I never lost anyone close to me, the closest would happen to be my dog who I cared for since he was a little puppy after we adopted him. He was a Yorkshire Terrier and I literally grew up with him until many years later he passed away. It tore me apart and all I could ask myself was "Why? Why did it have to happen to me?"
However, even though I haven't lost a human being close to me, my father happens to be diagnosed with Mesothelioma Cancer which is uncurable. He found out about 2 years ago and the doctor gave him about 4 years to live. I wake up every morning hoping he'll still be there, still be there for me when I need him. I pray that he will still be there to see me graduate high school, attend university, grow up to be a kid who lives his dreams, and so much more.