Melody
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This blog post may not make sense to a lot of you; especially if you are perhaps new or do not have a clear picture of who I am in view. But to enlighten you I shall try; for it will allow some to fly.
First of all; let me say that while I may ebb and flow, coming and going as do the tides of the ocean, I do have a very strong passion for PC. This is not variable; nor has it ever waned in strength or intensity. I return and observe silently oftentimes, and smile upon the good; and frown upon that which is bad. As a long standing veteran; I do have my rather unique and unchanging views which I hold dear. Do forgive me if I seem stubborn at times.
With that all said; my passion is quite the double edged blade. In good times; it motivates me, and it pushes me to contribute what I can, that is allowed. It instills a yearning for contributing more; but the hurdles for that are high, and not something I've ever been able to leap over. It also happens to have a dark side; pushing me out, making me uncertain and holds me back generally. Some frown upon this; but they also don't know all of my lore either. They just consider me as being too vocal or uncertain.
To those I have trouble speaking to; you know who you are, I do apologize if I do not return your messages or friendly greetings. To those I have troubled in the past; I sincerely apologize. If you have troubled me; remember that I remember. I forgive sincerely; but seldom forget the wrong intents. If I don't see eye-to-eye with you; don't take it as a sign of dislike. I'll only view your actions in a poor light if you are actually harming something I can measure or observe.
I find that often I feel under a cloud of past issues. I really need to stop that; but it is hard. So do forgive me if I seem cloudy sometimes. My experience with PC has been diverse, and mostly positive; but not without it's negatives which have left their marks. A sure way to lose my respect is to disrespect that, or my feelings in general. If you at least TRY to hear me out though; I can at least feel like I've had my say.
If I had things my way; I'd blast things out uncensored to air it out and move past it quickly. But that's just not practical on PC proper.
First of all; let me say that while I may ebb and flow, coming and going as do the tides of the ocean, I do have a very strong passion for PC. This is not variable; nor has it ever waned in strength or intensity. I return and observe silently oftentimes, and smile upon the good; and frown upon that which is bad. As a long standing veteran; I do have my rather unique and unchanging views which I hold dear. Do forgive me if I seem stubborn at times.
With that all said; my passion is quite the double edged blade. In good times; it motivates me, and it pushes me to contribute what I can, that is allowed. It instills a yearning for contributing more; but the hurdles for that are high, and not something I've ever been able to leap over. It also happens to have a dark side; pushing me out, making me uncertain and holds me back generally. Some frown upon this; but they also don't know all of my lore either. They just consider me as being too vocal or uncertain.
To those I have trouble speaking to; you know who you are, I do apologize if I do not return your messages or friendly greetings. To those I have troubled in the past; I sincerely apologize. If you have troubled me; remember that I remember. I forgive sincerely; but seldom forget the wrong intents. If I don't see eye-to-eye with you; don't take it as a sign of dislike. I'll only view your actions in a poor light if you are actually harming something I can measure or observe.
I find that often I feel under a cloud of past issues. I really need to stop that; but it is hard. So do forgive me if I seem cloudy sometimes. My experience with PC has been diverse, and mostly positive; but not without it's negatives which have left their marks. A sure way to lose my respect is to disrespect that, or my feelings in general. If you at least TRY to hear me out though; I can at least feel like I've had my say.
If I had things my way; I'd blast things out uncensored to air it out and move past it quickly. But that's just not practical on PC proper.