Squirtlenator

that's most certainly true! i've got a lot to be proud of and a lot of live for so I know that going back to drugs will never be an option for me -- especially when I have such a great support system with friends, family, and PC. Thanks for the pep talk. <33

haha, blank canvas, I see what you did there :p

addiction is.. a more complex beast than "normal" mistakes; like getting a speeding ticket or accidentally telling a secret you were supposed to keep. And even though I made a fresh start for myself years ago now, I will forever exist on this plane where I know I could just get high and make my problems go away. It's changed the chemistry of my brain permanently and in no uncertain terms. I dunno, I'm probably not telling you anything you don't already know.. it's just still a struggle and the moment I let my guard down is the moment that "well, maybe one drink would be okay" or "I haven't had a cigarette in 11 years! i'll just get one pack" is the moment I've already begun the cycle all over again. The only rush I get that's nearly as close is being able to help others and spread positivity.

oof i made this a downer didn't I? ahhh sorry ;w;

Truthfully, my nature is to be humble and wave off your compliments if I'm being honest.. but thank you. It makes me so glad that I could make anyone's day just a little bit better. Not to get all wrapped up in psychology.. but I think it's kinda tough for me to accept positive things about myself when in my head I still feel so close to that young drug addict who brought nothing but negativity to the world rather than enriched it, you know? But doing small favors for people (especially when it involves my art!) and just being pleasant makes my heart full again and that's worth its weight in gold to me. Thank you for your kind words.. it really does mean a lot to me.

omg omg omg your gonna make me emotional stooooopppp ;W;

i'm so glad i could make a positive impact on you though, you don't know how happy that makes me :)

not a problem! i figured you'd get a kick out of it n_n; thanks for being such an awesome friend since joining the forum <3

haha true that!

hey, I made you something. add this:
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to the first main block of your flair

haha, well, right up until the point that it takes me like x4 times longer to finish it! but hey, it's not my fault you're a hyper poster!

i suppose i'll just up my game, hehe

eeeee yay!!! thank you so much! you really know how to pull on my fairy heart strings lmao

I vote we name Primarina "Serenade" due to the musical influences the Pokemon has and a nod to Ocarina of Time's Serenade of Water! Thoughts?

Thank you! ^o^

Sadly each extra installed font increases page load time, so we can't add any more than what we have for now. We may consider it in the future but not right now :< Thank you for the suggestion though!!

but I'm good, hope you too :D

huh, i did not expect that to be the solution.. go figure! glad you got it working and I'm glad you like it! n_n;

Hey Squirtlenator~
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How are you doing today? All good I hope and you're also having nice weather again like I am as well.
My apologies for acting off last night after a bit, I wasn't feeling well mental wise. I do really appreciate your advice a lot and you are right about all of it as well. I just have doubts that still plauges my mind from time to time causing me to think I won't ever find a true friendship with someone nor experience what love is with someone. Again I'm NOT desperate for friendship nor love.

Basically becuase I heard that sort of speech countless times from people online and in person and it always ended badly for me. However I will do my best to think positive and optimistic about people and like I said what ever happens, happens. Though just know Squirtlenator I really appreciate your kindness, caring advice you give me all the time and words of encouragement as well. You're truly a wonderful guy, always stay the same since we need more people like you out there in this world we live in today.

I hope we can still chat though more in private messages if you like to get to know me more. If however you prefer not too please no worries I understand and respect it. You're actually the first person I'm trying to engage with one on one with to getting ting to know more, or at least like too. I said it in the " Mental Health Club " my next step was that to be brave and reach out more personally.

Well that's all I wanted to say I hope you have a wonderful rest of the day/afternoon/night. Please take care as always~

Leaf~
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I appreciate the advice but heard that so many times it's now numb to me sadly to be real honest with you, sorry. It is true yes you never know but 32 now I think that ship has sailed. And no I'm not desperate for love or friendship if it happens it happens. Sorry also to sound depressive it's just getting hurt online and in person by countless people all my life took it's tole on my heart and trust in people. So it's what ever happens if I meet a person talk more one on one with them and see what happens if a person wants to get to know me. All I can say is I've been hurt in ways no one should go through not to even my worst enemy sadly and still trying to recover from it all. Apologies just going through some things this evening. that came all of a sudden, a trigger. If you want to talk more feel free to message me if you wish.

Sadly all I have is my family so there extremely important to me. I have no social life so I don't know what a true friend is like to have or know what love really feels like. Guys today just wouldn't accept nor like me since I don't want certified things in a relationship since I was abused in a way that scarred me and still trying to recover from. So I won't be able to find out what love is sadly and made my peace being single the rest of my life. As for friends I make some cool if not I also made peace being alone and only having my family.

It's pretty good, a lot of diversity in it which I like in shows and movies. All the characters are all cool in their own way and interesting. I'm not sure what other TV shows it compares too, sorry.

Thank you its a show called 911 Lonestar about fire and rescue calls, a drama I think. Shes also older than me I live with her as roommates, It's been about 5 years now living together.

*gose up to you then paws your cheek softly afterwards messes up your hair playfully* Awww, Thank you your too kind Squirtlenator.. (^,.,^) *wags my tail a bit happily* I'm happy you had nice weather today, where I live we are as well for about a week now. I also hope Winter is behind us as well. I'm going watch a TV show with my sister when she gets off work and spend time with her, afterwards go to bed. So just relaxing with my sister the rest of the night for me.

That's good your doing okay I hope I could help make it better for ya~! (^,.,^) Also thank you I try, heh. *smiles cute like while my wolf ears twitch a bit* I'm doing really good lately and today has been a great day for me, thank you for asking Squirtlenator. (^,.,^) So what are your plans the rest of the day/night?

Hey Squirtlenator~
How are you doing today? All good I hope your a tough player to beat in FG, I salute to you.

Looking good Joshua with your vpp Blastoise evolutionary line siggy and nice steel blue colors. Rock on!