Most Private Thing You'll Admit

[Kyrul]

I have a really weird fear of eyes.
I have hyperventilated before just from seeing someone touch their own eye. I'll puke if I see a image of an eye out of it's socket.

I've tried to get over this fear, I have even personally cut open a goat's eye for dissection purposes in high school. Still can't get over it, lol.

 

[Dustmop]

After thinking long and hard about this, I've decided..

The most private thing I will admit is.... I don't know how to blow my nose with two hands.
I've always only used one hand. How the hell do you do it with two hands? That just seems like a waste of time and energy when your other hand doesn't need to stop doing whatever it was doing before your snot crisis happened.

You're welcome.


Oh, and I have PTSD, OCD, and social anxiety. Super serious social anxiety because PTSD.
Boyfriend will suggest we go out for dinner, and I'll be like, "Hell naw. We're going through a drive-thru, you'll talk to the voice in the box, and then we take it home."
Maybe one day we can go out to a nice steakhouse in between my relapses of PTSD symptoms.

 

[Ghost Lunis]

My biggest secrets shouldn't be said on a site where kids can see, just remember though.. watch out for your old perverted grandpa....
Also, another secret is that I have put laxatives in my wife's drink once. I have to take a laxative every night and she set me off real good one night. So I mixed her one too. XP

 

[Kawaii Shoujo Duskull]

I sneese out of my mouth. Weird since it seems to me that everybody else sneeses out their nose. Why do you do that? Why am I the only one sneesing out of my mouth where its less likely to cause a snot storm? Just what?


I'm a huge fan of cute people/things. I don't care what others say--I /love/ cuteness. lol


That's about it for now.

 

[TrainerJacob]

Here are a couple of secrets about me.
1. I have Asperger's Syndrome (ASD, whatever) I'm usually open about this IRL as I think that will help people to understand me a little better than before.
2. I am straight, but I'm NOT interested in girls. (This one girl was friendly with me and I thought that it was something more, but then when I found out that she had a boyfriend....I was devastated! So, I just gave up on girls and I plan on staying single for the rest of my life)
I do have another one, but I shouldn't say it on this forum. So, that's basically it.

 

[Entermaid]

By day I am a student and by night I am a recording artist. My best friend found out about me after attending the concert of my alter ego. Then, another close friend of mine developed an obsession with my alter ego, so I had to let him know as well. So, I had to ensure that my secret would remain safe; thus, they both also received aliases as well. My life has been a struggle, but I feel like I need to get this information off my shoulders. I can't live a lie anymore. My life is just so hard. None of you could understand the hardships I have to face.

 

[Blastin'Tyruntz]

By day I am a student and by night I am a recording artist. My best friend found out about me after attending the concert of my alter ego. Then, another close friend of mine developed an obsession with my alter ego, so I had to let him know as well. So, I had to ensure that my secret would remain safe; thus, they both also received aliases as well. My life has been a struggle, but I feel like I need to get this information off my shoulders. I can't live a lie anymore. My life is just so hard. None of you could understand the hardships I have to face.

You're basically Hannah Montana. Cool!

 

[MurkMire]

I guess this would be a good place to just let it out... =/

I think being the villain, the bad guy, the criminal is just so... well, it has a certain magnetism to me. I gravitate towards baddies and such. And sometimes, I think about being part of a criminal organization, or something along those lines. I dunno. It's something I never really realized as a child, but it grew even more and more as I aged. There was a stint of where being the goody-two-shoes made me feel good, but... it didn't really feel rewarding to be nice to people all the time. Of course, being a misanthrope will do that.

I'unno. I definitely don't act on it, of course. It's just one of those things that crosses my mind from time to time.

 

[happynewyear001]

I self-harm and have intentionally stabbed myself.

 

[mangamusicfan]

I have a Fetish On woman feet, And woman Smoking, I don't usaly Tell People this Because You get most of the time that Strange Face's

 

[Danny0317]

Ehh ♥♥♥♥ it here it goes
I used to eat my boogers until I was eight.
I really wanna try weed.
I am (or at least think I am) bisexual
No idea why I'm admitting these here, almost none of my irl friends know these things.

There's one much more serious one that I'd rather not admit, because that one is way too personal.

 

[moon]

I guess... A future dream of mine is to become an author of books for children and young adults. A perfect friday evening for me is sitting with candles lit, a beer and some snacks and just write on my computer. This is very private, as most people I know seem to think that you're boring if you want to spend a friday evening alone, and also I don't dare to show my writing or ideas to other people than my family. And online. Thank you, internet.

 

[manadhon]

There's a chunk of my life, spanning all of elementary school, that I can barely remember. It was traumatizing for me; my little brother had recently been born, my stepfather worked late at night, was abusive, and fed me like a pig. To top it all off, my mom was never around when I needed her, and I was bullied profusely. Being hit by a car in the 5th grade didn't help either.

Of the few things I remember, some of my fondest memories of that time were playing Pokémon and being with my friends, many of whom I don't speak with anymore, but will always cherish our time. This also accounts for my extreme disliking of anything beyond generation 3, as Pokémon was one of the few things that kept me sane. My life's leveled out dramatically since then, but that gap left a lasting impression.

 

[Monophobia]

Ooh I love these kinds of threads! Very interesting to read, and nice to get a load off your chest.

1.) I'm clinically depressed and take medication for it. I've self harmed since I was 11 and have tried to kill myself multiple times.

2.) I have almost no real feeling toward anything. To me, all life is expendable and the "point" of life is non-existent.

3.) I haven't had a good dream since I was about three.

4.) When I was maybe four or five, I had sexual contact with my older sister and my older male cousin. It was forced on me and this is the first time I've ever admitted it to anyone. I have bad dreams about it and it's scarred me pretty badly. I can still remember every bit of what happened.

5.) I'm addicted to gay furry porn. Not really as much for the sexual aspect of it, I just think the artwork is lovely.

6.) I write M-rated fanfictions a lot, but I'd never show them to anybody.

7.) I stand opposite of the shower head in the shower because I'm afraid of psycho killers in my bathroom.

8.) When I was in first grade, I had a solid accident on myself and spent an hour in the bathroom cleaning it off of me. Still went through the school day like nothing happened.

9.) I have insomnia and stay up for three days consecutively sometimes.

10.) I eat one meal every two or three days because my boyfriend has made hints that he thinks I'm fat.

There you go. Now you know all of my dirty little secrets. Happy reading.

 

[Raine]

1.) I'm clinically depressed and take medication for it. I've self harmed since I was 11 and have tried to kill myself multiple times.
2.) I have almost no real feeling toward anything. To me, all life is expendable and the "point" of life is non-existent.
6.) I write M-rated fanfictions a lot, but I'd never show them to anybody.
10.) I eat one meal every two or three days because my boyfriend has made hints that he thinks I'm fat.

After reading through your post, I feel relatable to the points quoted above. I've never been properly diagnosed for depression, but there have been incidents where I have suicidal thoughts. There are times when I feel this abnormal sense of hopelessness and that life just isn't worth living, but I somehow manage to pull through so I wouldn't say I'm the most mentally stable person \: Sometimes I feel like the point of my life is to benefit others because I love helping people, rather than just living my own. Hehe, M-rated fanfiction. On that note, I do read quite an abundance of smutty fanfiction and manga (; And lastly, I've had my own experience with anorexia in the past. I exercised excessively and ate next to nothing to the point where I became severely underweight at about 85 lbs., which obviously caused my parents to become extremely concerned. For some reason, even without much outside help, I've managed to pull through these hardships on my own.

 

[£]

2.) I have almost no real feeling toward anything. To me, all life is expendable and the "point" of life is non-existent.
7.) I stand opposite of the shower head in the shower because I'm afraid of psycho killers in my bathroom.

Hang on how does this work then? Clarify, Marky. Clarify.

 

[Monophobia]

Hang on how does this work then? Clarify, Marky. Clarify.

Well, I mean, everyone is afraid of something, right? My fear just happens to be psycho killers in my bathroom.

Also, thanks Vanille and Tao for the kind words.

 

[Toutebelle]

Here's some:
1. I find guys in speedos to be hot - provided that they're attractive young guys. Look at my dA. (I've drawn Calem wearing a speedo.)
2. I've plucked nose hairs with a tweezers before. It makes my eyes tear up.
3. I was 13 when I first saw furry porn.
4. I masturbate on a regular basis.
5. Even though normally I prefer girls, I sometimes find guys to be really cute - especially blond guys.

 

[Sir Codin]

4.) When I was maybe four or five, I had sexual contact with my older sister and my older male cousin. It was forced on me and this is the first time I've ever admitted it to anyone. I have bad dreams about it and it's scarred me pretty badly. I can still remember every bit of what happened.

Hey, I just want to let you know I feel for you man. When I was 11 years old, some middle school guy touched me. Nothing too serious ever happened, I felt uncomfortable with it and finally outright told him to stop and he did, but it still haunts me to this day.

I didn't realize what he was really after until years later. This, of course, fuels my opinion that children cannot give consent. I'm firsthand proof of it.

I never admitted this to anyone until just last year to my parents.

1.) I'm clinically depressed and take medication for it. I've self harmed since I was 11 and have tried to kill myself multiple times.

I also feel for this. I'm taking medication for depression as well. The reason I have depression is something I don't feel comfortable admitting on this board yet, but suffice to say it was eating away at me to the point where I just wanted to die.

 

[Monophobia]

Hey, I just want to let you know I feel for you man. When I was 11 years old, some middle school guy touched me. Nothing too serious ever happened, I felt uncomfortable with it and finally outright told him to stop and he did, but it still haunts me to this day.

I also feel for this. I'm taking medication for depression as well. The reason I have depression is something I don't feel comfortable admitting on this board yet, but suffice to say it was eating away at me to the point where I just wanted to die.

I think the sexual abuse from when I was a child is part of the reason I'm so afraid now to have relations with anyone in that way. I just shut down at the slightest touches, laying there in fetal position. I despise my younger self for not telling anyone, and now I'm too unstable to admit it to myself sometimes.

Also, I think the meds eat away at you more than the depression itself. I feel like less of a person more and more every day because the pills give me emotions I didn't create on my own. It's all too...fake to me.