poems and nice and flowing, but you need some work in capitalization. *laughs a little* "I" is always capitalized. And, I think the proper form of "coz" is "'cuz" or something. I dunno, don't quote me on that one. Keep it up!

Who's that returning from the depths of forum ghosts past? Oh! It's me!
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
oh...okay ill try to remember that....hehe...you know? besides code zero, you guys ae the only ones looking at my poems...i think you so much for that! ü

anyways, ive made another poem...eventhough i know that only you guys are looking at it...my poems still have a purpose and ill post them here no matter what!

My Precious Moon

Oh how I thank you precious moon
For having to lit this lonely world
For having to shine and shimmer
Behind the starry skies

You remind me of the times with my love
My love, whose hands are on my throat
But no matter how much pain,
Or how many tears I have to shed
I’m still in love with her

Coz you, my precious moon,
Reminds me of how happy I was to meet someone like her
And when you’re all covered up behind those dark clouds,
You remind me of the last few words I said to her

But now, my illuminating moon,
It’s that time once again for you to leave this darkness
It’s that time for the blinding light of the sun
To hit this gloomy world
And forget of her once and for all

But another day is coming by
And I’m thinking about her all the time
No matter how hard, no matter how much
Thinking of her is something I can’t replace

Coz I’d do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
Try to make you laugh...
Coz somehow I can’t put you in the past

But you, the shining moon
Has left and turned so bright
So bright enough to forget her again
But when it comes to the time when you have come again
I feel so happy just thinking of her with you as I see


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 30
Female
With phantom_zangetsu ^.~
Seen March 7th, 2014
Posted July 24th, 2011
238 posts
18.2 Years
That's really good. ^_^ YOu've impoved since the last time I saw your poems.

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Age 34
Female
Fargo, ND
Seen October 18th, 2013
Posted March 9th, 2010
893 posts
17.8 Years
Well, again, you're doing better and better with every poem you write! YAYBEANS for you! :P

I think I recognize one of your stanzas from somewhere though... I could be wrong, it's known to happen, but it just sounds familiar...

Coz I’d do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
Try to make you laugh...
Coz somehow I can’t put you in the past

......

OH! It's from a Simple Plan song. "I'd Do Anything".

Who's that returning from the depths of forum ghosts past? Oh! It's me!
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
Well, again, you're doing better and better with every poem you write! YAYBEANS for you! :P

I think I recognize one of your stanzas from somewhere though... I could be wrong, it's known to happen, but it just sounds familiar...

Coz I’d do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
Try to make you laugh...
Coz somehow I can’t put you in the past

......

OH! It's from a Simple Plan song. "I'd Do Anything".

yup a bit...i wuz listening to their songs while i was making it..you know how much im dying for those guys songs right? im a real fan of those guys really....LOL! theyre just a complete genius! i really like their songs....thanks for your comment anyways and midori chi....thanks to you all


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
...hokay! here's a new one kind of a love poem if you must call it.....just got inspired by my love LOL!!!

What You Are

You truly, dazzle me with you beauty
You truly, make me smile when I feel sad
Once I look at you and look at me back,
My day can never be more perfect

My tears start to fall inside my head
When I see you with another person
I feel the hatred that I once had before
When I see you cry

My whole life is onto your hands
My sorrow and joy along with it
And as the time passes
It grows strong knowing you are beside me

The leafy ground crunches as I approach you
I shiver and get nervous when i am near you
Because I am afraid
That you will be gone forever

I know there will be a time
That we will not see each other anymore
That we have to take different roads
But I don’t care

You are very important on who you are in my life
So as I say in these last words
I wish you to like me also
Just as I like you.......

so? what do you think? ill post my next 2 poems tom. i still have to edit them...


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
okay hmm...still no comments huh? okay another one: ths is for my pair, fallen_angel

Angel
I’ve been trying everything so hard
To forget how we've reached so far
But no matter how hard I try to forget
It just gives me back with feeling of regret

Now I have to say, at last
My time with you has ended so quick and fast
But no that my loneliness grows
So as your memories in my head flows

And so I look into the starry skies
Thinking of you just makes me fly
But when reality hits my wings of pretend
Quickly, my flying has come to an end

But now this is what I have become so far
With the happy thoughts of you and a scar
I’m seeing everything as though, a make belief
But the harder I try the harder the grief

If only still you could see
The plans I had for you and me
Oh how now I wish you could have thought
That I maybe something after all

Now in this world I lie alone under the starry skies
Seeing an angel that soars and flies
And now I’m thinking that maybe one day
Ill join that angel and forget about today

My Angel
My world was turning down
I was always in a frown
Remembering how she destroyed everything
Has got no happiness to bring

But when this last war, I sought to fight
I saw an angel that took me to flight
We soared above the starry skies
And the pain seem to die

Her touch seemed forever
Everything went right whenever,
I think of that angel being with me tonight
And being my guide as a pretty, starry light

We landed, on a soft green grass
And looked up the sky as a ryuusei pass,
I held her hand tight and thought of never letting go
And she smiled, and the night just seemed to flow

When dawn had came it was time to go
But when she spread her wings I said "no"
"Please stay here, please be my life"
"You shall be the fruit in my tree that shall forever be ripe"

But the angel smiled and gloomily said:
I know that your pain I have shed
And my love for you has yet, no end
But please understand that I have to at least end

“But never fear, and never shed your tear,
I shall be your memory that you shall forever hear”
“I will always love you with all my heart
But now I have to depart”

As my beloved angel rose from the sky,
On this soft green grass, I still lie
Looking up at the one who made me smile
For a minute I thought, my life was perfect...for a while


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
i know....but i guess im not gonna make more for a while....we're going on vacation see, ill try to bring a piece of paper and a pen to write on a poem...im glad you guys liked it....i think....do you? LOL!


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 30
Pinky Land!!!!
Seen November 26th, 2015
Posted June 2nd, 2012
1,522 posts
18.1 Years
i know....but i guess im not gonna make more for a while....we're going on vacation see, ill try to bring a piece of paper and a pen to write on a poem...im glad you guys liked it....i think....do you? LOL!
yep!!Well atleast I did...Its so sweet.. good job..were are you going?
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Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
well here's another one...(i cant believe that you call a 5 hour stay at my granny's house...and my mom stil calls it a vacation?)

Friendships of Memory

Time to turn around again
And face the rain again
It’s just something unpredictable
But in the end, its right

Your miscalculations and errors in life
Get stuck in your head for quite some time
But when you look back on all the things you did before
You smile knowing how silly you did it

Time grabs you by the wrist
And takes you to the fast lane
So make the best and don’t ask why
Just live life and be happy

The times you've been hurt or crying
The times you've laughed and cheered
Everything seems to be in your head now
And most of them are with me

So take my hand now, today
And let's take this road together
And spend our lives with happiness
Let’s try to make a friendship of eternity

and...well this is a very looooong-ago poem i just found in our comp.

Friday Breeze

It’s the same day
The day when I am supposed to smile
But you left me
And there is nothing to be happy about

I sit alone
Trying to forget we ever met
Every thought of you
A tear falls into my eyes

I have tried to feel okay when I see you
But I just can help
To think that I loved you
And hurt my heart so bad

These memories of you
Drifts in front of my face
No matter how I push it away
Its still there to stay

I don’t want you anymore
But why do you keep on appearing?
The breeze doesn’t help me forget you
It just helps me to remember you


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~
Age 30
Female
With phantom_zangetsu ^.~
Seen March 7th, 2014
Posted July 24th, 2011
238 posts
18.2 Years
wow those 2 poems. Kind of explain how I used to feel. ^_^ hehe great job!

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Age 31
together with fallen,ontop of shukaku's head
Seen December 9th, 2008
Posted April 28th, 2007
517 posts
17.8 Years
two new poems people!!! take a look!

Turning Points
I heard you crying out loud
But it’s too late to go down again
I don’t want to end up with another turning point
That leads me back to where you are

I try not to look back
And think of another someone on my mind
But as I see you fading
My happiness goes with you

I don’t know why I still fell this way
No matter which way I turn to
I always end up
Going towards you

I tried to trust my heart and not my mind
But it led me to forgetting everything
I always stay as a friend to everyone
But I feel so sick of being like that


You and Me
So many voices in my ear
But none of them seemed to be clear
I don’t know who to trust
My world is under a cloud of dust

Nothing seems to last long
Just like every other song
They leave me here and go away
And leave my world astray

But when my world meets people like you
My world becomes so bright and blue
Everything becomes crystal clear
And there is nothing to fear

My world spins and spins around
Everywhere your image can be found
My world is finally free
Now it’s just you and me


lovingly and forever paired with the one and only, fallen_angel


~pHaNt0m~