Aizuke
[b]long sword style[/b]
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But.. I had to in this case. After reading Nica's blog entry, she thought it was for the best if I made a blog of my own opinion.
What Nica said, really touched me. I never knew I could have such good friends over the internet. Though, at this moment, there may be a few people who have issues with me, I'm not sure if they'll read this. In all hopes, I want them too, or just one particular person.
No, I don't hate you, I never said I hated you. I was just really upset with what you did, but I understand why. I never took the time to talk to you, because I fear confrontation. I don't IM people first on MSN, because most of the time, our convos die and it makes me feel bad. Though I can put the effort into talking a bit more to get some attention, I usually just ignore it and move on. And we've all done that, and most people I know don't IM others for the same reason. But, I'm sorry if I said anything to you, that made you think I hated you. I never really got the chance to apologise since you changed emails.. I want to go back to how it was before, before all this drama.
Things said today.. I don't regret, unfortunately. I don't take back what I said, because I was just defending myself. But still.. If one requests you not to talk about something, can you just do what they say and leave it? Not blow up in someone's face, saying they're stuck up, an idiot and selfish for keeping it yourself. Though, you do say you can fix the issue, it has nothing to do with you. I know.. They're your friend, but still, if I don't want to talk about it, just leave it. Beacuse sometimes, I just want to keep things to myself, because on the internet, nothing is safe. I don't need others to interfere with my issues and for people to go behind my back, and telling others.. Why not just address the issue with me and ask me about it. You call me immature, but talking about someone behind their back, isn't that immature itself? People side with one another, and say really hurtful things. I don't have the best confidence in the world, and the things that were about me and to me, really hurt me. Swearing at me won't do you much good, calling me an idiot.. That just makes everything worse. Saying I'm a b****, making fun of my appearance, making fun of my weight, that is just low. I won't ever forgive the person who said such cruel and horrible things to me, sadly. I've been lied to enough already, I don't need fake people in my life. I don't want to have to deal with the taunting anymore. Thus, I don't care about what anyone has to say about me. Though, I just lost two friends now, because of this, the third? I don't care about them anymore.
But they won't accept my apology, and so.. I've come to terms with it. I can't say anything to change it anymore. And no, blocking someone doesn't mean you're hiding from someone. I despise e-drama and I will do anything to avoid it.
And in saying this, yes this is a rant blog, but I'm afraid more people will talk behind my back, so this is my side of the story.
Thank you to whoever took the time to read all this, I appreciate it.
What Nica said, really touched me. I never knew I could have such good friends over the internet. Though, at this moment, there may be a few people who have issues with me, I'm not sure if they'll read this. In all hopes, I want them too, or just one particular person.
No, I don't hate you, I never said I hated you. I was just really upset with what you did, but I understand why. I never took the time to talk to you, because I fear confrontation. I don't IM people first on MSN, because most of the time, our convos die and it makes me feel bad. Though I can put the effort into talking a bit more to get some attention, I usually just ignore it and move on. And we've all done that, and most people I know don't IM others for the same reason. But, I'm sorry if I said anything to you, that made you think I hated you. I never really got the chance to apologise since you changed emails.. I want to go back to how it was before, before all this drama.
Things said today.. I don't regret, unfortunately. I don't take back what I said, because I was just defending myself. But still.. If one requests you not to talk about something, can you just do what they say and leave it? Not blow up in someone's face, saying they're stuck up, an idiot and selfish for keeping it yourself. Though, you do say you can fix the issue, it has nothing to do with you. I know.. They're your friend, but still, if I don't want to talk about it, just leave it. Beacuse sometimes, I just want to keep things to myself, because on the internet, nothing is safe. I don't need others to interfere with my issues and for people to go behind my back, and telling others.. Why not just address the issue with me and ask me about it. You call me immature, but talking about someone behind their back, isn't that immature itself? People side with one another, and say really hurtful things. I don't have the best confidence in the world, and the things that were about me and to me, really hurt me. Swearing at me won't do you much good, calling me an idiot.. That just makes everything worse. Saying I'm a b****, making fun of my appearance, making fun of my weight, that is just low. I won't ever forgive the person who said such cruel and horrible things to me, sadly. I've been lied to enough already, I don't need fake people in my life. I don't want to have to deal with the taunting anymore. Thus, I don't care about what anyone has to say about me. Though, I just lost two friends now, because of this, the third? I don't care about them anymore.
But they won't accept my apology, and so.. I've come to terms with it. I can't say anything to change it anymore. And no, blocking someone doesn't mean you're hiding from someone. I despise e-drama and I will do anything to avoid it.
And in saying this, yes this is a rant blog, but I'm afraid more people will talk behind my back, so this is my side of the story.
Thank you to whoever took the time to read all this, I appreciate it.