Im actually happy strangely enough i moved to a new home a few months back and was miserable but now i have a nice home finally in a stable way good people around me and i can live a quite life for a while and i go out now more then i ever did before. So im really good i would like a raise but ill just take what i got. I dont mind when you reply as even if i only got one message of you here or there then that would make me happy enough. we all go in different directions in this world and have different forms of life so even a slight bit of interaction with another even if there so far away just for them to tell me there alright then i dont think that could be a bad thing. Speak soon