Zero walked steadily away, trying to forget to looks she'd seen on everyone's faces just before she turned away. She stopped just long enough to grab her clothes before running.... running.... running as fast as she could to where she wasn't really sure. As she ran, she tried to sort through her confused feeling, but it was all a tangled mess. Anger..... Fear.... Sadness.... Anxiety.... Confusion......
Soon she came upon a lush green field, and she would've kept on going if she didn't see the moon. It was probably because of the Umbreon part of her, but she loved gazing at the moon, and it always seemed to make her feel calmer and more at peace. She doubted that it would work this this, though, but decided to sit there for a while and rest.
"Zero! someone yelled, and she turned her head to see Marcus running toward her, still in Raichu form. He was smiling, but when she turned back away and ignored him, his smile faded and his ears drooped. Her rings glowed brightly as she felt her defenses go up. Just go back.... Don't waste your time with me.... I'm not going back....
"Well... um... Zero, I came to say... well... um... that I... I mean.. .um... What I mean to say is that... uh..." Marcus stuttered, getting choked up on his own words. Under the fur on his cheeks, you could see a red tint of embarrassment. "I don't do this often, if you can't tell." Marcus said, regaining his composure, "But... I'm sorry." He sighed, looking away from Zero and slouching a bit. " I let my attitude and this... form... get the best of me. I just feel... different in this form, you know? It makes me act different, it makes me feel different... it just doesn't feel like the real me. Adrenaline, instincts, power, I just don't know what the hell it is anymore!" Marcus looked at the Umbreon and stood straight up. "But that's no excuse for the way I acted, and whatever I said to offend you, I'm sorry. " He paused, letting out another deep sigh, "You're the only other that knows how I feel. Please come back, they need you... and you need us."
"You don't know me.....," Zero said, darkly. "Don't fool yourself.... We just me a little while ago on that train. We're strangers. I don't know you, and you don't know me. Just knowing a little of each other's history doesn't change a thing...."
As Marcus stared at the ground, his ears wilting again, she sighed a little and began again a little more gently, "Believe me, Marcus.... Everything will go a lot smoother without me dragging everyone down. For one thing, I don't make friends, join teams, or anything like that. To be blunt about it, I just don't trust anyone, Marcus, and that's not something that's going to change just because some obnoxious guy name Duke says that we need to save the world or something....." That was only one part of what was keeping her back but still important to her. "If it makes you feel any better, I wasn't mad at you."
Jerking his head back up at her answer, Marcus studied for for a few moments before asking, "But what about all the other Morphs and Specialists? Aren't you worried about what's going to happen to them?"
"Well, sure.... I guess, but.....," she trailed off unable to put her feelings to words. Should she tell him about her amnesia?..... No, that probably wouldn't help him understand her much better, and besides, she couldn't ever be sure of how he would react. She didn't need anyone's pity, especially not from another Morph, and she wouldn't accept his in any case. If he ever said he was sorry for her.... condition- if he ever found out, that is-she'd probably smack him all across the forest. Well, maybe she could try to explain some of her feeling without actually talking about the source....
"Arghh.... I suck at these conversations....," Zero groaned, standing up. "Come on. Walk with me for a minute." She normally didn't talk about her feelings all that much, but.... Marcus seemed different than the others to her, and she sensed that he wouldn't give up on her easily. She led him to a small pond on the far side of the field, neither speaker nor looking at him. When they reached it, she walked to the edge and gazed at her image in the still, clear water before speaking.
"When you look at your reflection,.....do you ever get the feeling sometimes that you're looking at a total stranger?.... even just a little bit?" she asked slowly, looking over her shoulder at him. I feel that way all the time,.....but I don't think I need to tell him that. When he nodded, she added, shaking her head,"This doesn't have to do with being a Morph.... I mean that.... Oh, forget it..... I don't really want to talk about it anyway...."
Turning face away from him, she wouldn't look at him again as she added, coldly,"Just go.... The others are waiting for you...."
"B-but....!"
"Just go...." she said again, darker and more determined. There was probably nothing that he could say that would change her mind.