Alexander Nicholi
what do you know about computing?
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- Age 26
- Research Triangle / Jakarta
- Seen Feb 14, 2024
Sometimes I feel beyond disconnected with things... and near as I see it's part and partial for the course of forumming.
When you're on a forum, you miss out on a lot of the little things that make your day count. When you first walk onto the scene it's not like you have people coming up to you with handshakes, saying "Hi, how ya doin'?" or "Long time no see! Good to be back, innit?" - It's like the absence of those otherwise normal formalities makes you feel really... alone. There's nothing quite like being alone.
Maybe it's forums in general, maybe it's PC... I tried to think about why I came back. Sure, I know it was because I had to talk to Steve about my e-mail, but I was so frightened from logging in, I was so afraid to click that button and come back, even though I wasn't returning in the slightest sense. Besides me not understanding the reasoning for that, I also had a really aching want to come back in full. I wanted so bad to return to PC, and I don't even know why. It's really past how you'll see people joke about being a forum junkie or whatever. I just don't get it.
When I thought about it, it felt like I was missing something strangely, lol. I had the though that I'm missing out, and the raw thought felt as if I was missing out on a part of myself - even though a website isn't part of me it still felt that way. Maybe some power beyond me says I'm not done here. I don't know...
Another thing I felt about PC was my comfort with my ego, even though this place is less than accepting of it compared to other forums. Maybe it's the avatar freedoms, with large size limits and allowance for transparency... maybe it was all of the people I never really met but kind of knew in a strangely familiar but disconnected sense... I wish I knew.
Why am I here?
When you're on a forum, you miss out on a lot of the little things that make your day count. When you first walk onto the scene it's not like you have people coming up to you with handshakes, saying "Hi, how ya doin'?" or "Long time no see! Good to be back, innit?" - It's like the absence of those otherwise normal formalities makes you feel really... alone. There's nothing quite like being alone.
Maybe it's forums in general, maybe it's PC... I tried to think about why I came back. Sure, I know it was because I had to talk to Steve about my e-mail, but I was so frightened from logging in, I was so afraid to click that button and come back, even though I wasn't returning in the slightest sense. Besides me not understanding the reasoning for that, I also had a really aching want to come back in full. I wanted so bad to return to PC, and I don't even know why. It's really past how you'll see people joke about being a forum junkie or whatever. I just don't get it.
When I thought about it, it felt like I was missing something strangely, lol. I had the though that I'm missing out, and the raw thought felt as if I was missing out on a part of myself - even though a website isn't part of me it still felt that way. Maybe some power beyond me says I'm not done here. I don't know...
Another thing I felt about PC was my comfort with my ego, even though this place is less than accepting of it compared to other forums. Maybe it's the avatar freedoms, with large size limits and allowance for transparency... maybe it was all of the people I never really met but kind of knew in a strangely familiar but disconnected sense... I wish I knew.
Why am I here?