I.. don't know.
Lately, as in over the past few months, stuff has come up that has really had me questioning my sexuality again. And the fact that I'm in a committed, heterosexual relationship isn't making things any easier. I mean, since I'm not actively searching for a romantic or sexual partner, shouldn't that mean that I'm just straight while with him? Is it possible to be a lesbian attracted to one, single man? Because sometimes that's how I feel. It's not just indifference, but repulsion I feel towards men at times; with the exception of this one particular person. And.. I don't know. All of this is just complicated and I seriously don't even have the time on my hands to figure it out. I've been going with "I'm bi" or maybe even pan for a long time, but my attraction ratio is more like 90f/10m as opposed to 50/50 and it just kind of has me wondering what exactly I call myself.
Obviously the label means nothing, I don't need a name on my sexuality to feel okay with it; but I feel like it's a step in the right direction to understanding my feelings better and finding a place where I can draw support from.
It probably feels more complicated than it really is, hmm.