Vallander

Not much, just the same old boring days. X3

I see what you mean. Yes, that's how I think. It just doesn't work to worry about tomorrow, because tomorrow will do whatever it wants to. So you just live with what you have, and try to be happy as long as you can. ^^

Well, speaking in front of people, is different than speaking to them. Just like speaking to one other person is different than speaking to five. I can make a speach, if I'm prepared and feeling confident about what I will say. (My favorite thing in fromt of a class, though, had to be debates... :D)

I'm not a leader, because I'm bad at making decisions. And you hit spot on; I have serious trust issues. Not only do I have issues trusting others, but also myself. I have issues working in groups because I feel either they will fail me, or I will fail them. I live in the moment, but when I do something, I give 110% to get it right.

Of course, that can get exhausting, and I have a tendency to work in fits and starts because of that. I'll work very hard, and then ignore what I was doing for a while, and do something else. The problem with that, is that sometimes when I come back, I've emotionally changed enough, or gotten so much better at whatever it was, that the thing I was making seems awful or poorly done, and I can't finish it at all.

Oh, gosh, here we go. This is my group paranoia in MMOs talking, so, erm... What I think would happen if I joined your group:

I wouldn't be able to keep up, or I'd miss a vital cast, or I'd pretty much just be carry-on luggage.

Anyways, I play a different MMO, and I only play free games online anyway. What I play is Perfect World International (which I like because you can fly ^w^) and I'm only level 20 (partially due to my extreme teamwork issues).

As for who I can trust, I might have you beat. I only have two. And one of them I'm only half sure of. The other... is far away from me right now.

It seems like you and I think a lot alike.

You know, if reality is based on belief (which I think is what we're both getting at), then it's hard to say if things which are usually believed made up, aren't actually real somewhere, because someone, or someones, might believe in them. It's also hard to define the term "insane". That word, "insane", it seems to me is exactly like the word "abnormal". There is no normal, and there is no sane. It's all just averages: the average way of being, and the average way of thinking. It's true that some extreme ways of thinking can be harmful, but that's true whether the person thinking that way is considered insane or not.

I'm rather flattered that you felt the need to quote me. I'm just stating what I've come to believe after the things I've been through and what I've learned. I actually believe in some things that others might term "insane" myself, though I keep them to myself, because it hurts no-one that I believe that way. I'm the type of person who will believe in what I can't see. I wasn't always. But that was because I got hurt.

It was a stupid little incident, when I found out that instead of seeing Santa Claus every year, it really was just my dad, just like the other kids said, even though I argued my cause so well. But it made me believe for a while that there was nothing else out there but God, and sometimes I half-doubted that.

But I always wanted to believe, and I sometimes got myself into some interesting situations because of it. Finally, I was convinced once again that there's more out there than what we can see - but this time, I'm older, I know more, and I know that just because those things might be out there, doesn't mean they're all good, or that life can be a fairytale again like I thought it was when I was a girl.

You got burned, and it still didn't teach you to be careful? That's the mentality I don't get. XD
Of course, I'm paranoid about getting hurt, too. I guess I'm just paranoid about a lot of things.

Not too much.

Yeah, i'm pretty sure there is. xD

True stuff. xP

Well, I found in the end so yeah. xD

Okay, i'll see what I can find, if I don't go to sleep that is. xD Its 6:27am here. lolz

So perfectionist, haha. Well that's the Vallander I know.

Because 8 it's for PC also. The problem with the PC versions, it's to find the patches

I suppose you're going to play 8 and 9, at some point.

9 it's only avaible for emulator.

So why downloading VII and VIII for PC?

Well, if you give up with the PC versions, tell me 8D

It's more easier to play it on emulator.

I know how to configure that one also.

Now it's good to have a PSP, the library it's getting quite interesting.

About the PM, I'll send you the answer tomorrow.

No, of WoW.

LOL, That must really suck. xD Yeah, it's annoying when a game doesn't work, I tried looking for a game called Future Cop, I used to have but couln't get it anymore, so I tried to get it for Computer and it took me ages to get a working one, I was like, x.x;;;

lol Nope, I play is on PS, got the game a few years ago. =P
But, I could look for it a bit. Is it just for the Computer you want it? Or is it on emulator you want it?

o.O Another like... who? What? Huh? What's that supposed to mean? XD

Well, I'm a shy type of person who generally doesn't like fighting. But each person has their role in society, so it's good that we're all different. I actually admire what you took as an MMO job. Kind of like the MMO police, in a sence. A sad job, but I see it as kind of noble.

I don't really play MMOs very much. I've never been good at speaking up or working in groups, and when many people are speaking, I'm the one near the back who says nothing at all, just listens. But you need teamwork a lot in MMOs, especially if you have the personality and preference to be a healer, like me. But I don't trust the group to keep me safe, even if I managed to get in one. And I'm sure, with my luck and my reflexes, I'd manage to miss an important heal and be rounded on by the whole group. Not to mention I hate losing.

I rather play one-player games where I only have to rely on myself, and no-one else is relying on me. On Oblivion, I also hate missions where you have to fight with a partner or two, because it's hard to keep them alive, and still fight.

Yeah. I see each of these things as their own "world"; whether or not a world like it exists in reality (and one could argue, as to what is real and what "reality" is...) that each world is - if it is really only imaginary - still based on the reality we know, and the further you let yourself understand it, if you had an open mind, you would see a reality somewhat like our own. And yes, to the characters, it really is a real world. Authors especially need to remember that, but RPG creators should too. That's why I don't like it when games remind you that they are games. I like to let myself be absorbed into the story, and you can't do that when there's too much reminding you that you aren't there, and this isn't "real".

In Oblivion, I choose marketing because it's more or less peaceful. The money is very useful at first, and when it isn't, it's just because you've made so much that you've bought all the expensive stuff already. But when I play MMOs, I'm too shy to sell to player characters, so I always sell to NPCs even though I get less money that way.

As long as you don't go overboard with death and killing, yes, some can and maybe even should be in a good story. If nothing else, just because it does happen. And it causes a lot of drama for the story. But as a person who writes bits of stories as a hobby, I have to admit that once I've put in hours of characterization, I wouldn't really be able to kill the character 99-100% of the time. So maybe I'm just to nice to write stories, I don't know.

The balance, yes. Everything is a balance, and so few people take the time to actually think about their life and the things that happen and whatever else... XD

Basically, if you like who you are, then you can't (reasonably) complain about the things that happen to you, no matter how bad they are. Yet, as a sensitive person, I still feel bad when bad things happen to people (especially those I love), which I guess is one of those unsolvable paradoxes. Because, after all, if you like who they are, you can't reasonably want to change their past; but if you love them, you want to keep them from being hurt.

So many people these days, just live like animals. How can they live that way? I don't understand...

Anyway, I think I may have a phobia to fire. It's that bad. I can't light a lighter; I don't know about matches, but I wouldn't want to try. I don't even like those little flames to be within a foot of me. When I used to light one of the burners on our gas stove, I had to stand back because the thing that ignited it didn't always work right away, so I was afraid that more of the gas would catch fire at first and I'd get burned. Now I can't light it at all because I'd have to do it with a match or something - the thing that ignites it finally just gave out. I'm okay with candles - though I don't think I could light one - as long as the flame is about six inches or more away from me. I'm more scared of flames that someone is holding, or flames that are just being lit, than I am of flames that are contentedly just burning on something, not going anywhere.

I haven't been diagnosed or anything, but I definitely think I'm pyrophobic. ^_~

Yep. They probably let us out by Mid-June.

No not yet....I'll have to wait 'till october! DX

Not just high. It seems everyone is very anti-social and STUPID there. It's also full of crimes, and not much is done against it. Makes me wonder why I'm still living there...

Not much happened, just figured we'd make better friends.

kk I'll put it up ^.^

Eehhhh, that must suck. =/
It sounds like a good game, but I never tried it, maybe there are some Youtube videos. =|

hey vallander what have you been up to these day :D

Yep.

lolz 0.2? D: I thought I had bad. =/ I never played WoW, is it good?

They're great! :D

Oh I see, well I don't know. =/

2:30pm. o.o Well, here it is now 00:16
Well, it is a long game, so you should expect 2gb+. =/
I downloaded a game one time and it was 6gb+, seriously. lol

Heh, as long as you stay away from Amsterdam (The Netherlands). Horrible city, horrible city...