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[b][color=red][font=helvetica][i]door-kun best boi
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I'll keep it short and simple - I met a girl today who seemed highly compatible with me. And I felt that we could become good friends and our relationship can evolve into something even more than that over time - you can't usually judge things like these on the very first meeting but the girl just gave out those vibes. But then something happened and all hopes suddenly vanished into thin air. Disappeared. And I'm sitting over here almost about to cry.
tl;dr part:
To be a little more specific, there's this girl my friend was planning to introduce me to. We'd talk about her sometimes because my friend used to say the girl is into stuff that I am as well. He used to say that he didn't feel anything for her but was mildly interested in her. So I've been excited to meet her for a while now. And today I actually ran into them both and he introduced me to her and we talked quite a bit before she and my friend had to run to attend a class. Well, I was happy. I finally met some girl with similar interests as my own and someone who seems almost perfect for me. I was really happy.
But then in the evening my friend calls me and tells me to come to his room. And I'm like "yay, maybe she talked about me or something! This'll be fun". What do I actually get? Friend talking about how he spent three hours just wandering around talking with the girl in question and, just not in name, being on a date. And he's telling me stuff like how he mildly liked her but now that the girl seems like she's actually interested in my friend, he feels like he should go for it as well. And I'm happy about it. Because my friend recently came out from a phase where he'd literally cry and become depressed about things suddenly. And it was due to a girl. Getting into a relationship with her would probably give him the support he needs. And the girl who seems to be interested in my friend would be happy as well I presume - since my friend is a really nice guy. A total bro. I was happy about it.
But, well, there's also the fact that its like I was shown a teaser to a game that I've been waiting to play for years and then told the very next moment that you'd never get to play it. It is kind of disappointing. I mean, it is very selfish of me to actually think about things not working out between them and the opposite between me and her - especially since in the former case both the parties are into each other. But..I..ugh, I don't know how to express it properly. I mean, I would want to talk to her and become friends and stuff. But I don't know if I'll be able to act "normally" around them if they get into a relationship. I'll feel jealous I think. I don't know. I love the guy - he's literally my best friend over here. And, like I said, I'm happy about him finally moving-the-****-on. But the disappointment and a feeling of helplessness I feel right now is something I simply cannot deny. It is just one of those moments where you feel that life isn't always simple - you do have to deal with complex situations that involve you feeling very...well, conflicted. You don't know what to do. You can't deal with the situation. You just can't.
I'm hoping I manage to watch some anime or play some game to get my mind off this thing. Or maybe just sleep. I don't know. I just want to forget about it all.
tl;dr part:
To be a little more specific, there's this girl my friend was planning to introduce me to. We'd talk about her sometimes because my friend used to say the girl is into stuff that I am as well. He used to say that he didn't feel anything for her but was mildly interested in her. So I've been excited to meet her for a while now. And today I actually ran into them both and he introduced me to her and we talked quite a bit before she and my friend had to run to attend a class. Well, I was happy. I finally met some girl with similar interests as my own and someone who seems almost perfect for me. I was really happy.
But then in the evening my friend calls me and tells me to come to his room. And I'm like "yay, maybe she talked about me or something! This'll be fun". What do I actually get? Friend talking about how he spent three hours just wandering around talking with the girl in question and, just not in name, being on a date. And he's telling me stuff like how he mildly liked her but now that the girl seems like she's actually interested in my friend, he feels like he should go for it as well. And I'm happy about it. Because my friend recently came out from a phase where he'd literally cry and become depressed about things suddenly. And it was due to a girl. Getting into a relationship with her would probably give him the support he needs. And the girl who seems to be interested in my friend would be happy as well I presume - since my friend is a really nice guy. A total bro. I was happy about it.
But, well, there's also the fact that its like I was shown a teaser to a game that I've been waiting to play for years and then told the very next moment that you'd never get to play it. It is kind of disappointing. I mean, it is very selfish of me to actually think about things not working out between them and the opposite between me and her - especially since in the former case both the parties are into each other. But..I..ugh, I don't know how to express it properly. I mean, I would want to talk to her and become friends and stuff. But I don't know if I'll be able to act "normally" around them if they get into a relationship. I'll feel jealous I think. I don't know. I love the guy - he's literally my best friend over here. And, like I said, I'm happy about him finally moving-the-****-on. But the disappointment and a feeling of helplessness I feel right now is something I simply cannot deny. It is just one of those moments where you feel that life isn't always simple - you do have to deal with complex situations that involve you feeling very...well, conflicted. You don't know what to do. You can't deal with the situation. You just can't.
I'm hoping I manage to watch some anime or play some game to get my mind off this thing. Or maybe just sleep. I don't know. I just want to forget about it all.