Hah, I shall! Headaches aren't that big of a problem though, no need to worry about me c: And I do certainly hope it won't!
Aw you're so so so nice, Marina! c: Oh I'm happy that you don't regret talking to me! I hope our friendship lasts very, very long!
Pfft of course it's okay for you to rant to me, Marina. Well your first issue doesn't seem like it has any other solution. I mean, you could win at the lottery but otherwise you'll probably have to deal with student loan... If there's too much competition and/or not enough places at a university, that's not really something you can control, unfortunately. In which country would you like to study?
Hm, they're so different from each other! When you have free time, do you usually spend your time doing creative things, like drawing, painting, singing, writing, et. cetera, or researching about stuff to apply your knowledge at a later time? Because one of your choices is about creating and the another is about understanding the creation. Subject choosing is such a tricky subject because really, you're the only one who can make up your mind. Even if I stayed by your side 24h and watched you do everything that you do, I still wouldn't know what goes on in your head. And even if you choose a subject but then feel like it isn't the right one for you, you shouldn't feel bad. You're choosing it at time in your life where there's a lot of pressure and even though you're on the brink of adulthood, your mind can and probably will change. Changing courses is a thing that happens quite often! Besides, the road to success isn't binary, like fail or win. It has lots of fails along the way until you reach the win.
I wish I could help you more with those things but they're problems I myself haven't fully experienced. I'm so sorry Marina ;-;
Just remember that you don't have to face any of this alone, no need to suffer in silence. Share these things with other people and don't feel bad about telling them, because if they don't care, it's because they aren truly your friend, and if they care, you'll actually be strengthening the relationship. And then when the person has a problem, he/she may also tell you about it and you'll be more experienced in life! Also remember that life will beat you to your knees and keep you permanently there if you let it. Nobody's going to hit as hard as life. But it isn't about how hard you hit, it's about how much you can get hit and keep moving forward.
Sorry for making this message so long and maybe deviating from the problems a little bit, by the way! You don't have to reply everything, just you know, read! I'm also in one of my depressing days. It's okay to be sad sometimes, but it ain't okay to let the sadness consume you. I like that you acknowledge your feelings and act towards them with realism c:
Also you typed all of that on your phone or you used a computer? Because if you typed it all on phone, good lord you type fast! o.o
Aaaaaand I love you lots, lots and lots! Mhm! c: