[Poetry] Helena

[Controversial?]

just a lil something that i wrote to get loads of **** off my chest. i'm usually a guy who writes (relatively) cheery pop-punk songs and that that only work in a band setting, so this is a massive change.
(it's actually something that took inspiration from bands like touché amoré and title fight lol)

This is for a girl who got into my head and threw my life away
For a girl who stopped me in my tracks in what I had to say
For a girl who proved to me I'm not the man I think I am
And made me feel all these things I never want to understand

But somehow they took hold and never ****ing let go
And through no fault of hers I lost all I'd ever known
And finally froze in my tracks and just ****ing stopped and stared
Until I found a cliff and jumped, hoping nobody would care

Well this could have possibly worked out
In another world, I wouldn't know
Perhaps a world where I wouldn't be so ****ed up
So scared to try out something new
Where I'd have confidence to do
All those things I wanna do

But that's most certainly not here, so I said this loud and clear
"Listen; I know it's been fun, but I think this needs to stop right here"
And now when I go to bed, these words keep ringing in my ears
About the night that I had finally succumbed to all my fears

I really hope she knows it's not her fault that I made this mistake
That I could fall for her and lose all of the confidence I faked
And maybe soon I'll learn to piece myself together, bit by bit
Maybe soon I'll learn to keep control when my feelings go to ****

Till then I'll sit here at my desk, and just write away the day
About a girl who could get into my head and throw my life away
Then I'll pretend one day I'd meet someone, our futures would be bright
Pretend that Helena is not the only name I think at night.

EDIT:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA oh the irony of what happened a month after this. I was so stupid. xDDDDDDDDDDDD
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