Palamon
Silence is Purple
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- 15
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- Age 27
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- Snezhnaya, Teyvat.
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"Kory's at it with their annoying shit again." Internally, I refer to myself as he, btw. Unneeded commentary aside.
Lately, I've felt like my life has been at a dead end lately. I'm... not really doing anything that makes me happy and wanna figure out what will, in the slim chance I could, anyway. Work program turned out to be full of people who are in their late forties in some kind of dead end, who can't work (as in, getting paid, work) and are far slower than me... but I have no right to complain, so I go every day until I'm ready to get a regular job. I hate how people try and pressure me every ten seconds to get a job. I'm nineteen. I only graduated high school ten months ago. College isn't something I can do or afford, either. Not to mention, how often I feel my parents will try and get rid of me when I'm still immature, what have you, about a lot of things. Can't drive, still have "raging hormones" (lol), and have zero idea the value of money. I still have ways to go before I can "move out" like people are trying to make me do. I'm practically a child, yet, legally, I'm this "adult".
Everything feels like a dead end in my life right now. Maybe it's the depression/ mood disorder, I don't know, or maybe it's because I feel like nothing matters to me right now. I don't know. I guess I have some thinking to do about my future.
Lately, I've felt like my life has been at a dead end lately. I'm... not really doing anything that makes me happy and wanna figure out what will, in the slim chance I could, anyway. Work program turned out to be full of people who are in their late forties in some kind of dead end, who can't work (as in, getting paid, work) and are far slower than me... but I have no right to complain, so I go every day until I'm ready to get a regular job. I hate how people try and pressure me every ten seconds to get a job. I'm nineteen. I only graduated high school ten months ago. College isn't something I can do or afford, either. Not to mention, how often I feel my parents will try and get rid of me when I'm still immature, what have you, about a lot of things. Can't drive, still have "raging hormones" (lol), and have zero idea the value of money. I still have ways to go before I can "move out" like people are trying to make me do. I'm practically a child, yet, legally, I'm this "adult".
Everything feels like a dead end in my life right now. Maybe it's the depression/ mood disorder, I don't know, or maybe it's because I feel like nothing matters to me right now. I don't know. I guess I have some thinking to do about my future.
