Do you wonder if you'll ever face the chance to actually feel love, experience marriage, have children, reach your dream, go on a phenomenal journey or whatnot?
Okay, I know I've felt love before. Genuine, blessed love. I know I've felt it many times in my life, and that I know I'm experience it again one day. Though I'm only 17, I know that love is something that I've felt and I cherish the moments when I do feel it, not just any love coming from me, but love directed towards me, which is somewhat rare.
I really, really want to get married one day. It's one of my biggest dreams. The thought of being married to the person I truly love is awe inspiring to me, as far off and distant the moment actually is. The biggest problem is actually getting there. Being a total social and emotional wreck, I think it's going to be a long time before I get married. But I know I really want to, I really want to experience the sanctity of marriage one day.
I'm going to have children no matter what. Whether it be via adoption or surrogacy, I will have them one day. This is my biggest goal in life, to be a great father. Much better parents than the uncaring alcoholic my father is.
I don't necessarily have a dream as much as a future I'd like to have. Successful, with family, living in America somewhere and free from woe and pain. My dream isn't outrageous like BECOMING AN ASTRONAUT PSYCHOLOGIST AIRPLANE CRIMEFIGHTER, it's just a nice future I'd like.
Define phenomenal journey. I know I'm not going to have a phenomenal journey as in something from goddamn Final Fantasy or Kingdom Hearts, but maybe I will have a journey as in The Journey of Life™. That being, have no regrets and do everything that I desire and at the end of it all, be satisfied with my life.