Meganium
[i]memento mori[/i]
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That is literally the title I will give for this Monthly Update.
November has its good stuff, but also its bad. Of course we had the US Presidential Election which, in a previous blog entry I wrote a couple weeks ago, it made me open my eyes towards American politics and has made me aware of what the hell is going on with the country. It also made me become more vocal, as in the past I was scared of opening my mouth towards the subject (speech classes, political science and history classes are the bane of my existence). It was a rough couple of weeks for me, to be quite honest with you. All I can say is, I'm not happy with the result (and never will be), but then again…as my dad mentioned, we must always hope for the best.
Roy and I had a rough start at the beginning of the month. Our arguments and fights were beginning to get constant, and yay for that power struggle again! I was beginning to get annoyed about his constant forgetfulness and his lack of communication. There were times that I text him and I get a response several hours later, especially when it comes to important stuff. It was literally throwing me off, and my anxiety spikes up to the max. What pushed me over the edge was one night, he didn't text me back about dinner ideas, and he ended up getting food for himself instead. I was pissed off at him to the point that I decided to move out of the room and spend the next two nights in the living room. During that time, I began to contemplate myself whether I'm starting to be emotionally rough on him, because he *did* apologize several times. If you know me in real life, I have issues accepting apologies, and issues with trust. It always have been the case with my emotionally destroyed mom's side of the family. I had to seek advice for myself by hanging out with a friend (who's already married) in Houston. That was one huge fight, the other fight was about the same thing. I ended up spending the night at a friend's house, while he was with his dad at the time. We made up before my birthday came around.
I think the month of November, I was finally able to be more open towards people. My communication skills has gotten better to where I can freely express my opinions and not feel judged about it every time. I've also become more open towards my family as well. Back then, because of my mental instability the past few months, I had a hard time talking. Emotions and thoughts were bottled up, and it was one day (the night after the election), I became a bottle of coke that exploded right off the top after being shaken for a few minutes.
I turned 26 on November 19th. I didn't feel any significant change other than the milestone on being open towards others. Nowadays, I ask a hell lot more questions than ever before. Communication is definitely the key. My birthday was pretty awesome, by the way! It started with breakfast in bed. Then Roy showered me with a couple of presents. I ended up getting some Hot Wheels cars, which was freaking AMAZING because ever since I was a little girl I always wanted to have my own set of Hot Wheels. Unfortunately, my parents stayed with society's rules. Later on, Roy took me on a ferry ride through Galveston Bay, and took me to an Italian restaurant that served authentic Italian pizza. Finally, we got home, Roy gave me my favorite cake ever: Red Velvet, as well as EVEN MORE PRESENTS. I got a Hot Wheels track as well. :D I was ecstatic! I once told him that having my own set of Hot Wheels was my childhood dream, and he made it a reality.
I've also been really hooked on Skylanders. I'm still playing Trap Team, and trying to collect all the trap masters and the crystals. My favorite Trap Master is Tuff Luck, because of her green sword crystals and her Irish accent. Roy is still getting through Giants, which I am more than happy to help him out now that I have some Giants Skylanders figures.
December is going to be pretty busy. Work is picking up, and there's also my upcoming trip to California soon. I'll be there from 19th to the 30th, which means Christmas with the family once again (hoping to make this a yearly thing). At this point I don't know what to buy for people. I'll be starting to shop this coming Sunday (I'm off work every Sunday), so I'll be sure to get at least half of my list done by then. Also, it looks like Roy and I will be going to see Game Grumps Live in two weeks :D I have to get tickets soon, though! Thankfully I got paid.
November has its good stuff, but also its bad. Of course we had the US Presidential Election which, in a previous blog entry I wrote a couple weeks ago, it made me open my eyes towards American politics and has made me aware of what the hell is going on with the country. It also made me become more vocal, as in the past I was scared of opening my mouth towards the subject (speech classes, political science and history classes are the bane of my existence). It was a rough couple of weeks for me, to be quite honest with you. All I can say is, I'm not happy with the result (and never will be), but then again…as my dad mentioned, we must always hope for the best.
Roy and I had a rough start at the beginning of the month. Our arguments and fights were beginning to get constant, and yay for that power struggle again! I was beginning to get annoyed about his constant forgetfulness and his lack of communication. There were times that I text him and I get a response several hours later, especially when it comes to important stuff. It was literally throwing me off, and my anxiety spikes up to the max. What pushed me over the edge was one night, he didn't text me back about dinner ideas, and he ended up getting food for himself instead. I was pissed off at him to the point that I decided to move out of the room and spend the next two nights in the living room. During that time, I began to contemplate myself whether I'm starting to be emotionally rough on him, because he *did* apologize several times. If you know me in real life, I have issues accepting apologies, and issues with trust. It always have been the case with my emotionally destroyed mom's side of the family. I had to seek advice for myself by hanging out with a friend (who's already married) in Houston. That was one huge fight, the other fight was about the same thing. I ended up spending the night at a friend's house, while he was with his dad at the time. We made up before my birthday came around.
I think the month of November, I was finally able to be more open towards people. My communication skills has gotten better to where I can freely express my opinions and not feel judged about it every time. I've also become more open towards my family as well. Back then, because of my mental instability the past few months, I had a hard time talking. Emotions and thoughts were bottled up, and it was one day (the night after the election), I became a bottle of coke that exploded right off the top after being shaken for a few minutes.
I turned 26 on November 19th. I didn't feel any significant change other than the milestone on being open towards others. Nowadays, I ask a hell lot more questions than ever before. Communication is definitely the key. My birthday was pretty awesome, by the way! It started with breakfast in bed. Then Roy showered me with a couple of presents. I ended up getting some Hot Wheels cars, which was freaking AMAZING because ever since I was a little girl I always wanted to have my own set of Hot Wheels. Unfortunately, my parents stayed with society's rules. Later on, Roy took me on a ferry ride through Galveston Bay, and took me to an Italian restaurant that served authentic Italian pizza. Finally, we got home, Roy gave me my favorite cake ever: Red Velvet, as well as EVEN MORE PRESENTS. I got a Hot Wheels track as well. :D I was ecstatic! I once told him that having my own set of Hot Wheels was my childhood dream, and he made it a reality.
I've also been really hooked on Skylanders. I'm still playing Trap Team, and trying to collect all the trap masters and the crystals. My favorite Trap Master is Tuff Luck, because of her green sword crystals and her Irish accent. Roy is still getting through Giants, which I am more than happy to help him out now that I have some Giants Skylanders figures.
December is going to be pretty busy. Work is picking up, and there's also my upcoming trip to California soon. I'll be there from 19th to the 30th, which means Christmas with the family once again (hoping to make this a yearly thing). At this point I don't know what to buy for people. I'll be starting to shop this coming Sunday (I'm off work every Sunday), so I'll be sure to get at least half of my list done by then. Also, it looks like Roy and I will be going to see Game Grumps Live in two weeks :D I have to get tickets soon, though! Thankfully I got paid.