..Uhm, hey there guys..
I really got this problem that makes me want to quit school. Anyway..
Have you tried explaining your side to people who won't even try to understand?
I always understand, in fact, I gained a lot of friends for I never judge a person without understanding them.
But they're different when they treated me, but I never did something to them, they just label that what I did was " bad and unforgivable "
and I really got shocked about it. The next day, as I entered our room, eyes that pierces my very heart, they stared at me
with malicious kind of thinking. I am afraid.
One of them talked to me, and I explained what happened. You know what he/she said? ( covering the gender )
" Bah! just shut up will you, I don't care about you anymore! " ...
that was my best friend. :(
and now rumors spreading, things I really dislike, many of my classmates are avoiding me,
I'm afraid to loose them all, I love all of my classmates, I treasure each,
but hell, I got misjudged... I just told my best friend.
" You know, I'll always understand... and I'll understand why you're acting like that, but please, for my sake,
... will you do the same...? "
and he/she just repeated the same thing. " I don't care "
then I got a text message from one of my close friends,
and my god, he/she was also furious about me,
I'm afraid I'm losing my touch in going to school.
But I feel a little relieved that I found somebody to talk to, I told everything,
and he/she just said,
" You know, you belong to us, but the question is, do we belong to you? "
I never answered him/her. I just said, I need to think for a while.
But now, everything seems to be so damn cold. The atmosphere of my classmates becomes icy cold.
I feel really depressed. Is it right for me to just always understand? Is it right for me to let them think what they want to think?
Is it right for me to just lay down and let them stomp me with their harsh words?
Please, I really need help. Or am I just being too affected?
Will they soon understand? Or am I the one who will let them understand again?
Is it right for me to feel this way? To be mad at the same time denying my anger because they're my friends?
I really don't know, I'm so confused!
Please, I beg you guys, I really need help...
Thank you for reading...