I'm Shinell. I go by Kaori on here! Some of you know me as that mod of Black and White, that RSE fangirl, crazy, hyper, amazing, weird, full of it, too stubborn to realize whatever, who knows what!
YES, I think way more than I should, I only listen to myself in the end, I have came off weak, and gave wrong impressions to people I'd actually want to impress and be adored by.
Yes, I have a lot of flaws and all, whatever more you can think of, but I'm much more than that too.
Okay so you see, I've had a rough life. Now I'm a teenager and when you hear me talk you probably run through your mind "look at all these teen remarks lolol!! She's so young and full of it!". But I'd like to say I'm more than your stereotypical teen. And really we all are somehow.
Anyway I don't want to make this some sappy blog about me. But here's a few things I'd like you all to know, because I'm all about making good impressions and last year I've made a bad one it seems. So here we go!
I have the wildest imagination, I'm usually the creative one in a group, I love being a leader and I don't really like following. I like grabbing peoples' attention to the things I want them to know most about what I do or what I'm all about. All of the things I create (see - B/W FAQ) I like to get creative about. If it's going to be something long and you actually want someone to read it, you have to enjoy it yourself. Something you think you'd want to read over and over again after writing it all. If it's something you can't get your lazy butt self to admire and review, it ain't worth it (see long tldrs that carry on long and tldr). But most of all you have to be proud of it.
I'm weird. But I love that especially about me. Being weird just gives me the ability to really creep people out (which gives a good laugh) or make people smile. Being weird is like making an escape from the world but it's really that set personality I have in myself that allows me to move on from anything. Sometimes, I jump around and run around, go crazy, just let loose, dance and listen to Paramore or something, and it feels so good in the end.
Oh I absolutely love to act and sing. Sometimes when I'm with my friends, I'll sing something I want to say instead of just telling it normally. And at random times I'll act out a scene from a TV show or movie if it relates to something my friends and I are discussing, or with my brother even. At times I make up my own lines.
I like making anyone happy. If you tell me about your life and you want help, I'll help. I will stick through anything with you until the end. Just don't give up. I often don't care about peoples' backgrounds, just who they are with me.
I want to be an inspiration to many one day. Give a message. I'm all about motivation and I like being the motivational one to do things and cheer people up. I wasn't able to do that in the past because I let my own emotions get to me. Wrong idea. Wrong reactions. Wrong.
I am TOTALLY optimistic. That's where some people don't see it (see - last year y'all). If I must say so myself, I'm one of the most optimistic people you'll ever meet. I never like seeing the wrong situations and mainly love seeing the right. I blocked everything I ever told myself and again, that's where I went wrong. But not anymore bb.
B+. Something I used to say a lot, and always will. I know I was very negative at times, but that is just not me. I look back at that and I'm disappointed in me. But it is what it is. I am all about being positive and really, I always always look for the positives out of anything "negative". Of course it's not always easy to do that but you know, I try.
I LOVE COLORS. And animals, and graphics and art. Silly faces and doing silly things. I like making animal noises! And those corny little jokes, overused jokes and quotes we live by. I just love a lot of little things.
I love fashion, I'm a girl do that math! I love going places and I love nature (big time), photography, food (YES), anything amazing really. Oh and the internet. I love the internet so much I'd die without it but hey yknow what's so bad about that? I still have a life and I choose to spend a lot of it on the internet but I do a whole lot of other things outside of it so there's nothing wrong.
I'm strong. As much as I'd have loved to say I was weak in the past, I lived through it all and I'm dead serious when I say I am emotionally and mentally strong. Not physically at all though.
I don't really take "mean" things or jokes all that seriously. & Usually I have a good sense of humor about it. But if you catch me in the wrong mood, just forget my remarks. In fact I shouldn't even bother making remarks when I'm in a terrible mood, it just makes that optimistic impression of mine to you, go BOOM. I'm working on that!
I think I'm funny. u_u
I'd like to believe I'm nerdy. I never like anything below a B, I love video games (a lot actually), I know my stuff about technology, usually one of the smartest people in class and I do nerdy things. Being a nerd is fun man, why you gotta hate?? I apologize to the hardcore gamers/technerds if they read this, but you'll probably laugh anyway so that's good!
I like being random. Why not?
In the end, we're all great people and I'll always believe that. You know, like Anne Frank's quote.
& Muuuch more, but I understand this could be a boring read if you don't really care about getting to know me or fixing my impression that I've given to a few. I apologize!
But I'm proud of writing this, because it's something I've been needing to get through for the longest time. I'm done with that old side of me in which I stopped standing up for "being weak", it's time for me to start standing up for my strength and personality instead. If you read this all, I love you.
:B 
