Thinks my ex is a saint & hates me!
/I've had a low-self esteem, but I don't think guys like insecure girls like me for instance, imo, because why would my ex dump me after nearly three months of seeing me almost everyday & me not puttin' out,..erm... chocolate... I'm the worst ex ever... exagg. Sorry I wrote 'bout him on only two forums... people acted like they ignored me & no one accepts real me....imo. abbrev. because I used the Wii for this. I don' "h8 cats," just two, didn't like golf & WWF in 4th, [only because I didn't know] not that into Pokemon, [WWE's cool] grlz @ my school, tramps imo... [one girl called another that...] Hsm2's ok... I actually wanted to smoke & dr ink, [can't] & was jealous of who did, & got leads like I wanted, who could flirt & actually had dates. I always wanted to sing, but they only taught me the girl part to Disney movie songs. [I can do "Part of Your world," & "Once upon a dream," [I was told I sounded like Ariel w/ 1st] but not "Do You Believe In Magic," & "My <3 Will Go On." /nasal 1st, talk-sing for the 2nd one/ I wanted to ice skate, act on Broadway, & go on a pogo stick, & kiss a crush, but couldn't. I wanted to learn French instead of Spanish.., In case anything happened to US, I'd go to Canada instead of Mexico...since no one likes my hair, [how I feel] I was gonna dye it black. [Wanted blond highlights in 6th, got perm & purple highlights in 7th] I love the tent I got, [got rid o' b/c vomited when I had a liver disease...I'm ok now.] & beat Bop It 2 extreme.., I was on "Double Dare" when I was 7, in 1997 on "Nickelodeon," when I got "Cinderella" dress, & "Crash Bandicoot's" autograph + "Ariel's" & "Betty Boop" doll. I also went on "Jaws" ride..,& "King Kong." I sat in the "Flintstone" car...I remember the smell of an elder lady's B.O. I saw the "Pocahontas'" tree at "Rainforest cafe..." and had "Hercules" yogurt, & "Cinderella" teaset... I used 2 have "Spice Girls" t-shirt & lollipops and saw the movie. I saw "Titanic" in kindergarten....just the science part...My mom and I saw whole thing after gr-ma gave us the movie. I saw "Grease" when I was 3 & hid under the coffee table, same day uncle asked me who was on my shirt over & over. Duh, "Barney"-the purple dinosaur, I dressed like it for Halloween, age five, at school "parade," you have glasses to see...everyone knows what I know, because, gr-ma calls 5 people & tells them all I was at her house, & complained when I sat, doing nothing, when she invited me. I cleaned her windows, did dishes, and toy house, like she said to do, watched "Lion King," her "favorite..." [I preferred "Matilda" or "Annie the Musical"] & gave her a flower. Gr-ma wanted to adopt me. I was "Wilma," (nickname) & she was "Betty..."(her nickname) I thought (as in used to think) my gr-ma told everyone 'bout my life so I couldn't... "Lion King's" boring...I prefer "Snow White," "Sleeping Beauty," or "The Little Mermaid" any day, because of the cute prince at that age. It was a secret not even my password journal knew. Journals were for crushes only, not friends... If I'm wrong, correct me, but I didn't complain about what wasn't recent til I stopped showing stuff bothered me.../