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I am not quite to the end yet but I heard some things... I am preparing myself for what is to come.

oh you're quite ahead of me then. I normally do the same but it didn't release until 3 AM my time so I was already asleep and had work the next morning. I wasn't able to start it until yesterday afternoon and only got 4 episodes in. going to finish it up now though.

what episode are you on

oh ya ive watched that before

Whats that?

hey, your turn in the civ android 18

I know, it's basically the only way I feel "legitimate" -- but I can see how that is interrupting my ability to just do and say as I feel. I have been struggling with my gender since my most early memories, but I had suppressed these thoughts for a long time -- it really f**ked with my ability to just make it through the day. Seriously, I bet you know what I mean when I say it felt like I was just performing masculinity rather than being masculine.

Currently I am doing research on identity construction and political institutions, which was inspired by my internal struggle. Forcing myself to think rationally and read others experience of gender helped me get passed some of these mental barriers that prevented me from knowing my authentic self.

It's hard to describe, but in nearly every dream I have always been a girl. I was always envious of other girls and so badly wanted to be included in that world, but I was not allowed to. Also, being with other men as a man always felt off to me especially since I never felt comfortable with my body.

Wow, 3 very nice qualities indeed!

Do you have any updates on your appearance by chance? I am just curious since the last time we spoke you had not begun a physical transitioning process -- unless I am totally mistaken! Also, have you recently started dating? Also, how's dating AND being trans?

Sorry, I just want to use you for info :p

I have been going through stages of hypermasculinity and questioning gender for some time now. It was a cycle driven by negative reinforcement of femininity and positive reinforcement of masculinity. I vaguely remember my childhood at all, but I distinctly remember wanting to wear dresses, play castle, and hang out with other girls. On a few occasions my dad would strike me and/or berate me if I did anything non-masculine. I don't know, I just finally want to stop listening to what others want for me and understand my own wants.

Also, tell me about dating?

(Look I responded quickly this time...I feel bad, but I am generally the worst at replying!)

Lmao. Don't post bullshit or we'll go for you, kids.

Glad to hear you are doing well. Sorry I take forever to respond. I know, it's quite a change!

Dating? Working? That sounds exciting.

"Current Activity: Replying to Thread News Mass-Shooting in Orlando Gay Club"

perched.

I am doing alright. Going through some major life changes which is always a bit stressful, but hopefully for the best!

How about you?
(Also, I like you android 18 avi!)

Hey! :)

I see. Is there any point in Bernie Sanders staying in then?

(puke) (puke) (puke)

Fortunately after this year I'll never have to unwillingly set foot in a church or religious institution again so yay!

That is a fun game! Totally not a name inspiration at all, no sir. I never finished it though.

They're definitely very you

:)
I can't imagine you with a different one

Well, let be just tell you why I don't like mods. A mod bullied me on another forum long ago. So, instead of being an silent victim, I put my foot down and prove that they aren't nothing. Just people who actually big and bad and they can attack us and we can't attack them. I am just trying to prove they ain't gods.

Now, I was joking about the first part though. But, knowing most mods will still hit me with an infraction.