Most Private Thing You'll Admit

[pompayyy]

I sleep in my bed butt-naked, I masturbate to music (and while I've seen porn, I don't masturbate to it - I just kinda stare at it), I randomly stroke my friends' faces (regardless of gender), I am way too insecure (I cry over the littlest things, and sometimes at random), and I want to run outside naked right now.

Hopefully, I don't get killed banned for posting this.

 

[White Raven]

I don't show my true colours to anyone, my friends only get a dull example of it. I don't like getting into real life social situations because I think it is bull. I also analyze my actions and their consequences before I act , so, I am slow. Also, I procrastinate waaaayyyyyy too much (I only get through school because I ace tests.)

I'm a drug addict and I have more than one felony arrest. How's that for a secret?

I did not see that coming. You are always so cool and kind. oh well, you're still awesome, Strawberry!

 

[Controversial?]

I sleep in my bed butt-naked, I masturbate to music (and while I've seen porn, I don't masturbate to it - I just kinda stare at it), I randomly stroke my friends' faces (regardless of gender), I am way too insecure (I cry over the littlest things, and sometimes at random), and I want to run outside naked right now.

Hopefully, I don't get killed banned for posting this.

Is it okay if I send you some songs me and my band wrote? :P

No but seriously, I do find that kind of interesting. Do you have a preference, or are you cool with any genre of music in general? Sorry if I'm overstepping the line a bit, I'm kind of curious.

 

[PokeKhan]

Ah, I don't know if this'll get deleted or not, if it's inappropriate, sorry mods! :O didn't mean to!
well...I realized that I've had a pee fetish since I was little. xD no, of course there's a limit to it, mostly just watching. I have several other friends (3+ dudes and 2 girls) who also have that, so it's not too uncommon. :3

Did I just post the most awkward reply out of everyone? o.o

 

[Ultramarine]

I pretty much have no secrets, cuz that's how I roll.
I do still have stuffed animals on my bed, for nostalgia purposes, but that's about it.

 

[Sanguine]

The things I've read so far are causing quite a mind****, haha

I'm someone who's constantly haunted by past experiences, so much so that I've taken up smoking, and alcohol is basically my best friend. I have no idea how I'll get over that, I doubt that I ever will, and it scares me to think that my entire life will follow the same pattern. Apart from dragging myself to therapy sessions, I don't really make any effort to help myself get better. All in all, I'm a ****** human being.

I dunno if this was the best idea xD

 

[Honest]

Sexually abused when I was a child for about a year, maybe more. Not going to say by who, even though it's pointless if I do or don't. Bottled it up my whole life, and the scariest part is that it doesn't affect me. I question it, but somehow I'm able to suppress all emotions regarding it. I guess I just don't really think about it much anymore, I've always been adept at blocking stuff out from memory for as long as possible. That being said, I think I might have admitted that to my friends on Friday, when I sort of got very drunk. Went on a whole spiel about my breakup with my girlfriend, and I remember (albeit, with an extreme haze) mentioning my childhood. My best friend hit me up the next day saying that we needed to talk about some really sensitive stuff I'd said, and I told him I would rather not. It's the only thing relevant to my childhood that's "sensitive". Honestly, I'm completely emotionally disconnected from the incident. Which is why I find all this bizarre.

I'm an open book for the most part regarding "secrets", cause I don't really keep any. Hell, I admitted the above incident (albeit watered down) to 3 people about a year ago (my friends) who were also with me when I got drunk (my best friend wasn't one of them). That being said, even the most transparent of people have something hidden.

 

[LilyAnn]

Last year I had the cops called on me by a "friend" of mine. It was over something really stupid too. lol She was apparently convinced that I would beat her up or something. xD Basically, we're no longer friends or on speaking terms.

 

[New Eden]

I was going to join the transgender crowd for a second there, but I've noticed over time it hasn't become so private anymore...

I have an extremely hard time opening up to people. My sense of trust has been indefinitely screwed so much that over half the time, I will not show my true self, because last time I did it instantly caused a massive trail of disaster that followed me for nearly a year. My mind has locked me into not opening up for a long time even if my emotions want to. As a result, I sometimes become hostile to people for seemingly no good reason, will snap at them, and possibly hate them. I then kick myself for this, even if some of my closest friends say that I did a justified thing. It's a sad thing too, because I like to have some close friendships over a lot of minor ones.

 

[destinedjagold]

I love dogs. I'm always the one who takes good care of our dogs.

But our last dog, my and my families most favorite, died.
...and I was the cause of it. I accidentally fed her a corn cob, thinking she could digest it.

I loved that dog so much (not in a furry kind of way).
A week after she died, I saw her in a dream. She was as playful as ever, and I petted her as I laughed. The background was getting whiter and brighter, and soon, she stopped, she looked at me, and licked my hand, and ... walked to the light...

I cried after I woke up.

...I lost my touch of taking care of dogs. My bro brought a puppy one time, but it died a week or two after.

I didn't beat her up, or starve her to death...I just...lost my touch of understanding a dog's needs...

edit: I haven't told them this though... I couldn't...

 

[Firox]

I feel like contributing, but not sure with what. I don't keep too many secrets.

One of the worst things I do, a lot even if I know it's bad - I spend my money carelessly instead of things I need such as diabetic medication. Since I know my grandma will loan me money if it's for medication or bills but not for my careless spending. Even when I have enough money (like medication or clinic bills) I spend that money on something I don't really need (junk food & diet coke).
I have never told my grandma that I spent my own cash on something useless and not on something important.... at times I do feel a bit guilty that I might be taking advantage, but at my PayDay I do giver her some money back.

and.... wasn't sure how to describe it, something that I know I won't reveal in real life, would make me feel embarrassed to admit.... its on spoiler below. Took me an hour to post this message. Not even my family knows.

Spoiler:

I have an obsession with tail of animals - real life or cartoons

When I watch a movies or tv shows involving animals, not on the first time but on my second or third time watching, I'll spend 2/3rd of the movie staring at it's tail.

When I watch my cats playing in the living room, my grandma's dog greeting me, or my ferret playing or stretching, I will once in a while stare at it's tail - in my mind "I wish I had one too"

Even in the Pokemon world, I'm sort of the same way - obsessed with it's tail - like with Pokemon Amie, at some point I'll try and pet it's tail, and with some (that have one) I get sad that it can't be petted.

Not sure how my obsession started, but I had it for more than 10 years by now

 

[Dakotah]

In my early teens I was caught shoplifiting a CD from a store. When the case came to court I was giving an absolute pardon because, and I quote: "Any punishment I could give you would pale in comparison to the punishment given by your father" said the judge. There were chuckles all around in the packed room. Needless to say, I turned a brilliant red from that comment.

 

[Hikamaru]

I might seem like a cute charm who always brightens peoples' days as far as PC and the online world is concerned, but there's actually a very dark side to me in the offline world. I have been bullied so much over many years it actually caused me to fear social environments (yeah, I literally can't get on in a large group) in general, I even have trouble surviving in public because when I get bullied, I tend to suffer anger episodes in which I have major difficulty overcoming given how badly my brother picked on me the last few months.

So, while I might be a great social person online, I'm not very social at all in real life due to the troubled past I suffered involving bullies. That's my dirty secret that I just had to reveal in this thread.

 

[acatfrommars]

I'm sure we've all got those "small" secrets we wouldn't go out of our way to share, but the world wouldn't end if it somehow got out. What are some private details about you you don't mind owning up to if put to it?

I'll start: I can't use the bathroom with my clothes on. I have no idea why the habit formed, but ever since I was a kid I literally shed everything off, no pants on ankles or anything. Yeah I know, I don't get it either :3c

(by extension I will never use urinals or public bathrooms. But I think that's gross for a different reason :P)

Fess up, guys!

That's crazy man. Hopefully you never have to take a urine test for a job or it may get strange. I'm not going to say anything too absurd, but I like ketchup with my rice. Also, I'm pee shy sometimes.

 

[Demon Wolf]

I have a weird obsession over video games I have 2 play n play then realized a second ago it was 3pm now its 9pm n also I have weird daydreams thats abnormal to me , I have to master everything I do n i consider myself a creep but everyone disagreed

 

[Raine]

Same with my plushie obsession. Honestly though, that is something serious that needs help...

Plushie obsession?! O: I have one too! Every year I seem to acquire more and more plushies and they're leaving me little to no space on my bed to sleep XD

Ah, secret? Biggest secret, that I don't really care about anymore, and couldn't care less who knows, is that I had a one night stand with someone in my first year of university. Yay. Biggest secret and regret ever (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ It even surprised me...I would never do that, ever, if not for that one beer I had that night...

 

[Talon]

Well, here goes nothing.....

My identity on here is almost a complete alias. I'm not who I say I am. I only use that, because I hate the real me, even though it's simply a better person. I wish I was more like that, for whatever reason. Whew..... that wasn't so hard.
I am bullied at school, but no where near as much as I say I am. I DO have social anxiety, and do hate people. I am scene.


Don't go away! I have another!


I have a slight pseudo-inferior god complex.
Word I made up myself.

Let me break it down for you.
Psuedo - Fake, not real.

So, Psuedo-inferior means, fake inferiority.

A God Complex is when someone thinks that are god.

So, mix them together, and you get:

fake inferiority God Complex.

What is this?

Well, you see, I fell inferior to a lot of people.
This makes me want to rule the world.
I have this idea that my inferiority is a sign that I should rule the world.
Its strange, I know, but true. I really have a psuedo-inferior god complex.


So, yeah.... that's me.

 

[pompayyy]

I have a weird obsession over video games I have 2 play n play then realized a second ago it was 3pm now its 9pm n also I have weird daydreams thats abnormal to me , I have to master everything I do n i consider myself a creep but everyone disagreed

6 hours? That's nothing.

Oh yeah, I'm also very un-focused and it just leads to more crying though. I'm thinking that I might have some bi-polar disorder (or maybe some violent mood swings).

 

[Astraea]

I hear music with earphone, even if i'm revising for exams.

 

[Somniac]

I'm pretty open about every aspect of my life, I don't think there's anything I wouldn't admit to.

I guess the 'big' thing is that I got abused quite badly for a few years [9-16 or so]. The worst of which being broken ribs and such on more than one occasion. My mother pretty much turned a blind eye and I was too scared and or stupid to do anything about the situation.

There's only two things that I'd find hard to admit and i'm genuinely ashamed of;

1]
I'm quite a shallow person when it comes to relationships. I don't think I could continue a relationship with someone I didn't find attractive, regardless of what else I felt for them. It works both ways though, I wouldn't be able to continue a relationship if it were purely physical.

2]
I take very few things seriously, and i'm highly desensitized to pretty much everything. Things most people would find 'awful' or 'horrific' don't phase me. I usually to try and hide that around people as they generally think i'm horrible.
If I see something on the news such as a murder, horrific accident, killing-spree or worse I know that it should make me feel bad but quite frankly it doesn't. I'm absolutely fine around blood, gore and even death doesn't impact me.

I have very few people I legitimately care for in my life, my partner, my adoptive-parents+brother. To a lesser extent a handful of my friends and my partners family. Aside from them, I could lose contact with anyone in my life and I wouldn't be bothered much by it.
I also don't hide it out of some deep down fear of non-acceptance, it's simply easier than explaining why I don't care, and dealing with peoples appalled reactions.

And now everyone thinks i'm an awful person.
Nice to meet you.