And now I know I am screwed

I know it's probably much easier to just say "I can't do it" and give up, but there are solutions. I've personally moved 15 times, 3 times across the country, and not had internet at times as well.

1. Libraries. Libraries have free internet. You of course won't be able to stay there forever posting on PC, but you'll be able to check a Facebook, apply for colleges, check email, apply to places that have online applications.
2. Bussing. To be honest, right now I live 20 minutes from one of the worst cities in the country. I'm not just saying that either, it's called Camden, NJ for reference and it's been the worst city in the country more than once. My college, while very nice, is in a bad town as well. But the only place I would feel uncomfortable in during broad daylight would be the middle of Camden. If I was taking a bus into there, getting off and walking a block, I would be fine and you should be too. Find out bus schedules. Take the bus to places you want a job, even if it takes an hour when driving takes 20 minutes. Yes, it sucks. If you don't have a choice, take it.
3. As far as jobs, tbh most places don't have online applications anyway unless they're a chain. And if this place you're moving is really in BFE like you say, it's a lot more likely to have little stores and not chains where you apply online. For the most part from my job search I've noticed many stores you have to go in to get the application. And think of it this way - if you can't even get there to get the application, how in the world are you going to get there every day for work? Having to go there for the app is good practice imo, it lets you know if getting there is actually viable, or if you won't be able to do that when you need to.

I'm gonna conclude this with saying that to be honest, I check blogs all the time so I remember reading about your situation and tbh...do you really think adding internet costs onto the bills you have to pay helps? Trust me, I've been that poor. I live with my mom, who just got her first job in years, at McDonald's. More than once we've lived with friends because otherwise we would be literally homeless. When you don't have money, sometimes you have to do without and figure it out. :x You should let your mom cut down on costs because obviously she needs to, and try to think of it as "I can work around this, it'll be hard but I can do it", instead of "I can't do it, I give up".

You can do it, I have faith in you :)

Thanks. And really, the only reason we're probably moving to Nampa is because the house in question costs like... half as much as this one. So moving there in itself cuts costs. Seriously we were trying to work around it. I wouldn't mind losing internet if I could just stay in Boise, ya know? I know my way around here, and I've been to Nampa a few times when my sister lived there. The entire way there all I saw was chains and whatnot. And honestly, even though I had contact with people, I did not like it there. My sister was doing everything she could to get out of there. And my sister is a take what you can get person as she has two kids 10 months apart. And she couldn't take it. I am easily the weakest person in my family emotionally. So I probably would hate it without a distraction I can keep up. Plus my parents are super paranoid... So I am kind of afraid of what Nampa will do to them on terms of limiting me. I know I'm 19, but the fact of the matter is I have no other options. Plus I've never been comfortable on busses. Oh god. And I never really used them here because the nearest bus stop is AN HOURS WALK AWAY. That... just wasn't worth it. In Nampa it sounds like the same situation, but I am not sure.

And you are stronger than me, since you've been through a hell of a lot more. You must think my problems are just pointless whining. I am a weak person, terribly so. I am also bass-ackwards because I can't take a compliment to save my life. I'm just... how do I put it... pathetic. I honestly hate myself because when people have faith in me, my low self esteem kind of kills any desire I had to do it, and I just let everyone down.

And besides, the air here is so negative, I'm just sponging it up.... So I'm super pessimistic...

Some of the chains have computers in the store were you can file an application there. So if your internet is limited then go there and see if they offer them in store. On top of libraries, most colleges also have free internet considering you are already paying for tuition. And I wouldn't minimize your problems, fear is a legitimate problem. I know I wouldn't want to live in an area known for gangs, honestly who would. And don't be so sad about not being around your old friends, just make new friends through college and work, that's what I did since I got out of High School(heck I don't even know what happened to my High School friends). If you see everything on a pessimistic side then your thoughts will be dominated by pessimism, there has got to be something you can take out of you life that is positive. I mean your not starving are you? Your in good to moderate health are you not? That is more then you can say about half the people in the world.