It is indeed. Especially for someone like me who has trouble planning stuff, it is a massive undertaking. Although I don't write every day or every week, still, the entirety of chapter 1 took me over a year to write. The fact that I still have at least 5 - 10 of those chapters to go is rather intimidating. I wouldn't say discouraging, but I'm not quite sure how I won't run out of content before the third chapter. I'm afraid of pacing it too quickly.
Indeed, do note that it will take a long time through this method. It's going to take several years longer than just taking a course, but it'll be much more enjoyable. :)
Oh, I hear you in that regard. I think when I started thinking about what I was told, why people do what they do, say what they say and act how they act, it caused my first depression as well. However, despite that, I still consider my ability to question life a gift, as a proof of my intelligence. That I can think beyond what I can see.