I usually try to be myself, but I guess around age 13. I have a godfather that I adore but he doesn't live in town and it was a huge deal when he would come to visit or invite family to come spend a vacation with him or travel. He's the kindest, most patient man I know and I wanted to make him proud, I wanted to have something intelligent to say at dinner, and dress my best and be well-behaved. If we went out to eat I would sit at tables acting very mature discussing politics and art, and want to drink wine and hoped the server did not ask my age-- it rarely worked. I just wanted to be what I thought was sophisticated so he would praise me. My parents were divorced by this point so I attached to him like a father figure.
How old were you when you first remember saying a bad word?