Boy did this thread turn dark...
Honestly? I hate myself. I hate the person I am because she's nothing but an imperfection, a mistake. Do I put up with myself? Yes. Because I have to. There's really know way around it. As for comparison to myself and others? Not at all. No one wants to live the life I have to go through. I don't think my life is any better compared to someone else's life.
I don't value my life at all. If it wasn't for music, I'd probably be dead right now. I just don't feel like I should be in a world that can't accept me for who I am, you know? I'm fighting though. I fight everyday to be strong. That's what I'm going to keep doing no matter what life decided to through at me. That's all that truly matters, right?
I hope you don't mind a bit of tough love.
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You are who you define yourself to be. Cars don't drive themselves, you're in control of the wheel. Your imperfections are the results of your actions/inaction. Everything you dislike about yourself is entirely your fault, you created your own mess (whatever it is) and you put up with it not because you have to, but because you choose to. The value of your life is as low as you let it fall.
And this is a good thing.
Do you know why it's good? Because it means you can fix it. It means you have the power to change your situation for the better. You are Player 1 in this game, you're the main character of your story. You're not subject to the misdirection or misguidance of anyone else. You are not background noise; you are the main event.
And so what if you haven't been so great at it so far? Every moment you're alive is another moment to do better. If you want to know what the value of life is, it's the value of time that you have to make your experience and the experiences of those around you beautiful. We so readily think about how much we're lacking in comparison to others (usually material) but we never realise that we have the same awesome gift other people have: the gift of being alive. Every breath, every waking moment is a blessing because it is an opportunity to experience all this world has to offer. All you have to do is reach out and take it.
I've never met you, but I promise you are a valuable and a worthwhile person to know. How do I know this? I know this because you are a human being, same as me, same as your neighbour, same as your parents, same as Oprah Winfrey, same as Hayao Miyazaki, same as Natalie Portman, same as Bill Gates --- same as everyone else on earth and THAT is what really matters: in the end, no one is better than anyone else. Sometimes we have more than others, sometimes we have less, but we all have a unique story to tell. And that story always means something.
Your life is your story. Please do not ever tell yourself that isn't worth having.
Anyone else who shares her sentiments, read this! Damn, now I feel like doing something awesome and taking you all along. Oh and as for my answer to this question: hell yes I'm happy with myself. I love my life because it's so malleable. I have my limitations, same as anyone else, but just knowing how much potential is out there that I can achieve when my put my mind to it has me excited to no end (and yes I realise the irony of saying this while I post a lot on an online forum like this hahaha). I guess I balance this with what I like to do, too :) I put a lot of value in the lives of others because of how much they mean to me, so I'd probably put them before me, yeah (I can be selfish when it comes to cookies and stuff though haha).
Life is really beautiful, man. If you don't think so, it's just because you haven't found it yet.