Dear everyone who doubts me pretty much!
I know how you guys think. I know you guys think that yeah working a shitty job forever is great but I can't do that. That's the life for other people, not for me. I mean I'm not even that good at that. Yeah I give great customer service but I'm not good at much else lol. Technical things confuse me, other things overwhelm me, and maths just destroys me. I know people will likely think "sooo why are you going with photography and not journalism". But that was what I THOUGHT years ago. Yes, it's part of my personality type - of course that sort of stuff interests me, but doesn't mean it's for me. There's no way I could be a journalist, that's not me, and that's not the me I want to be.
At first it was embarrassing telling people that I'm not going to become a journalist and instead working retail but that's because I didn't know photography was a possibility. And now hearing that you don't believe that I can charge as much as I will be... when you don't even KNOW what a good photo is in the first place. I show you my stuff and you're like "ohhh okay..." no. It's good. I know it's good. It's not perfect, but I'll get there. Like just bloody believe that I've got this - that despite anyone's concerns I know what I'm doing. And hey if I get desperate I have an AWESOME resume so if I really tried... getting a job in a pinch isn't that hard, it's just SUCH a pain.
I know I've got people on my side, and people who believe in me. But... I don't need this because I barely believe in myself half the time lmao I mean saying you'll hand out my cards to everyone and say "she'll photograph anything and she's really cheap" that just undervalues my work. Anyone can point a camera at someone and take a photo - if they have great gear and nothing else they can get nice photos. Anyone can do that for a living if they want. But I want more - I want my photos to have the edge and be incredible.
I know I can do this... eventually. I'm gonna show y'all that I got this, that I can be as good as I desire. And I'm going to have a wonderful, successful life... because there's absolutely nothing else I'd want to do. Well. That's a lie. Honestly I'd find almost any job fun because I make things fun and find things fun but still.
Believe in me and I know I can get the work.