I have to remain in the present too. But sometimes (this is what I learned from my behavior intervention specialist) in order to get "apple pie" I have to "get the ingredients" first, and in order to "get the ingredients," I have to "go to the super market." Of course, this is a metaphor to think ahead with a person's goals and plans but...he also wants me to stay in the present. Actually, this is really a metaphor (according to him) to be patient and wait for the "apple pie" to be done, cause I was nervous if something will be planned or not on someone else's terms. I'm just nervous about how far the drum corps will get out of the drudges of what the covid-19 pandemic did to us, and if we'll still be able to do what we used to do. The current leader of the drum corps has to have a meeting with his boss and see if we can still do the things we used to do (performances, trips, etc.). But he's giving himself a deadline of February to have this meeting, and that's a couple of weeks away. He's also super busy, so alas, I am nervous.
...but as of a couple of days ago, I gave up trying to help and decided to just go with the flow with what drum corps is currently doing. My body can't go through this stress. Stress hurts.
In other news, my day-hab announced tryouts for the next play "Matilda the Musical." Everyone wants me to try out, but I don't know. I could do a voice-over again like I did for the last play but I may want to do something on stage but i'm so unsure due to my unluckiness with singing dancing and acting.