Meganium
[i]memento mori[/i]
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- Houston, TX
- Seen May 3, 2024
Just a small note: This is just an appreciation blog to everyone I know/knew here on PokeCommunity, and I wanted to give thanks. Oh, and comments are disabled.
So, anyways. So far, I've gone through the most ****ed up week ever. It's one of those times when your emotions run extremely wild, and you have absolutely no control of them. I've come to the realization that I do have the power to control them, but either I'm weak to do so, or I just don't bother. It was also a week that changed the course of my life, I'm not used to it just yet, because there's damage that needed to be cleaned up, so I need at least two to three weeks to heal completely.
Honestly, I had no idea what to think, feel, or say anymore. I was embarrassed, but at the same time, I was confused, angry, hopeless. 2 hours of sleep every night. Mind going crazy. Cried during my work break. I needed to breathe again. I couldn't come out of my room, nor talk/speak to anyone around me. It was hard to smile, it was hard to strike up a conversation, it was harder for me to say hello.
Today, I'm feeling better. I'm in control of my feelings now, and I'm doing all I can to be extremely careful. However, it caused my immune system to go weaker, so I'm pending for a really bad cold. 100 degree fever right now, I really hope it doesn't go any higher. I should probably stay in bed and read, but at the same time, I have unfinished business to take care of.
What I just said is just beside the point of this blog. I think there's like...a bunch of you whom I'd like to thank individually, but...really, it's a LOT of you. For four years here on PC, I've met the most incredible, most amazing people ever, and I really wish you guys live nearby so I can hug you all. Unfortunately, it'll probably take me a few paychecks to save up to do so. :P There were times that I tend to be very weird, random, or a person who doesn't know what the hell she's sayin'. I'm also a person who likes to get...pretty clingy towards others, and I always think that's a good thing, because I want to let the person know that I care and my door is always open. You know how that feels right?
To everyone I know that's reading this, whether you are Sector, Dragon, Wenty, Zach, all PC & server staff, all my friends whether we're close or not, thank you so much for all the support this time around and all the other times around. I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you guys. Thank you for allowing me to listen to your dilemmas, the gossip, basically opening up your lives to me. Thank you for calling me your friend. Thank you for being that one person whom I'd like to dump a bucket of guts on. Last but not least, thank you for letting me get this far. I feel stronger now.
Last temperature reading said 101 degrees now, so I should probably sleep and get off for the day. I will come back to normal again (off short LoA) on Friday. I also had a rough week at work, so I will be resting up from that as well.
xoxoxoxo
P.S. To the person whom I'm...proooobably expecting to read this thing, you should skype/text me. If you don't want to, then I understand.
So, anyways. So far, I've gone through the most ****ed up week ever. It's one of those times when your emotions run extremely wild, and you have absolutely no control of them. I've come to the realization that I do have the power to control them, but either I'm weak to do so, or I just don't bother. It was also a week that changed the course of my life, I'm not used to it just yet, because there's damage that needed to be cleaned up, so I need at least two to three weeks to heal completely.
Honestly, I had no idea what to think, feel, or say anymore. I was embarrassed, but at the same time, I was confused, angry, hopeless. 2 hours of sleep every night. Mind going crazy. Cried during my work break. I needed to breathe again. I couldn't come out of my room, nor talk/speak to anyone around me. It was hard to smile, it was hard to strike up a conversation, it was harder for me to say hello.
Today, I'm feeling better. I'm in control of my feelings now, and I'm doing all I can to be extremely careful. However, it caused my immune system to go weaker, so I'm pending for a really bad cold. 100 degree fever right now, I really hope it doesn't go any higher. I should probably stay in bed and read, but at the same time, I have unfinished business to take care of.
What I just said is just beside the point of this blog. I think there's like...a bunch of you whom I'd like to thank individually, but...really, it's a LOT of you. For four years here on PC, I've met the most incredible, most amazing people ever, and I really wish you guys live nearby so I can hug you all. Unfortunately, it'll probably take me a few paychecks to save up to do so. :P There were times that I tend to be very weird, random, or a person who doesn't know what the hell she's sayin'. I'm also a person who likes to get...pretty clingy towards others, and I always think that's a good thing, because I want to let the person know that I care and my door is always open. You know how that feels right?
To everyone I know that's reading this, whether you are Sector, Dragon, Wenty, Zach, all PC & server staff, all my friends whether we're close or not, thank you so much for all the support this time around and all the other times around. I wouldn't even be here if it wasn't for you guys. Thank you for allowing me to listen to your dilemmas, the gossip, basically opening up your lives to me. Thank you for calling me your friend. Thank you for being that one person whom I'd like to dump a bucket of guts on. Last but not least, thank you for letting me get this far. I feel stronger now.
Last temperature reading said 101 degrees now, so I should probably sleep and get off for the day. I will come back to normal again (off short LoA) on Friday. I also had a rough week at work, so I will be resting up from that as well.
xoxoxoxo
P.S. To the person whom I'm...proooobably expecting to read this thing, you should skype/text me. If you don't want to, then I understand.
