My cousin's demons.....

My cousin committed suicide last year as he fell on extremely tough times in his life.. He was like a brother to me. We shared usernames until we were 15 because we were so close then he started to have a rough time tackling life. He did a ton to try and be noticed and loved by someone. He felt that even bad attention was good attention. He just wanted people to notice him and someone to care about him. When I found out he committed suicide I lost the will to do much of anything in my life. He dreamed of being an actor and he just wanted to be heard. I was told about an incident where he was bullied and he felt oppressed ( I can't say the rest because it involves him being a banned member or PC which is against the rules I think. :). After his passing I have felt kinda out of it, but I use his strength to propel me throughout life. He never wanted me to give up! And I can't give up because of him.

I have decided to stop posting depressing blogs for I'm afraid that I might get into trouble by admins. I understand their reasoning to make PC a family friendly place and my depressing stories might hurt that.