Nah, I know from my life and everything I've had in my life that I'm meant to be here for a reason, and ruining that would be dumb. I'm also amazingly positive to the extent where I can overcome bad thoughts pretty easily in like an hour, so nothing bad ever lasts. HOWEVER, sometimes my mindset is out of place and I'm aware of it but that isn't sad that's just like losing identity or w/e but that's solveable. ANYWAYS that's irrrelevant. I'm too positive to ever be suicidal, but there's been times where my mind has thought for me "omg I wish I was dead" but then a second later I correct it to "in another dimension where things were perfect and look like ___" because I guess the default human response is the former, but whenever things get hard I just wanna escape to another dimension for a short time. But yea, I'd never do that or try that~