This is a random question, but what's the pronunciation of your username? I keep reading it in my head as "Oscar" or "Oska" and that's probably horribly wrong.
I did sleep last night and it was blissful. I've never been much of an avid book reader but I'll probably start doing it before bed. I've always heard it's important to "unplug" before bed and honestly I don't. I just hop off whatever I'm doing and head straight to bed. Also bike riding is the greatest thing I've ever started doing, and it's been such a mood booster for me. I've been doing it so frequently every single day. The weather is freezing but it doesn't stop my enjoyment.
So I also played a bunch of Mega Man 3 yesterday. I ended up beating all the stages, and that was such a surprise. I completely forgot the stages open back up again. It was an even bigger surprise when I made it to Shadow Man and instead, it was Wood Man at the end. And I lost. There's no check points, which stings. I can't wait to see what other bosses return. I remember one of them was Air Man. Oh I do the exact same thing. I check my health and lives, and usually just let myself get killed so I can take them on with my power up. And before I forget wow the music in this game is incredible. Snake Man's theme was stuck in my head for hours after I finished. He wasn't even that difficult. It just meant standing in the middle and timing it so he jumps over you. The same thing happened to me in his stage however, because on the cloud part I kept getting knocked off by the bullet bill looking things. I'm beyond excited to start playing Mega Man 4 because I have no idea what's coming. With 1-3 I had some sense of familiarity, past this everything is going to be completely blind. I couldn't help myself so I took a look at Mega Man 6 and saw Tomahawk Man. I allowed myself one try through the stage, and made it all the way to him without losing a life. Then he obliterated me.
Battle Frontier was fun and unique, and I like how it includes the competitive multiplayer side into an in-game mode. Sadly I never had the patience to EV train in game. When I wanted to play competitively I went onto pokemon showdown since everything was set up for you. I'm okay at it, but not exceptional. I understand the mechanics and I can get off the lower rankings, but I'm not good enough to reach the high rankings. I drift straight towards the middle. Have you ever played something and forced yourself to finish? I have to say that Mario 64 is in my lesser liked Mario games. I don't find it very appealing, yet I got 100% twice. I'm not sure what it is, but sometimes the game feels empty. Sometimes older games have a way of giving off that feeling. Newer games do a great job of making you feel like your part of something bigger. It's a bigger problem for me going into older games than controls.
I'm not a business owner, but I can't get my head around Nintendo's practices. They seem very adamant about enforcing certain policies and doing things a certain way. I mean Origami King could be excused. Sales for that series are at an all time high, and they could just push this off as an unhappy vocal minority. But recently they've been attacking music channels on Youtube for uploading nintendo songs. I really don't get how music on youtube is harming anything. If anything, someone sees a nice song and it makes them want to buy the game more. They've also been attacking fan hosted game tournaments, while other companies sponsor and support when fans do this thing. It's bizarre.
Last of Us has been unique. It's very plot heavy, but without too many cut scenes. I believe the entire thing is only about an hour and 30 minutes of cut scenes. Much of the story is told through the dialogue between characters while you play. After I finish this message I'll probably end up trying to complete the rest of the game.
Wow I never even knew the cave of ordeals was in the desert. Desert areas aren't usually my favorites so I probably rushed through it. Ironically that place had one of my favorite dungeon's because I liked the lore behind it so much. It was also the big reveal about Ganondorf. I liked the scene where it showed the events after Ocarina of time, they impaled him with the sword but it didn't do anything, so they had to seal him. It was kind of like saying "Let's make him someone else's problem". I assume they knew the seal would eventually fail to hold him. With Four Swords didn't that require four players? That might be the game I have the least familiarity with, because I don't even know which console it belongs on. I think Gamecube and Gameboy? I remember the 3DS ambassador program. I didn't understand how you joined that either, and I was disappointed because I wanted to play Mario Kart: Super Circuit. It was never placed on the E-shop and remained only available for the program. People often complain about Ganondorf. They say he was tacked into Twilight Princess and stole the spotlight from Zant. He's just such a cool villain I never mind seeing him. Still, if any villain were to return I would like it be Majora. It would be amazing to see Ganondorf put on Majora's Mask. I guess that would end up being a battle for control. And about the NES games, they were just cryptic. I don't believe it was anything to do with translation but I could be wrong. The hints were often one line riddles. Oh and also there was a scam artist in Zelda 1. You pay a ton of money to an NPC (which is already time consuming to accumulate) and she offers you a hint. Only to be like "Ha, thanks for the free money"! It was amusing and a bit frustrating to see something like this in such an old game. Most of the time Zelda 1 is a guessing game. Hope you bomb a wall and wander into the right place. And you can only start with 8 bombs at a time. Breath of the Wild is actually the closest in the series to Zelda 1 in terms of openness.
Sorry, let me try to upload another. Here's a picture of the interior. It was the most bizarre feeling, like you had stepped back in time 300 years. There was nothing like it. I guess that's why those stories begin. The feeling of uncertainty. But so many people telling the same stories, it's hard to feel like everyone is lying.
https://imgur.com/a/9XCtqiB. I hope to go back someday. It's been a few years. But you can't go into the mansion unless you schedule it or have an important reason.
I wonder if it's worth it do a genocide run. Part of me says "yes" because it would give me a reason to replay for one last time, but I was also so satisfied with how the game ended. I also don't want to do the entire thing to realize how bad I am and get stuck at Sans. No not really, Final Fantasy 7 is probably not the best game ever, even though that would be a subjective opinion. It was okay to me. I thought the final boss theme was incredible, but that was the highlight to me. (Link to it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDD-iYkHBhc). Yeah almost every final fantasy is it's own story. If I were to recommend any, it would probably Final Fantasy 6. The villain reminded me of Joker from Batman. If you can get into SNES RPG's you would probably enjoy it. I think SNES games have aged greatly, and honestly remind me of playing indie games. The encounter rate is very high, which was the only thing that put me off from it.
Has it gotten better relating to you and your parents about the depression? My mother's reaction to finding out I had anxiety was surprise. Her words to me were "But your so calm and collected. I never expected you would have this". I've never been told it was my fault, and what you mentioned feels so sickening I can't even imagine. Panic attacks already feel so close to death. I'm so sorry for the person who had to hear that. My worst experience came from my own "best friend". Someone I relied on for support, constantly told me "They would always stick with me" and would "never leave me". They told me that for two years. This person cut me off completely out of the blue at a time I needed help the most. I do believe what you said, we only get stronger. As for that person, I go between forgiveness and completely loathing them. I ended up doing fine supporting myself.