No, you're super sweet for writing all that down for palamon and sharing your experience with her and all of us. It isn't easy talking about such depressing stuff in your life over the internet. Takes a lot of courage. Which I probably wouldn't have had if I were in your place.
Also, I never really understood how or why people suffered from anxiety but I really wish this stupid ass thing disappears from the face of earth. ;____; How you doing these days, btw?