Dear Anonymous,
You aren't a martyr, so stop acting like it. Yes, people are mean to you, but people are mean in general. When you get riled up, you annoy others. It's your fault, your instigation, and then you claim that you can't help it.
Honestly? You need to find a way to keep your mouth shut, to get off your high horse. At the same time, you need to come down from your own cross, and stop with the "poor pitiful me" garbage. You have to tell everyone when you're on top, have to show off your latest creation of newest joke, and then you whine and cry when people get sick of you, or just stop listening.
You have a lot. You're probably in a better position than most. You have natural ability, but you can't, or won't, work. You're lazy, you're an excuse maker, and you're borderline incompetent most of the time. You like to hold up your accomplishments, and pretend like it entitles you to something special.
It doesn't. Not in daily life.
You're jealous of your friends? You're rated in the 98th-99th percentile in roughly everything you do. And you can't see that, because you say that you're just keeping up with the others.
And you are. There's always someone on the bottom, always someone on the low end of the scale. Get used to it, and stop acting like you're somehow deserving of the top spot all the time. You're childish, petty, moody, short-tempered, insecure, and you have low self-confidence. You can't exploit your own talents because you're too busy trying to be good at everything.
And then when you fail where it actually matters, you shrug and make excuses.
Why can't you work harder? Why are you stuck in this cycle of failure, despair, irritation, self-loathing, feeble attempts at improvement, backsliding, and right back to failure?
And even then, why are you complaining? You're at the bottom of the top. You're better off than most.
Life would be easier if you would just keep your mouth shut. Why is that so hard? You talk constantly. Nobody can understand you. What's so hard about speaking at a normal pace?
Life would be easier if you didn't actively try to sabotage yourself, trying to be offbeat, and yet trying to be accepted. It doesn't work like that.
Life would be easier, so much easier, if you realized that your opinions, shaky and baseless as they are, aren't wanted? Think before you open your mouth, and stop spewing your bile everywhere. People have tried telling you that, I've tried telling you that, and you still don't get it.
Grow up. Learn how to function in society. There's nothing wrong with you, so stop complaining about how unfair it all is. And stop beating up on yourself.
We're tired of hearing it. Fix it.
-Shanghai