I... I'm starting to conclude that I had an out-of-body experience the other night.
I had hopped onto the Battle Server for the first time in a while, and had a really nice chat with Pachy and some others. We talked about this or that, didn't matter what. But after we left, I had this really thick feeling in my head so I decided to lay down. Once I did I found myself not being able to stop thinking - pondering and wondering about things that are indescribable and unfathomable. My mind had gone supersonic, and eventually I fell into a really tight sleep.
There was one thing I recall seeing in my sleep: a door-like opening that pulsated and shifted around a lot. It was white with a light rainbow of colours in peripheral. When I saw that it felt like it was in my living room where I slept, but it didn't look like my living room at all and felt like it was both my living room and some other place at once. I also vaguely recall seeing another person in the other half of my sleep that I remember very little about. Though it was someone who was female and very familiar, like I see her a lot... I don't know her name at all. She may not even have one, but I know who she is, as does she me.
I thought I should expand... the first half of my sleep was really sensory and cognitive, but the second half was far less and a lot more emotional. Whatever thing/person I saw I had a connection with, a bond that felt like a love. It was a very strange kind of love that wasn't like ones you have normally, with romanticism and sexuality at all. But it was still that at its root, I dunno. There was a very strong sense of affection I had towards her, but not really any regret/remorse for parting with her. Does that make sense?
Anyway, about half-way through me waking up I sat up a little and scared the shit out of my kitten, who was sleeping at my feet on the couch. I imagine he moved to look because my body moved, but I also think he saw something besides my body that was really scary or strange. I think my ghost was moving back into its shell right then, because what I felt would make sense for that. Then I spent the next twenty minutes or so moving around and stretching because all my blood nearly stopped flowing, and was sunk to the bottom of my body - which wasn't pleasant. The next few hours I spent collecting my thoughts, and that was that.
It was all so strange, like I died, even. It's similar to what people say happened when they die. I'm just not sure what to make of it, or what the reasons for it were. Honestly though, I think there is no "explanation." It just is. It was a lot of fun.
