Murder

I am a schizophrenic, my name is Jaymie Cross, I do have the occasional delusion or the hear the ring of a voice. I, however, consider it to be a sixth sense, as my delusions are of the dead, and what I hear are sorrowful mourns and sobs. So, I guess I am medium. I strongly believe and put my faith in the paranormal. At times, I am an outcast, the crow in the flock of doves, the ugly duckling in the whiteness of swans. I have sent my self on an exile of sorts while I try to find who I am, why I have been placed in this life, and how to move on. Often times I strive to be better than my best, but that is what leads to my downfall. I don't give a **** what you think about me, and what I do. My passion lies in literature, stories, poems, and songs. Although, my skill lacks in the areas. I mean, my vocabulary is just horrible, my grammar barely exceeds that of my education level- I know many people who are better than me.

Socializing is not forte, in fact, I am very shy and timid. I'd much rather eat nails than go and meet people. In the past, it was way worse, but as I grow older it seems to fade away, where as, my schizophrenia seems only to grow stronger every day. I have a horribly good memory. I have experienced a few traumatizing events, that I just want to forget about. I do believe that I memorize these for a reason, as not forgetting spell has worked. I do not wish to share these events with the community as they are secrets of mine, maybe, if we were too become friends, I'd tell, but most likely not. I have but a single friend, who I trust and love with all my heart. I'd be there for her any day. Aside from her to confide in, I have a diary. I am religious, a Wiccan. I am very intrigued by movies such as the "Blair Witch Project." I possess my own Book of Shadows, that I entered by hand. It however, is illegible to anyone but me.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I do not care what you think of my looks, or anything, as stated before.
If you think you could enjoy an outcast like me, then drop a pm and get to know me.

There is more to me, but I have decided not to allow the public to know all.

I absolutely love to write. Yeah, I am not the best, but I write for fun, not to win prizes.