droomph
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On the one hand, I feel like I have a problem and I want to talk about it.
On the other hand, I don't want to turn into a tumblr girl and whine about all my problems like it's never my fault.
But then, I can't admit that anything isn't my fault. Like, what if they did that because I did something and it's my fault and I'm just subconsciously trying to cover up for it?
But then, I feel like I'm just being too negative. Lighten up, *******!
But then, I feel like I don't deserve to be so full of myself. Dude, people hate you for a reason, you know?
But I mean, I think some people hate me, sure, but I love myself and I'm sure some people have said that they like me being around.
But you know, you prompted them to tell you. What if they really hate you but are more mature than the people who say they hate you openly and try to make you feel better about being the worst person in the world?
But you know, I'm sure that all people do hate me, yes, but they can never completely hate me. Remember, we went through the "everything is a gradient of truth and false"?
Yes, but you made that up to make yourself feel better about being the worst person in the world.
Yeah, okay, but look! Look! This guy says I'm pretty chill, I'm pretty-
Yes, but he doesn't reply to you immediately. He must have more important things to deal with, and you're annoying him-
But he said that he was free-
Remember, the "social fake"? He could be trying to-
And furthermore, not everyone is as spastic as I am!
Yes, but his long wait times show that he doesn't like you-
Where'd you get that from?!
You see, it's pretty simple. You-
I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. I feel like dead right now, and I know that's not something I should feel.
You're just ignoring the truth. You should definitely kill yourself - what is there to lose for others? You certainly have not-
I LOVE MY LIFE. THE ONLY PART…is…is…you…
Me what? I'm your everything. I am the reason you are not in prison, or some stupid juvenile detention center.
But you were the one that got me to the possibility of going there!
Or was I? You don't even know-
I know. I know all of it.
Oh, so do you?
I'm tired as hell. Let me go…let me go…
You're just running away from your problems. You can't live like that, you know.
The only problem I'm running away from is you, because there is no way to get rid of you, so I must get away from you. I've tried to make you stop. You don't listen.
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So idk where that came from.
On the other hand, I don't want to turn into a tumblr girl and whine about all my problems like it's never my fault.
But then, I can't admit that anything isn't my fault. Like, what if they did that because I did something and it's my fault and I'm just subconsciously trying to cover up for it?
But then, I feel like I'm just being too negative. Lighten up, *******!
But then, I feel like I don't deserve to be so full of myself. Dude, people hate you for a reason, you know?
But I mean, I think some people hate me, sure, but I love myself and I'm sure some people have said that they like me being around.
But you know, you prompted them to tell you. What if they really hate you but are more mature than the people who say they hate you openly and try to make you feel better about being the worst person in the world?
But you know, I'm sure that all people do hate me, yes, but they can never completely hate me. Remember, we went through the "everything is a gradient of truth and false"?
Yes, but you made that up to make yourself feel better about being the worst person in the world.
Yeah, okay, but look! Look! This guy says I'm pretty chill, I'm pretty-
Yes, but he doesn't reply to you immediately. He must have more important things to deal with, and you're annoying him-
But he said that he was free-
Remember, the "social fake"? He could be trying to-
And furthermore, not everyone is as spastic as I am!
Yes, but his long wait times show that he doesn't like you-
Where'd you get that from?!
You see, it's pretty simple. You-
I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT. I feel like dead right now, and I know that's not something I should feel.
You're just ignoring the truth. You should definitely kill yourself - what is there to lose for others? You certainly have not-
I LOVE MY LIFE. THE ONLY PART…is…is…you…
Me what? I'm your everything. I am the reason you are not in prison, or some stupid juvenile detention center.
But you were the one that got me to the possibility of going there!
Or was I? You don't even know-
I know. I know all of it.
Oh, so do you?
I'm tired as hell. Let me go…let me go…
You're just running away from your problems. You can't live like that, you know.
The only problem I'm running away from is you, because there is no way to get rid of you, so I must get away from you. I've tried to make you stop. You don't listen.
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So idk where that came from.