I wish I had not been stuck in my "trauma bubble" for so many years post-high school. I wish I had applied myself to a college degree for a career instead of just for fun. Basically - I wish I had lived for the future, not the moment.
Under normal circumstances I might be less bothered by my past and just have to deal with it, but instead I'm under circumstances where I'm moving to a much more expensive state because of the political climate and my well-being. I'm also scared for the country as a whole. Yet because I didn't apply myself to a degree for a good career, I'm not desirable to other, safer countries.
Hopefully they will be defeated in November and I can breathe a sigh of relief and move on with my life, but I'm scared things might not go that way and I wouldn't know what to do...