So, time to write back. Wanted to before, but like I said I was sort of at a loss of what I wanted to say. But, alas, in this moment, here we are.
Heh, you and your bad healthy habits. Like all those unhealthy slurpees and the unhealthy pretzels. And then there's also the Bad financial decisions. That was your best and most fitting username probably, by the way. Also saw some of the bad decision making while you were playing, ehehe. Stop getting them all killed jesus. Oh and, next time I'll try to remind you to Pokemon GO. It's fun and can even produce funny results if you happen to play with that AR thing on. I don't really know myself actually, because the game doesn't work on my phone since it doesn't pick up my gps signal. Other than that I also only have wifi so I can't really go outside to catch pokemon, so it's probably not even worth it either.
I'm glad that you slept well, especially because like mentioned before you haven't been doing to well with sleep lately. You definitely needed some good sleep. Although I think we should aim to having you sleep when you're feeling a better mood, because from my own experience going to bed with a killer mood feels absolutely fucking terrible. Also your hours haven't been going to well and although you might say that you felt rested after that sleep, you still ended up feeling drained after some puzzling, which still kind of worries me. Yeah, waiting until I sleep is absolutely fine with me, kind of love it that you're there until I become unaware if you are or not. And I don't wake up from much sounds or anything either, so once I am you could basically leave when you want to. Wait. What gives you the idea that you need to stay? The worry that I might wake up or that I said I was looking for some feedback? Because in case of the second, that's only when I'm not aware of what you plan and thinking you'd be there, I suppose. Just let me know what your plan is, all will be fine and there is really no need for you to stay especially when you obviously need to be spending your time on something else, getting things done for example.
We should be able to do at least something about it. If not solve it, make it at least more.. bearable? There's definitely situations where I see that we could've simply prevented if a simple measure was taken. Let me know when you do have something to say about it, if you do come up with an idea, etc. Then we can discuss the issue together and work it out.
Sure as hell this month has been something. But lets not call it a shit month just yet. After all, times again have you shown me how strong you are, how we are able to tackle things that are in our way, and become even stronger together. It's what makes me feel determined, it's what makes me feel better on a day, and I very much hope you could think about it the same way. I'm sure that you will find a way to adapt. Please let anyone know if you require assistance, whoever it might be. And, please, you can't tell me you'd feel like a bother to anyone. Not after telling me that I'm not one, while I'm definitely stealing your time away from work you need to do and from others you need to talk to. The "everyone else comes first" goes both way as well. I've honestly been feeling a bit.. uhh.. something about it. I don't know exactly.. But, yeah, you can prioritize others, but you're simply taking all the priority away from yourself. Which isn't good and you shouldn't do that.
Like I said, I'll definitely be careful. It's true that I sometimes try to find some depth, but also not. I'd say that most of my online friendships are that, what you need as well. There's only one I have that I'd say has depth, and that's what we have. And like I said before, I'm more than grateful for it and cherish it any given day. You know, for me no other friendship will ever compare to this one. It has felt like my best one ever. Even topping any romantic interests I've had. I'm very glad to hear what you think of it, by the way.
Hmm.. The bad mood.. I'm still somewhat at a loss.. Ugh, now I'm uncertain if it's actually because i wouldn't know you enough.. Why must you test me this way ;-;.. But, eh, yeah. I didn't see it coming, and it's still my main reason to say that I have no clue on what could've caused it. Although I suppose I might be relating it too much to the conversation we've had. At least give me the hint if it's related or not ;x.
Getting in to a new paragraph.. But still mood. I sometimes see it happening right in front of me, how your mood changes. Something that always leaves me feeling awful. ...Especially in this case, talking about now in this moment. Especially because you deny what really is going on. Like I said, sometimes there's just a simple solution, that's right in front of your eyes. You should really stop being stubborn and learn to accept what you see. If it's something that I could literally delete within a minute, then let me delete it. So you don't see it. So it doesn't have to get to you. So it doesn't have to remind you.
I'm going to be honest and say that I've felt quite some things after that happened now. I can tell you that I was VERY worried. I can also tell you that I was.. Well.. to some extent, a bit pissed off. But that's because like I said, it's something I could've prevented, and also very much solve right when you saw it. But you let it get to you instead. Which.. can kind of hurt me. And definitely leaves me feeling absolutely horrible.
I'm sorry for writing this huge wall of text, maybe I should've done it in multiple parts as well or something.. I'd much rather reply without you getting in a bad mood, but now because you are I really feel the need to reply. I'll just let you take your time if you really need it, but please don't close me off. Remember that one story you told me about decency. Remember what I quoted you earlier today, that someone else said.
